Posts by Kafka

1. 2022-01-30 at 5:11 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
   Kafka sweaty

   Originally posted by mmQ I don't know but that sounds like the premise for a proper emo poem or song lyrics. I mean that respectfully.
   
   It's kind of interesting at least for me, out of anything I've ever tried whether it's drugs or legal medication or sobriety, the feeling I hate the most is feeling numb. Some people like it, just sort of an oblivious state of content and I understand the appeal, but to me, it gets old really quick.
   
   Like taking anti-depressants sort of has helped in the past but it also just makes me feel so weird like a different person and it turns me off of them for that reason alone. Like I don't mind it for a short-term effect but when it changes who I am 24 hours a day it just feels wrong.
   
   I've learned at the end of the day I'd rather feel depressed than feel nothing, but sometimes feeling nothing is the best feeling of all.

   
   https://www.clinical-depression.co.uk/
   
   I get that. The longest I took them was two months, citalopram, didn’t read a book the whole summer and was sitting in the rain like a zombie trying to feel something. There’s nothing scarier than your voice being killed and mindfulness freaks me out I think it’s akin to mindlessness.
   
   Thanks btw
2. 2022-01-30 at 4:41 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
   Kafka sweaty
   If I’m braindead or just at peace, wary of accepting things as normal, wondering if I should go back just to feel normal.
3. 2022-01-30 at 4:20 PM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?
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4. 2022-01-30 at 3:48 PM UTC in Tattoo suggestions
   Kafka sweaty

   Originally posted by Solstice Would you insert a squid? I imagine those suction cup things must feel otherwordly when they grab against your walls. 😏

   
   No, irregular objects can kill.
5. 2022-01-30 at 3:42 PM UTC in Tattoo suggestions
   Kafka sweaty

   Originally posted by mmQ Here I drew you a couple of ideas. I'd a version of the little lamby personally.
   
   

   
   Those are cute, I think I’m gonna get CRIME PAY$ now tho
6. 2022-01-30 at 3:38 PM UTC in Tattoo suggestions
   Kafka sweaty

   Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood that is true my dad is against tattoos because "it makes the police's job easier"
   
   

   
   Would you bang her?
7. 2022-01-30 at 3:27 PM UTC in Tattoo suggestions
   Kafka sweaty

   Originally posted by RIPtotse Or don't get any identifying markers INKED on your body
   
   
   How will u commit crimes with anonymity now?

   
   Who is committing crimes wtf
8. 2022-01-30 at 2:34 PM UTC in Tattoo suggestions
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9. 2022-01-30 at 4:36 AM UTC in Weed thoughts
   Kafka sweaty

   Originally posted by RIPtotse Kafka if u make fun of Bradley more time I'm gonna come to northern Ireland or wherever but fuck no where u live and literally throw shit at ur face until u love Bradley got it

   
   Go fuck yourself
10. 2022-01-30 at 4:15 AM UTC in Weed thoughts
    Kafka sweaty

    Originally posted by Bradley Too happy to talk to you, miss.

    
    You will never get a positive response from me.
11. 2022-01-30 at 3:40 AM UTC in Weed thoughts
    Kafka sweaty

    Originally posted by Bradley Very edgy. You. Are. Unique!

    
    Why haven’t you hanged yourself already?
12. 2022-01-30 at 3:13 AM UTC in Weed thoughts
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13. 2022-01-29 at 7:12 PM UTC in Is sleeping outside/being homeless hard?
    Kafka sweaty

    Originally posted by ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ We find people literally frozen solid in the morning and stuck to fences, doorways, walls and bridges around here. No one can survive outside in -45F temps for long without some kind of thermal shielding.

    
    Where is that?
14. 2022-01-29 at 5:44 PM UTC in Is sleeping outside/being homeless hard?
    Kafka sweaty
    There was another time in London, I arrived at Victoria Coach station and had missed the last train somewhere, phone was dead and they had nowhere to charge it, not until cafe Nero opened at 6am. I need a phone to navigate travel. So I was stranded there with all these homeless people, think I had a meltdown, went into a toilet cubicle and I was awake but I don’t know where I went for two hours. I’ve only ever had meltdowns in London so I didn’t even know what it was. I’ve been fine in cities in other countries.
15. 2022-01-29 at 5:30 PM UTC in Is sleeping outside/being homeless hard?
    Kafka sweaty
    My first time in London I couldn’t deal with it, I got lost and the tall buildings made me claustrophobic like being lost in a forest. I was looking for a kebab place for two hours, didn’t find one just some Muslim place where people were giving me daggers and I had to eat outside. Then all these homeless people came up to me asking for change, one woman in crutches, so I just got a train out of there, to a different city where not a single hotel had vacancies and I almost froze. Now I know there’s a 24/7 McDonald’s and I think I will just go to the airport if I’m stuck in future. I wouldn’t be able to handle homelessness being a night owl, like where would you sleep during the day?
16. 2022-01-29 at 4:56 PM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?
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17. 2022-01-29 at 10:12 AM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
    Kafka sweaty

    Originally posted by mmQ I don't know what the solution is for you other than replacing it with something else. I have an extremely addictive personality but for whatever reason I've never been addicted to coffee or caffeine as far as I know and never used anything to "wake up and start my day" other than just plain old water.
    
    But maybe would a nice tall caramel iced coffee be better for you to wake up with rather than the energy drinks? I did drink 2-4 monsters every NIGHT a while back for about 1 year, while I stayed up playing call of duty for 6-8 hour sessions. Just got so used to having them but I think that was half the addiction, and it didn't really by any means need them to stay awake or anything, plus I just liked the taste.
    
    Now I pretty much just drink exclusively water and I'm used to it and it definitely feels noticeably better on the body than filling it with sugars and other junks. For me I'm almost able to use my addictive nature to my benefit in that regard by being "reverse addicted" to not using stuff (like coffee or sugar or energy drinks or soda).
    
    Ive also quit smoking cigs entirely unless I'm drinking (which I've eliminated to once a weekend) and I'm hoping to snowball off that reverse addiction to hopefully quitting altogether.
    
    Now I'm just talking about ME ME ME I'm sorry. What was my point? Oh yeah to try the nice caramel iced coffee in the morning instead of energy drink, I guess idk if that's even healthier or not but energy drinks feel gross looking back at them, definitely a good idea to try and eliminate them from your diet. And trust me I'm a professional dietician and cosmonaut so I know pretty much everything there is to know about everything, ever.

    
    How did you get off monster? I can’t stand coffee. Tea is bearable but not what I’d choose. For some reason whoever’s closest to me has a crazy amount of influence over me. I didn’t smoke for two years when my closest friend was a med student, so I think I just need a new bestie. I probably will have diet questions when I think of them.
18. 2022-01-29 at 9:40 AM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
    Kafka sweaty

    Originally posted by Aleister Crowley I use to have one every 2 days when I was hungover from the night before going to work. There's just so much shit in those cans it's unreal. Do you find your piss changing color? (Serious question.)

    
    Nope. Guessing you do?
19. 2022-01-29 at 8:37 AM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
    Kafka sweaty

    Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Yeah I fear my teeth rotting away would be the worst.

    
    I have braces so they get checked regularly and there’s no decay, it still makes me paranoid though because it can’t be good. I think drinking with a straw stops it touching my teeth to some extent.
20. 2022-01-29 at 8:22 AM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
    Kafka sweaty
    I wish I could stop drinking monster because two cans per day for three years is excessive, makes me feel like I’m due for a stroke, stomach doesn’t feel great, bad for teeth, kills collagen, ruins complexion, I thought I had peripheral neuropathy at one point, right hand still feels a bit rigid. I just need it to wake up though, sipping it from a straw when it’s cold is great and I need b12.