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2019-03-19 at 3:52 PM UTC in Don'tTellEm is a goddess...Y'all niggaz ever ate a 3 cheese sausage?
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2019-03-19 at 3:49 PM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?
Originally posted by Dissociator I never used the metal bowl for scaling. Lost it when I first got the scale. Pretty much just calibrated it with a bottle cap on it and measured with that. Or dumped drugs straight onto it,.
Dumping drugs directly onto the scale is always a good move.
Bc then you can be like "well if my calculations are correct, it appears that I lost roughly 60% the material stuck to the plate. Therefore, I should add one entire scoop more to my eventual dose"
= SOLID SCIENCE -
2019-03-19 at 3:42 PM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?
Originally posted by Dissociator I'm 20 and currently in an inpatient rehab (luckily I have access to a computer). Hopefully you caught glimpse or followed the splooshambo antics of 2014-2018 because they were fucking GOLD. Those days are over now I'm CLEAN and going home in 4 days,.
Lol yeah I caught some bits and pieces. You're surprisingly coherent now. I genuinely thought you'd made yourself retarded. Rofl.
Congrats bro v. Wade.
You're way ahead of the curve. Took me 13 years to get my shit together. Enroll in school asap. Find a way to make money. Just being proud of what you're doing, and feeling like you're not at a complete dead end is a way better drug than any of the other shit I ever did was.
Be honest with yourself though- if I told you you could NEVER to drugs (anything besides alcohol, weed) again, does that thought freak you out, or are you completely cool with that? Do you feel like with the "knowledge" you have now, you could use those same drugs that fucked you up- responsibly?
I only ask because there were a bunch of times I thought I was "good", but in the end my desire to not deal with life bullshit was stronger than my desire to be sober. A lot of people I know have thought they were done, but when I ask them that question, they realize there's a lot more that they need to "get out of their system". -
2019-03-19 at 3:28 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by GGG Just because his brain was physically normal does not mean it was normal when he was alive, right? I haven't looked at the autopsy report in full yet but there's no way they could like, MRI that shit. Like if he was schizo for example, i dont think that would've shown.
Don't think it's fair to imply that there was nothing wrong with malice. He suffered from some weird and intense social problems at the very least and idk if I believe that you can totally construct that kind of prison. I mean towards the end he was actually having psychotic episodes it seemed.
Yeah I'm pretty sure they just meant physiologically, structurally normal.
There would've had to be electrical activity and blood in it to be able to do whatever the EEG/ MRI scans, etc.
We're not saying that there was nothing wrong with him. He was pretty severely disabled, socially, developmentally.
But I shared like 80% of the symptoms and impairments that he had. 13 years of addiction, isolation, unemployment, no friends, no intellectual cultivation - absolutely CRIPPLED me. As I mentioned before,I bought my first gun years ago for the EXPRESS purpose of killing myself. I just wanted the comfort of knowing I had that option if and when I got to my breaking point and had the guts to pull the trigger.
But roughly a year later, after taking pretty minor steps to make things better (stopping heroin for medicine assisted treatment, work, social integration, diet, exercise), pretty much all of that reversed itself. Im still not perfect, but I'd say I'm 70% or so back to my baseline functioning.
The part that bothers me most, is that he didn't want to take those most lazy, rudimentary steps to get better. It was more reasonable to his mind to eat a bunch of random powders and inject vials of Chinese testosterone, and eventually kill himself....than it was to....try to make a friend. Volunteer. Find meaning. Get a job.
Suicide would've always been an option.
But in his mind, it was easier to kill himself than to TRY anything. I can't even wrap my head around that fully. I mean...I sort of get it. When I was depressed, taking a shower more than once every 3 days seemed like an abso,use chore. I mean I was barely leaving the house so who gives a shit. I get why minor things would seem like so much work. But it'd almost be laughable if it weren't so sad.
"So....I'm supposed to start...talking to my family? And going out in public? And buy a dog? And volunteer at a shelter a couple times a month....with homeless people? With their dirty, unwashed hands? And that's going to fix my life? Ehhhhhhhhh..... nah I'm good on that"
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2019-03-19 at 2:28 PM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?I'm pretty proud of that last one tbh
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2019-03-19 at 2:25 PM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?
Originally posted by Dissociator anyone in a 12 step program is a junkie
an unstablized drug cadet that knows hes a flippyfloppy drug future-cadaver is a self aware user-loser, but not a junkoy
Nah he's still a junkie. He's just 10 years away from realizing it.
Nigga you think you're the first awkward, high school age dude to snort pills, drink a bunch of cough syrup and brew up some devils trumpet for an impromptu drive to the airport?
I was dodging holographic cheetahs in a Beamer back when you were fisting cheerios in high chairs with Lupita.
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2019-03-19 at 2:16 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by Zanick Genitals are normal. Brain is normal. All physiological features appear to be normal. Why did our old friend become convinced he was an irredeemable freak? Based on what his father shared in the police report, I really want to blame the people around him.
Fucking this.
I'm really tempted to compile every Malice post I can find, going back years....and mail it to his father.
He doesn't seem to have ever had so much as a conversation with the kid he produced.
"We had no idea where he was for 10 years". Did you file a missing person report? Did you bother looking?
Or was it just a relief to not have to deal with your weird, subnormal kid anymore? Guessing the latter. Had other kids anyway. Gotta hedge your bets. Justin certainly wasn't going to be changing any Depends. -
2019-03-19 at 1:35 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
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2019-03-19 at 1:30 PM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?Bc one of the biggest parts of trying to sell stuff you've had to "make" yourself (or cut), is that it usually doesn't look presentable. Anyone who's ever tried to "rerock" street coke for sale k own what I'm talking about. I've had people pack it into measuring cups. Put it in a heavy duty ziploc and step on it, etc. If it looks weird and crumbles easily, there's a good chance no one is going to buy it.
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2019-03-19 at 1:27 PM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?
Originally posted by GGG Elmer's glue you say?
Yeah it's non toxic, doesn't leave much of an odor. You can dilute it 10-1 with water, mix it into the dry stuff to make a paste, pack the paste into cheesecloth and wrap it, and then either put it in a vacuum oven for a day, or put it in the garage in a vice clamp and let it dry out naturally. -
2019-03-19 at 1:24 PM UTC in The totse/zoklet/ect darwin awards
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2019-03-19 at 1:23 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
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2019-03-19 at 12:42 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro EditionLol. Guess he probably figured if it wasn't a "suspicious death", they wouldn't do any of that gory stuff he didn't want done...which is strange because he was pretty rational about everything else.
JOKES ON YOU BITCH THEY SAWED YOUR SKULL OPEN. -
2019-03-19 at 12:38 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
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2019-03-19 at 8:20 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
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2019-03-19 at 3:51 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by mmQ Is there any really good reason to wonder why or why not people do anything ?
Oh what a good case study malice could be. He had x reasons to live an y reasons not to. Like the next guy. Some are celebrities some are regular Joe's some are faggots some are third world fucklords. Some live some die some should some shouldn't. But we're all gonna eventually. Stupid "real life" seems worthwhile once you get here though wed have all been happier had we not been here.
To change the words of biggie
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion, I FUCKING WISH MY MOM HAD HAD AN ABORTION."
never were, never could have been
"I don't want to waste my time
Become another casualty of society
I'll never fall in line
Become another victim of your conformity
And back down"
- Dalai Lama Justin Hernandez, Jr. II -
2019-03-19 at 3:24 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
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2019-03-19 at 3:22 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Reporti think they really only do this when its a suicide or they need to otherwise confirm cause of death.
The saddest thing for me was that no one else in his family really seemed to care much for him, and the part at the end where it talks about every time there was a school shooting, they school would take him into the counselor bc they thought he was the "type" of kid to shoot up a school.
Thats really fucked up. No wonder he was so socially fucked up and aggressive. -
2019-03-19 at 3:05 AM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III or just use water has either of you niggas taken a fucking chemistry class
Like §m£ÂgØL said- still need to know what youre starting with. A homie from my swim class used volumetric for making his bricks of "china", but you still have to start with a known quantity.
furanyl-fentanyl
elmers glue
creatine
microcellulose
quinine
acetic anhydride
lactose
water
95% ethanol
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2019-03-19 at 2:39 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy ReportAs promised, with a couple emails from a while back.
Rest in Peace, Space Nigga.
https://drive.google.com/open?id=1O3Cg7h_impycjD9e7gCvgjbetFH0_EhL
