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2019-05-23 at 8:30 PM UTC in DH in a nutshellAccurate
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2019-05-23 at 8:29 PM UTC in back on drugs
Originally posted by Octavian I was meaning to ask for some advice of sorts. Alcohol seems to be a big trigger so the less I have the better. That back pain I can get from just alcohol alone. How old are you now Casper. Do you still drink. What are your triggers and how long have you been sober for?
Turn 31 in less than a month. Idk if i call being on methadone the same thing as sober, but i havent done any drugs since Halloween last year. I rarely drink as it is, but im still deciding if that's something i "should" do. I drank a few bottles of wine and vodka Christmas night, and i dont think i drank since. Was just never really my thing- esp drinking alone. My triggers are really just stress, anxiety, anger. -
2019-05-23 at 8:21 PM UTC in Risir has never gotten laid without being drunk...
Originally posted by CandyRein You say you don’t care but you typed a whole lot.. definitely not mad.. I don’t see any anger there at all
Sorry you took it that way.. but you typed this long narrative.. first words it’s weird no pic posted and that’s crazy to me
My opinion.. it’s all good lol
Off to work 😋
Also it occurs to me that you might be the first woman in the history of ever to not do the "Why are there no pics of us on your FB? Are you ashamed of me or something?"- thing. Keep spreading the good word. That shit was obnoxious. -
2019-05-23 at 8:14 PM UTC in back on drugs
Originally posted by WellHung Casper, So you believe that Lanny does not run this forum for altruistic reasons… he only does it to power trip, and for status?👍
Wut? Where did you get that out of anything i said?
I think he does it out of boredom, and because hes the only one with the experience and inbitiative to do it in the first place.
ANyone who gets a feeling of "status" out of Adminning some half dead forum offshoot of an offshoot of an offshoot...is pathetic af. -
2019-05-23 at 8:12 PM UTC in back on drugs
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2019-05-23 at 8:04 PM UTC in Risir has never gotten laid without being drunk...DadBurn ^
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2019-05-23 at 7:54 PM UTC in Risir has never gotten laid without being drunk...
Originally posted by CandyRein You say you don’t care but you typed a whole lot.. definitely not mad.. I don’t see any anger there at all
Sorry you took it that way.. but you typed this long narrative.. first words it’s weird no pic posted and that’s crazy to me
My opinion.. it’s all good lol
Off to work 😋
Have good daaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy -
2019-05-23 at 7:50 PM UTC in Risir has never gotten laid without being drunk...
Originally posted by CandyRein You’re not as sane as I thought you were..
Why is a man posting a pic of himself if he doesn’t want to just because he’s dating someone
Like he’s never dated before .. wth lmao..
If a picture of a random couple online puts anyone’s mind at ease they need a fuqn life and need to get laid
Lol why are you all mad? Like i said either way is completely fine. Has zero to do with me. Really dont care. Really really dont care. Just weird (to me)- but to each their own. Dont get all pooperplowed over nothing. Too early.
You guys legitimately get offended so quick its unreal.
Like how often do i say something intending to fuck with someone?
E: Correct reponse wouldve been "We're happy. He wants to stay anonymous. And i dont want anyone photoshopping pictures of Bill Krozby's dick in my mouth. End of story" -
2019-05-23 at 7:46 PM UTC in Do you think you'd be brave enough to be in a gunfight?
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2019-05-23 at 7:36 PM UTC in Risir has never gotten laid without being drunk...I mean honestly it is weird no one has posted a pic. Anytime Ive met people from the forums, we've either gone on TC together or taken pictures. I always just assumed they were doing the long distance/ cam thing. Which is totally fine- i mean if your life is enriched by a long distance relationship with someone, theres no shame in that at all. Then again, the amount of time i spent speculating on this topic that has zero to do with me was like....22 seconds.
Also- ive never had sober sex either, and it scares the shit out of me how thats eventually going to go down. Sitting in a room full of murderers, junkies, prostitutes, robbers...perfectly at ease. Have to give a class presentation, or do anything conventionally normal....panic attack, start shaking like a leaf. lol. -
2019-05-23 at 6:55 PM UTC in back on drugsSeriously though. My body is also completely fucked. My kidneys feel like someone took a sledgehammer to my back in the morning (not an exaggeration). Ive squandered a lot of opportunities. My friends are all either scumbags or in prison or dead. I had to move home at 27. Aside from LSD and Mushrooms and other select psychedelics, very little good came of using drugs.
Ofc it was really nice having something when i was stressed or pissed off or depressed...that i could just do and immediately not have to deal with my brain for a while. But all it did was buy me a reprieve for a few hours at a time. At the end, it was just the calm that i wanted. I actually hated the nod. I just used heroin like a cigarette to calm down for a few min. But when id start nodding and drooling and having to rewind the same movie over and over again- id get really annoyed. Which is funny bc thats exactly what addiction is. Its doing the same thing over and over and over again, thinking "Ill get it THIS time".
If someone actually still gets something out of getting high, more power to em. But for me, itd be like trying to move forward, going the wrong way down a conveyor belt. You might feel like youre going somewhere, you might get ahead a little bit, but something is always going to be dragging you back. Its fucking scary how easy it is to lose track of time, to believe you still have time to get your shit together. Being 25 and 27 and 30 is way too old for this shit. I hate the feeling. I hate feeling guilty afterwards. I hate the waste of money. I hate the people i had to deal with, and how much it isolates you.
I could be wrong, but it feels like theres zero reason to do it anymore.
The ONLY thing i miss at all is the money. And it was more about the peace of mind and confidence and calm and feeling of accomplishment that came with it. -
2019-05-23 at 6:32 PM UTC in back on drugs
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2019-05-23 at 4:39 AM UTC in back on drugsAlso most drugs are so lame. Accomplishes nothing. Wastes time. Makes you have to deal with all the same shit you were hiding from, later.
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2019-05-23 at 4:37 AM UTC in back on drugs
Originally posted by Ghost Drugs, relationships, mental health, outlook on life, post quality.
Believe it or not people change. You've wasted your life with the same group of retards for years, Nice AOC avatar btw just like all your cool hip friends you chat with in kik. I thought about joining that group again but then I saw who the mods were and I thought to myself "Those people are all fucked, i'd rather talk to nobody"
Because none of you have any desire to be anything except losers that take shitty drugs from the internet and talk about shitty drugs and go on tinychat and do shitty drugs on cam.
I never even tried to get sober it just sort of happened because this is the most normal life i've had since I was a child.
Had to thank this not for a specific statement, but bc for the first time, scron seems like a real person to me instead of some vaguely anonymous shit stirrer. -
2019-05-23 at 12:37 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-05-22 at 4:20 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition^^ Hes right.
Idk why they didnt just start with the crotch baby laser cannon from the beginning. Then again, not having SIKURETU TEKUNIKU would not be very Japanese. -
2019-05-22 at 3:55 PM UTC in staying clean using IV drugs- a cool way to store/use rubbing alcohol
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2019-05-22 at 3:50 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro EditionK
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2019-05-21 at 5:16 PM UTC in Branding a Triangle into my foot
Originally posted by vindicktive vinny pussy. why brand yourself if you dont wnat the pain ?
on topic
Theres different kinds of pain. I can deal with pretty much anything except burning (that is to say, it fucking hurts but after a few minutes its not as bad). When i spilled oil on my arm though, it bubbled up and blistered, and it throbbed for an hour or more. Then it subsided a bit, but only a little bit. Each time id get dressed, if the fabric brushed even within a few inches of the blister, it was like dunking my whole arm up to my shoulder into scalding water. Fucking sucked.
Id actually be very interested in learning techniques to channel pain. The only thing ive ever been able to do is try to concentrate on a ball of snow. "Its just cold. The feeling is cold. Smooth. Not sharp. Not hot. It prickles bc its cold". But i can only hold that for so long. -
2019-05-21 at 5:03 PM UTC in Official GoT Thread
Originally posted by Narc oh shit i totally forgot about her. did she get nood in the end?
always had a thing for her since she was in skins
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I dont think so. She and Sam banged surreptitiously.
But yeah. That cute lil overbite. Like a cute little rabbit....that i want to fuck vigorously. Strange mix of simile there. lol.
I tend to like cute/natural looking girls more than i like the flawless, supermodel looking ones.
