2024-01-22 at 3:30 PM UTC
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Trying LSD for the first time
Is there anything I should know? I'm thinking of taking it at my abandoned primary school because there's too many scary things at home. There's just a field surrounded by trees and fences so there won't be people or dogs. I should be safe as long as I don't go on the roof. A window ceiling has been smashed and that's the only way into the school now, but I've been inside before and know if I fall in I wouldn't be able to get back out, it's too high. I've explored the pitch black classrooms before so have faced that fear. There's a ditch and I remember as a child imagining a dead dog in it. The assistant said my imagination had run wild so I'm worried I'll bring that to live. Only other worry is the broken glass from people drinking.
Idk if I should go with the vintage wallpaper or turn the wall into a blackboard or a mirror.
There's two black cats in my garden, they seem to be together.
2024-01-21 at 6:19 PM UTC
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Pedo List
Something's off. Right after Fox vowed to destroy my life Hadrianus messaged me trying to get me to join the discord server. Fox then said that was angryiver's account but Hadrianus used the same American psycho meme that Fox used in my server and has made a lot of misogynistic comments, wants to see the 14yr old get hurt. Then angryiver messages me trying to get me to join the server.
So annoyed. Rainstorm hasn't stopped and I don't want to hear it. I can't sleep bcus of it and the smart drug, just keep spacing out. Akira won't leave me alone today so I've locked her in her room.
I think I'm gonna try lots of different vintage wallpaper on the one wall. It might be a mess but I want to try it.
I'm wondering if I should use lino flooring and wall vinyls instead of paint in my garage. I want to convert it but don't want to spend a lot because ik I'll mess it up.
Why can't I just sleep 😫
I hate women's fashion nowadays and now have the dilemma of wearing outdated styles or dressing ugly to be accepted.
Just realised I can make a bacon and cheese bagel...
Starving. I'd kill for a pastie burger with corn relish and a pepper chip. I'm going to try and sleep for a few hours. Hopefully when I wake up I'll have the energy to go get food and the smart drug will have kicked in, and my eyes won't feel tired.
My neighbour in another estate is staring at me. They're having a smoke and I'm near the window. It scares me because they have no space and can easily get into my back garden and that's the only view they have, my garden. I feel like they're building up resentment and will try to break in at some point. The man seems off.
There's a rainstorm, it's p wild so it's an indoors day.
I read 100 pages of the book and feel like I should do something else now. Not sure what because I'm floating.
I thought she'd taken up a big chuck of my life but it was just four years and I didn't really see her in the last one. That's crazy.
It means the thing with my ex gf only lasted four years, and I haven't gone to see her in four years now. All that happened in just four years...
