What else is on my mind. What to buy myself for Valentines day. That I want to go to London and Sweden. Ig the hypnosis is making me want to do things, to go against my reclusive nature and that's a strange feeling. Mainly I feel annoyed because I have a lot to do and am just waiting until I have energy.
Ig I mainly feel fatigued. Too tired to even get food. I've thought about stabbing two people today. I'm listening to hypnosis so I can still be productive without having to get up.
I feel weird today, probably the hypnosis or too many changes happening. This girl is trying to form a connection with me and sending me her selfies now. I'm regretting pushing someone away because of paranoia.
Ig I'd be more tan if I didn't have the curtains always closed...
That's confusing me bcus I'm pale af but get the medium band effects.
The last time I was in Athens, there's a pic of me smiling insanely whilst burning a rose on the restaurant table. I hope I've matured since then.
I found a positive use for my malice, scaring a vulnerable user off the forum.
The Mean Girls movie is a good example. She's not dressing slutty to attract men, it's to be accepted by the girls.
Girls only become besties with other girls that are like themselves, have the same standards. That's why I wore fake tan in highschool, because the other girls did.
Ik you're not really talking to me but I'm not really talking to you either and am ranting now. Girls bully other girls that don't take care of their appearance well.
The order of importance is society, for themselves, then for men.
And it's about society. "Makeup is social war-paint".
Men can never seem to grasp that women mainly want to look pretty for themselves.
It is important to care what people think of you irl. Your face is the most important thing in society, I do it for myself as well and starting at a young age has paid off. If you've let yourself go that's your bad choice.
