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2018-12-20 at 7:56 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionIt would be comfortable to believe in order. But there's just 100 trillion variables all guided invisibly by chemistry and impulse and animal urge, careening towards carefree or cataclysm in an undying spiral fever dream of mitosis and entropy.
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2018-12-20 at 7:49 PM UTC in TFW You Realize EVERYONE On Here is an Alt (Solipsism-maxxing)That reminds me of another time I got a vibe of something that'd be a killer indie style documentary. There was a video on efukt for a while with a guy and girl that met in tumbler. The girl was really cute. The guy was kind of fat and just looked mad and crazy. Think his handle was sadistic_sid or something. Anyway they meet online and get ina relationship, and eventually he gets her to start doing things and he films it to post online. First 20-30 seconds of the first video is her standing naked in front of a mirror crying, and he's shaving her head and this song is playing
There's pussy mutilation, cutting her breasts, forcing things down her throat, punching her in the face, choking her. Putting knives in her ass. Very little sexual, just a lot of hurting, and the final scene is them both staring in the mirror blankly, with a really lo-if quality. Felt like the kind of video you might see as evidence in a murder trial.
But the vibe I always got from that, I always thought would be an interesting/fucked up indie movie about a girl with mental problems who meets a genuinely fucked up dude, and over the course of a relationship, he breaks her down until she essentially agrees to let herself be eviscerated and vivisected on camera for the sake of art.
I want someone who get that same churning gut feeling I got when I finished watching requiem for a dream at 13.
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2018-12-20 at 7:31 PM UTC in TFW You Realize EVERYONE On Here is an Alt (Solipsism-maxxing)I'm an alt rite
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2018-12-20 at 6:32 PM UTC in TFW You Realize EVERYONE On Here is an Alt (Solipsism-maxxing)
Originally posted by Dfg If you can make a storyboard about it, it might actually go viral or would be at least interesting for sure.
The way I imagine it, it sets the stage for mid to late 90s internet. You show the faces- blurred or otherwise- of the faces of a bunch of people. Then you begin to interweave little vignettes of how people found it, who they connected with, what they got out of the site, etc. I,e "I filled my moms house with chlorine gas", "I ended up robbing a pharmacy with my boyfriend at the time", "I decided to try heroin for the first time live on cam", " I recorded my trip through Southeast Asia on a meth and prostitute bender". "I hitch hiked across the country to lose my virginity and became embroiled in a paternity controversey" . Of course it would be a bit more in depth then that. Then there'd be an examination of fringe internet culture as a whole, and why so many users ended up in jail or killing themselves. It'd conclude that there's a certain type of person of often above average intelligence, below average social skills, distrust of authority figures. And for those people, TOTSE was really the frontier for free exchange of controversial information as we know it now, long before Wikileaks was a thing. Etc etc.
But I think if you could track down enough of the original 40,000, a lot of people probably got into relationships with people they met on there, made questionable life choices, made good friends.
I certainly don't know a fucking thing about film making, but I feel it could be compelling. -
2018-12-20 at 4:26 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Loing Givers and takers… The selfless and the selfish. What a wretched way to live
As a 13 year veteran of the club, I'm definitely not trying to speak from atop a high horse. But when you're being treated likely for free, and they're trying to stabilize you or improve your health, it's probably not the time to jack their shit. If the IR thermos was really that expensive, who's to say some nurse didn't take the rap for that, or for leaving it where a patient could get to it.
Idk. I would feel bad. -
2018-12-20 at 4:17 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-12-20 at 7:54 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by hydromorphone Yeah, I don't think much can bring me down. I wish it could, honestly, but I keep on truckin' along.
Just seen a friend who visited me in the hospital earlier today, got my dillys just a few mins ago, and shot them into my lovely, awesome PICC line I had set (and I like the one's Hopkins uses, they use what's called a 'secure-a-cath', which is like these two little prongs which is set subq, just below the skin, to keep the catheter from being pulled out accidentally, which they're the only hospital in the area who uses them, but they are fairly new on the market, but I highly recommend them, as I've had 3 PICCs, 2 with, and 1 without the secure-a-cath, and I had to be really careful with that one.)
When I was in the ER, I fucking hit the jackpot wit an unlocked movable cabinet which had a billion IV starter kits of every size and length, 24, 22, 20, and 18, and from 1", to 1 3/4", I even think there was some 2" ones in there. I also bagged like 6 boxes of needles of varying gauges and lengths- 25g, 24g, 22g, 20g, 19g, and 18g, from 3/4" to 1 1/2", which, personally, I use the big 20g, 19g, and 18g, because they all come in the 1 1/2" lengths, to hit my femoral veins. I can't do that with the shorter needles. They are the stupid kinds tough, the ones with the "safety tip", which is supposed to prevent you from getting stuck once you use it, but I break that shit off so it doesn't get in the way, and so I can use it more than just once if I need to. I even got a shitload of butterfly needles too, and I said fuck it, I used to send off labs for my animals, I grabbed a rainbow selections of collection vials, as well as a shitload of the vacutainer collection adapters. My fucking first aid kit is going to rock socks off again. It was like a Christmas present to myself hitting that haul.
I even managed to score a bitchin' infrared thermometer, again. I'd had one a long time ago, also commandeered from an ER, but during the house fire, moving, and other bullshit, it's probably packed in a box somewhere. I'm just glad I got a new, cool one again. They fucking run 450-500$ new. Used on ebay they are listed for around 175-200$. I just like having a reliable, and ACCURATE thermometer, Ive had so much trouble in the past with fucking ones that didn't work right, gave fucked up readings, and just took forever to give me a bad reading anyway. These are accurate, and quick. So happy to finally have that back in my bag of tricks, along with every size needle, and IV catheter I'd ever need. I'm just pissed that I missed grabbing 2 PICC line kits… then all I'd need is an untrasound machine, and someone to practice on (I've got the lidocaine), and there ya go, bang. Those PICC kits run around 2-300$ each. Insurance pays something like 2-3K wen you get one set.
Oh, and my phone got stolen by an asshole aquaintence who came to visit me, threatened me, and then when they were placed on a restricted list, somehow the hospital allowed them to sleep in the family lounge, and then fucking walk right back into my room the next morning. Some the fuck How, security didn't escort them off the property. Then they came in, grabbed my phone and tablet, and walked the fuck out. I have one hell of a lawsuit with this hospital over that shit. I already talked to a lawyer who's dick got hard when they heard what happened, and heard that Hopkins was responsible.
Oh god, it's been hell though as far as my health, blood clots, and fucking this knee, and the infection. they got me on daptomycin now. I doubt it will work, I feel its an issue of the antibiotic getting to the infection in the bone, rather than an issue of needing a different antibiotic. It's hard to get shit into bones because of the low blood flow going there. That's why it persists for a lot of people for their entire lives. I still think amputation is the way to go, and hell, I got a 50/50 shot of not having pain like I do in my knee… and fuck, Id make one bad ass pirate bitch with a peg leg, eye patch, and my parrot (blue and gold macaw, who's older than §m£ÂgØL is).
anyway, guys, how've you been Narc? good I hope. Thanks for havin' faith in me. Take it easy, sweetie.
Eh....so you stole a bunch of shit from the hospital that was keeping you alive and treated you probably for free? -
2018-12-19 at 11:50 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new username
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2018-12-19 at 11:06 PM UTC in What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?
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2018-12-19 at 6:24 PM UTC in What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?Don't suppose there's any way to enhancement the picture of that hospital bracelet for name or dob?
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2018-12-19 at 5:17 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new username*pours some out for the dead homies*
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2018-12-19 at 5:13 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionI miss bling bling
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2018-12-19 at 5:12 PM UTC in Should we embrace our grief?The sapolsky video was good to watch. And kind of empowering in a way. I always get called lazy, and I know that's not it. If I go back home and mom says you need to start throwing away all this shit and organize it into boxes.....a 15x18 foot room with every single things I've ever owned... it's just too much shit. My life feels like one of those knotted up balls of cables that you find in a drawer. Now a healthy person might look at that ball of knotted cables and wires and begin to find a starting point to u ravel it all. When I see that, or come across a problem, I just feel exhausted. And then I get angry. Any lengthy or laborious tasks I just can't deal with. She remarked that I replaced all the under-sink plumbing in the 2 bathrooms and the kitchen, so I obviously COULD ado things if I chose. Well sometimes I don't feel quite as shitty, But mainly, plumbing is just legos. You connect one piece to another and seal the threads, blowtorch to expand the fittings. It doesn't require evaluating a gigantic pile of 20 years worth of shit and parsing it into different categories, organizing some things, throwing others away. Listing some for sale.t reminds me of the way I used to feel in pre-calculus. I made it through algebra by the skin of my teeth. And although my less creative present mind isn't as daunted by mathematical things anymore, because I know it's going to be logical and adhere to certain rules....I remember looking at pages of work sometimes and I just walked out of class. My brain did the same thing, like a horse coming to deep water and rearing back, not able to force itself to go further. That's what depression feels like now. And after watching that video, I think it's pretty apparent I have major depression. Although the fact that it could just be the result of the thyroid thing is hopeful.
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2018-12-18 at 7:32 PM UTC in Should we embrace our grief?
Originally posted by Loing I really forgot how much I just love learning about how things work… Remember when lectures didn't require whining about the supposed PC culture is ruining society? (but is actually literally just Californians thinking they're the center of the world again, and the green haired gay retard on the corner is a truly existential threat to them).
Don't knock California. Without the faggots this would be a paradise. Bomb food on every corner. Gorgeous women, decent weather. Mountains and beaches. A plentiful supply of drugs and live music. Museums. Vintage cars. And the best weed on planet Erf. In other words
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2018-12-18 at 5:46 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-12-18 at 4:55 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by DietPiano Nic salts in a mod, din't know that's not really kosher. Feels like crack, doing like 30watts, it still kinda kills the throat the throat though. It tastes awful all the sudden tthough, I probably burned through the coil from dry hitting it. o well.
Doing it this way I think a bottle of juice could last me a REALLY long time bc of how strong it is in a sub ohm mod.
neway,
Yeah, "gray area" pcp Rcs are not legal, I got counts on all of them I think.
If you're wight you should be able to cash in your wypipo privilege for a slap in the wrist -
2018-12-17 at 8:23 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameLol. Dun be mad mate. Wes just knobbin wit yaz.
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2018-12-17 at 7:23 PM UTC in Ghetto Guy working the Bank
Originally posted by totse3.com Don't respond to my threads anymore you piece of shit. Look who's talking. Look how that heroin is baking your brains. You're no one to talk about having a healthy mind. I hope you OD and stroke out you disgusting mother fucker.
To be fair, it seems pretty apparent to anyone who's followed you for any short length of time that you have some pretty profound mental illnesses. Jus sayin playa. -
2018-12-17 at 7:01 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameYou'd have to have someone totally. Naive to the substance and with low body weight to be able to observe the effects quickly. Otherwise there are about a thousand different factors that can effect subjective perception of whether the drug is working yet or not.
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2018-12-17 at 6:57 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new username
Originally posted by Narc Jesus Christ you people are stupid. Have you ever snorted cocaine? Hits you instantly doesn't it? That's why you snort it, because its the fastest route. It works that fast because it is a hydrochloride salt, so its soluble.
I didn't say it started working in 30 min. I said in 30 minutes it became apparentl I was incredibly fucked up off 2mg- which for a 350 lb dude, is a pretty small dose. The question at hand was whether benzos work insufflated at ALL. Not conclusive, but it seems that it does. That was it. Not whether it's more efficient or whatever the fuck. I personally have to take 4-6mg orally for proper effects, and usually if I'm having an anxiety attack or in withdrawals, it takes me an hour to an hour and a half to feel okay.
I mean think about it, if it took over half an hour to affect Casper when he snorted it earlier, yet just swallowing the tablets takes barely 20 minutes, then really what is the point of snorting it? What is the advantage?
Other than "yeah look at me I'm snorting, I look like tony Montana herp derp".
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THAT was the point.
While bioavailability isn't as good, inhaled, insufflated and sublingual are supposed to provide 20% higher peak plasma concentrations.
I'm not sure what you're all pissy about.
