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2019-02-08 at 2:29 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2019-02-07 at 3:24 AM UTC in I spent the 2010s high and drunk all the time2004-2018
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2019-02-06 at 1:18 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
Originally posted by Technologist Casper,
Where’s my breakfast? I’m hungry. It’s almost 7:30 EST. I’ll get your errands done, gimme all yo money!
Fair enough. Breakfast is In the skillet....butter scone with fresh strawberry jam and churned butter, light scrambled eggs with charred tomato basil ratatouille, corn grits and crispy oven potatoes, tossed with olive oil, garlic and rosemary.
Tell that Nigerian fuck if he offers me $50 on another iPhone 7 I'm going to stab him in the taint with a pencil. -
2019-02-06 at 12:07 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..High. Staying up so I can get some stuff done as soon as places open tomorrow, then try to get in a few hours before work.
Just grateful. It's kind of unreal how "not myself" I've been for 15 years or more. And all of a sudden, it's just like a fog lifted and all at once I remembered who I was. I'm an amazing friend. I care about people. I'm good at a ton of different stuff. I'm generally articulate and well reasoned, and I didn't actually break my brain (maybe just a few IQ points).
Even when I was clean before, it was always a white-knuckle, skin-of-your-teeth kind of sobriety. As long as I could keep myself distracted, I was okay. It made me physically anxious to imagine a future in which I didn't have drugs to help me deal with shit. But today, I know that I'll never do heroin again. It wouldn't mean any particular thing if i did, and it'd just mean having to refocus and find something to work towards, but it wouldn't mean I had lost anything. In addiction and sobriety, there's this constant vigilance that any one thing could set you off, and that failure means you lose all the progress you made, and start over again. But failure for me was growth. With that toxic sunk cost fallacy mindset, I was able to drag out 13 years of bullshit that I should've grown out of a decade ago. It doesn't mean we forget them, but when we constantly flagellate ourselves for our mistakes, you miss out on that transformative energy. When you can't see anything outside, and the situation you're in is already bad without hope for it getting better anytime soon- you feel like what you do doesn't matter. When you're in it, it's easy to rationalize continuing to make poor choices. Like if I'm in a cell by myself and no one will answer, I might as well shit on the floor. And since I already shit on the floor, might as well do it next time. I'll just have to deal with the shit later. Going back to doing heroin would be like having the door opened, and walking outside into an open field and then choosing to walk back inside and pulling the door shut behind me. /solid, not-high analogy
Anyway. I'm high and I'm suddenly very self aware that I sound like one of those faggotty motivational speakers.
I feel gud. I eated cottage cheese and then some peanut butter chocolate mini wheats and then some habanero onion sweet pickles. My tummy hurt. -
2019-02-06 at 3:54 AM UTC in Random Thoughts
Originally posted by Erekshun This is NOT DH, if you hookup with someone here, beware!
I resent the implication, SIR. So far our user base seems to be more stable and sane...
If anyone wants to fly out to Los Angeles and slobber my dong for shits and giggles, they can be confident that I'll pay their lyft line back to the aiport, and no shade will be thrown after the fact. won't try to tell anyone im pregnant, won't try to squat in their apartment or steal their car.
I'm nothing but a complete gentleman. -
2019-02-05 at 11:53 PM UTC in Win a MYSTERY BOX from ME!
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2019-02-05 at 11:36 PM UTC in Win a MYSTERY BOX from ME!Lol I was just thinking a mystery box from me would be a dream come true for someone. I had entire drawers full of drugs and paraphernalia that I started throwing away ever since I started trying to get sober.
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2019-02-05 at 10:54 PM UTC in Win a MYSTERY BOX from ME!WHAT'S IN THE FUCKING BOX?! WHATSINTHEBOX? OH GOD WHAT'S IN THE BOOOOOOOOX?!
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2019-02-05 at 1:46 PM UTC in We have a moral obligation to stop eating meatY'all niggas posting in a meat thread
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2019-02-05 at 9:05 AM UTC in Pardon Me
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2019-02-05 at 4:59 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2019-02-05 at 4:58 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Solstice Offer to give the lead for the meeting and just spend the whole time telling stories about cooking rocks in people's fine silverware at house parties.
Lol I'm touched you remember that.
"What are you doing?"
"Cooking a rock."
" ...a what? "
" a rock"
" are you...what? "
"I'M MAKING CRACK"
"...are you joking right now? That is NOT okay..."
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2019-02-05 at 3 AM UTC in Technologist likes to play the role of Forum Mom to all the misguided MOON PERSONs here on NIS...I'm gonna market my butthole as an organic home cleaning solution
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2019-02-05 at 2:54 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionYeah I now have extra motivation for my weight loss goal when I realized if I lose all the pudge in my midsection, it'll add a respectable 1.5" to my hog. Worth it.
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2019-02-05 at 2:51 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH I haven't been to an NA meeting in a while but that always seemed like a good idea.. 7 years ago I got a rush of confidence while standing outside smoking at one and got a girls number.. who had no front teeth. Good body though. I didn't get to smash. I had two rehab hoes though. Grosssssss.
Anyway..
I was wasting a bunch of money on clothes towards the end of last year and I still kinda am.. My credit is actually pretty good too..
I know I think I'm gonna start hitting meetings to smash. I mean I'm in pretty awful shape, but with newfound confidence and having my life somewhat in order, I should at least be able to wiggle her out of her jeans to tongue punch her eye of sauron. Might get to jerk off on her tongue or something . I'll take it. -
2019-02-05 at 2:36 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionUsually takes me a wee bit less than a 12 pack
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2019-02-05 at 1:30 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionAnyone that knows me knows it's be more like 9 or 11 beers, but my point remains
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2019-02-05 at 12:08 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionIs 30 really the new 20?
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2019-02-05 at 12:06 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionI feel fucking good. I want to have a beer with all of you and then give you a hug the way your parents never did.
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2019-02-04 at 10:44 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
