2024-02-05 at 10:10 PM UTC
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fuck marry kill NIS edition
Fuck - Myers because he has respect for me and is very hygienic
Marry - a college professor because he's a feminist
Kill - too many people to list
My dream from last night is trying to come back to me so ig I almost drifted off or will soon and it will continue.
Sometimes I think, what would my perfect prince do? Sometimes I have to be my own prince.
We will find out. I have challenged him to a knife fight. If he doesn't show that's what he'll be remembered as.
I kind of want to wear it outside just because I'm scared to wear it outside. It's so tacky and you're meant to wear white or beige underwear to match it.
Now I'm wondering why my highschool let me go in late everyday, always missed the first class. I went on report for a week because of it but only turned the card in for one day then went back to my ways of coming in late. No one chased me and the teachers didn't comment on it.
It's really bugging me that I don't know what it is I project that makes women attracted to me. Is it because they think I'm interested in them or can they tell that I'm not?
I took three smart drugs today then started deep-cleaning so it was productive, listened to hypnosis now I'm watching love is blind Sweden. I've still felt off though and think it's because it's the hypnosis driving me to socialise and I'm gonna hate everyone there anyway. This random girl wants a relationship with me. Idk why. Idk what effect I have on women. No one else asks me how I am though so I'm just letting it go at a slow and stable pace.
I didn't know what people were talking about when they said I looked like I wanted to kill them/laser beams coming out of my eyes but looking in the mirror I can see it now.
I think if I was oppressed I'd become a serial killer, and Mik would be fine with that.
I wouldn't want to share my talents with that regime so realistically I'd marry Mik.
I'm worried I'll end up hurting someone at the class. Cam and I were play-fighting once and I aimed my elbow at the back of his neck by reflex because I was hypersensitive.
Pretty excited.
"I understand that the risk of injury is present, and that whilst this is likely to be no worse than occasional light bruising and the occasional blister or scratch, as with any martial art or contact sport more serious injury or even death can occur. I understand that whilst the instructors, and equipment used, will mitigate all of these risks as much as possible, I am choosing to train with full awareness that these risks exist."
I've had too many carbs today and am craving protein. I had a packet of crisps, ham and cheese baguette, battered chips, houmous and crackers, the rest of the German biscuit. I want takeaway because the place won't be open tomorrow so that's battered sausages and chips, more carbs. I'm gonna gain weight.
