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2019-04-23 at 1:24 PM UTC in One of the most ballsy drug combos ever
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2019-04-23 at 1:24 PM UTC in One of the most ballsy drug combos everMy propanolol niacin and vit b complex are prob the only things preventing my death. lol propylhexedrine is actually listed as a maoi contraindication.. so its literal proof im fucked not just "oh maybe this drug is just too weak. pure morepinephrone what have i done holynshyte
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2019-04-23 at 1:11 PM UTC in What meds r u on?Meloxicam - for kyphosis
Ativan 2mg 3x day -for panic disorder (aka pussy disorder)
Buprenorphine 8mg/morn 4mg/noon 8mg/evening (for cant be sober disorder)
Wellbutrin ir 200mg 2x day (as a more, rapid add on to phenzine
Gabapentin 600 4x day (nerve pain/anxiety)
Phenelzine 45mg 2x day (anhedonic depression)
Baclofen 20mg 3x day (for leg spasms, nerve pain)
Propranolol 20mg 3x day (for stimulant induced hbp/tachycardia
And vitamins: sublingual b complex in morn
Magnesium 1g atleast twice a day
Niacin 1g a day -
2019-04-23 at 12:35 PM UTC in One of the most ballsy drug combos everJust as a Prelude, I'm on Wellbutrin Subutex Ativan gabapentin and Baclofen. Right now I'm going through slight Ativan withdrawal as I have only been able to take 1mg out of my 6 mg daily dose for the past 3 days. I've been pretty okay just loading up on the gaba's taking a little bit more propanolol and stocking up on kava tea. Well 2 days ago I got really bored and decided to snort my nardil which is an MAOI and it actually gave me a psychedelic effect due to nardil metabolizing into phenylethylamine in 15 minutes if taken orally. I thought this is pretty damn cool so the next day I decided to do something cooler and stupider and I did a very low dose of PPX it's just soaked it in water and being on and MAOI I should have died from a brain aneurysm or something. Nope. Gold experience. Just wanted to let you know today I ate a whole cotton of PPX and snorted a Wellbutrin for continue in the habit of upping the gabapentin and snorting Subutex. I'll give you a more in-depth analysis later. But I just wanted to tell you I'm the most badass idiot you'll ever come across on these forums.
Btw my nardil dose is the max, 90mg. -
2019-04-19 at 6:55 AM UTC in rosh here, currently home at moms apartment in sc, my dad, is in an unknown locationbut yeah I got lazy eyes now. there were only about 20 ativan in the bottle I was given and i still got some left
im too lazy/high (???mg bupe) to tell the story right now but rehab was not by choice. my mother would not let me come home after a month in the psychward because I got too crazy one day on like 6 tabs of lsd and a tube of coke. thats like, less than a gram I am sure.
she shouldve taken me to a neurologist in mid 2017 after sploo damaged my frontal lobe (im pretty much phineas gage by choice but in a psychward with monitored meds I was a good semi human /somewhat manipulator. still got the lazy eye tho from my docs contreverythingoccasions. its not going away. gotta look everything with one eye closed, doesnt matter what eye usually the right -
2019-04-19 at 4:09 AM UTC in rosh here, currently home at moms apartment in sc, my dad, is in an unknown location
Originally posted by Ghost He got glassed with the blongus cup and his head has looked weird ever since
no that ia not fucking true lol... ever since my subutex dose was raised to 20 in rehab, it gave me double vision and i had to close my right eye to see properly. well, i finally got my comoputer connected and i realize it isnt as bad as i thought. typing on a phone screen where it autocorrects and shit, a new phone, since my verizon gave me a new phone. its only bright objects atvery close distances or medium distances
inb4 subutex gave me near and farski eyes
aslo since getting forced into a rehab by my mom/the psych ward (long story id like to forget\) im nearly the same in not being able to take the prescribed amount, although I spend most of my daze outside now.. i get prescribed 6mg ativan a day, and 20mg subutex a day, and u know whats super fucked up? my doc at the rehab said he would refuill my meds and give me full scripts,,, the most iump0ortant, nardil, which i take 6 pills a day, nardil 15x3 ij the morn and 15x3 at 3pm... he gave me 17 pillsa..nnot even 3 days fucking worth
so he pretty much is sending me into depression, making me withdraw from a MAOI, THE ONLY REALLY EFFECYTIVE MEDICATION,, NARDIL.. I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT NARDIL IS LIKE BUT THE ONLY SNRIS WORK, SNRI, EFFEXOR, WITHDRAWAL WAS SUICIDAL. MAOI WD MUST BE.. CANT BE.. HOW WOULD IT BE WORSE THAN SUICIDEAL???????? MY EMOTIONS I FEEL THAT I GOT FOR THE FIRST TIME EVEN.. FELT FOR A MONTH AT THIS LAST REHAB.. ONLY FOR IT TO BE GONE... AS SOON AS I GET FREEDOM.... most evil thing to do tyo someone -
2019-04-18 at 4:15 PM UTC in rosh here, currently home at moms apartment in sc, my dad, is in an unknown locationwell, semi kown. possible freehold nj. lel tfw he got no pills and i got extremely effective maois and benzos with some gaapentin bacloofen and sme other goomygimes
see (well my right/left eye, well its my right since henever i need to close my rite time eye whenever d anythjngm cooming roahamkvmb (( currenty learning how tofish]]
b7ye. i prob ned eye syrgery befire i can tyoe properly again]]]
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but i do curenttly ewt -
2019-04-18 at 4:08 PM UTC in "CLEAN AND SOBER" ROSHAMBO IS BACK HOME IN FLORIDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!roshambo here. i dont post alot anymore becaue i have a really fucked up left eye and it is really hard to type
WHY THE FUCK would i be home in forida? home was nj but whie i was in floridita my mom sold my house c=cuz it was all fucked up from my fiberglass in my rom,broken glass and holes in the wall, caused by me. she sold my guitar, rumble 350 bass amp to help fix out the house to sell it as a fixer upper, as the basemment pipes have been floding for 20 years]
nt gonna tell u my town but its near the border of norrth anf south carolina -
2019-04-04 at 6:37 PM UTC in Adderall suck!oh, you must be foreign cucks. we call it dexedrine in the great U S of GAY
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2019-04-04 at 6:37 PM UTC in Adderall suck!ZENDZEDI? WTF IS THAT
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2019-04-04 at 6:36 PM UTC in Two way balance in the universecome ON this is a WORTHY KNOWLEDGE POST REEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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2019-04-04 at 5:51 PM UTC in Full list of our plurals
Originally posted by Ghost here are a few folks;
Masao Yoshida- Japanese man that works at a nuclear power plant
Bling Bling - british molly hash man
Friskyninja - epic halo kid that talks shit on xbox live
situationjessejones - undercover officer
Billyboy - old hippie weed dealer that eats sprouts
Matt - old drunk that chain smokes and eats 40 pills
Otto Robotto - Heroin dealer that straight up murders fools
Billl with three LLL's - native american bowling star
Tyler Stanley - 11 year old crack cocaine dealer
Asian Pirate - owns a restaraunt
btw are you scronaldo? if/if not, I really appreciate using my art as your prof pic -
2019-04-04 at 5:15 PM UTC in Two way balance in the universeheres my knee
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2019-04-04 at 5:05 PM UTC in Two way balance in the universea post from my blog.. I've been reading alot of esoteric literature lately and researching sacred geometry and ways God corresponds to the universe... you should check out my blog theres alot of shit on it... like imagine my most amazing posts but less drugged and more logical..
https://joeshambo.tumblr.com/post/183941386018/two-way-balance-of-the-universe
I’m going to make a post about God, and the Universe. Yeah, I know, you hear people start to talk about God and you sigh and expect the worst. Well, the thoughts you’re going to read aren’t neccisarily all mine, I’ve been doing alot of studying, reading, and looking into many different viewpoints recently and I’ll share some with you, especially the ones that have resonated with me.
God’s universal body is a two way compensating, continuous and eternal universe of balance in every single effect of motion. Generation is radiation, compression equals expansion, red equals blue, solid matter balances the potential of its surrounding space in every single wave field and each of every opposite pair not only balances with its opposite but bornes it through sequential intercharge.
God’s universe is composed completely of pulsating electric waves, that we call matter. These pulsating waves can be referred to as the universe’s heartbeat or universal breath of God’s body. God’s body continues its manifestation of life principle by breathing outward and inward sequentially just like we do to continue existence.
Everything in the universe breathes out and in, with a rhythm. There are no exceptions. every sun, planet, moon, electron, of an atom obeys but in varying frequencies responding to their potential. Your breath frequency may be ten per minute, the suns is one cycle in 11 years.
The most obvious fact of nature is repetition of every effect of motion in two way pulsing cycles. Every cycle in nature is two way.
Gods universe of electric waves has no beginning or ending in time. It is all infinite, eternal. Forever lasting. -
2019-03-30 at 5:04 PM UTC in CRAAAHHHHHLING IIIIIIINN MY SKIIIIIIIIINTHE SPIDERS ON MY SKINNNNNNNNNNNN
WHY DO I NEVER WINNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
BENADRYL HITS MY MINDDDDDDDDDDDDD
HALLUCINATIONS ALL THE TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEE
LOOOKING AT THE WINDOW SILLLLLLLLLL
I THINK I SEE SOME SEROQUELLLLLLLLLLL
THE SOLUTION I JUST FOUNDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
CHILL RESULTS ARE IN BOUNDDDDDDDDDDD -
2019-03-30 at 4:23 PM UTC in schizo song meanings and explanations in threadI got a new tumblr where I post shit btw
https://joeshambo.tumblr.com/post/183818809153/my-new-music-project?fbclid=IwAR1rakIVxxKVTftFrgoxxrpkMktlrbpPC3X8V7ko3SeoNSffwSpBSlfUVVs
my new album, heres all the songs btw
Monoamine oxidase- A deep cutting, fast, and heavy song with alot of distortion.. extremely hard hitting drum riffs, and a strange combination of distorted bass and dissonant acoustic guitar.
Sandface- Starting off with a fast drum solo, you would expect it to go into a cutting guitar riff of some sort as the beginning of the song, but instead, you hear bass licks, consistent patterns of slappy thoughtful riffs, and later in the song it gets more insane, heavily fuzzy and distorted vocals come in, the bass starts going into fast ridiculous riffs.. and it ends with a single word ‘‘sandface’‘
Crosseyed and painless- A throwback to my old 2015 style of music with guitar tracks on multisecond delays and vocal tracks following the same style… with clear drums that hold the song together. A psychedelic demo type song that’s a cover of a Talking Heads Masterpiece.
Owners of an imperfect universe/Natural selection- This track mixes up the direction the album is going in, with a garage rock vibe and funky drums with distorted guitar leading into unsure riffs… and then suddenly …. BOOM, straight into a WAVVES-esque heavy noise rock tune with inaudible vocals.. ending with typical shambo riffs.
Tolerance Uprising- Another gem lost from 2015. Double tracked guitars with a slight delay rocking out in an angry beginning riff, fading into a consistently angry verse, and then the SCREAMING vocals come out of nowhere with a direct screamo vibe and you even hear a call-and-response from the left channel.. more intelligible singing continues, and then a decent solo. Vocals afterwards talk about anger towards a drug addict know it all (Cough.. John)
Schplew- A very ironic track. A song I wrote while I was angry as fuck towards former best friend John, performed by John and I. Apparently he didn’t realize how getting him to perform the song just solidified my angst towards the psychopath who tried to kill me with a bottle to my forehead.
Common Deleriant- Filler track, pretty loud and annoying
Soundcheck- from a Carpet Surfers session, funky drums and guitar testing
Universal Disconnect- Starts out with pure silence for a good 10 seconds and then a synthesizer playing an emotional sonata with drums to follow. A new song I made last week.
Serotonin Syndrome/Blackout- One of my first songs I ever made. A funky guitar strumming pattern with a walking bassline. Fades into Blackout, a drum machine created pattern with a guitar following over it, and then added on, a repetetive synth beep, finishes with a pitch increasing end
Unreal Aberration- WARNING, SPEAKER BREAKER. A very badly mixed TCS demo.
The 33 Conundrum- Drum and synth come together to form a thoughtful, emotional, and experimental, genre bending clash, with an irish folk vibe
Separate Ways to oblivion- One of my most emotional songs I’ve ever written, about fixing myself, self discovery, and a proto-transdiscovery song with an obvious gender vibe, clashing with hatred towards a certain lover
The hell tuner- An old track, an insane synthesizer rollercoaster
Are u straight- I don’t even know what this song is -
2019-03-28 at 7:43 PM UTC in the situational depression conundrum
Originally posted by Grylls why does everyone on here have depression
probably shouldnt take so many drugs..
ive had depression since 12 since before I did drugs
I thought I was gay or something and it made me want to kill myself because my dream for life was wife and kids
I couldnt function, I almost suicided, instead, I had a panuk attok one day and roshambdad gave me a xanax I was like woah is this bliss how normies feel? Then I started using xanax... then I started using y, then z, than etc etc etc.
but I was originally depressed
now I'm depressed because im in a fucking psych ward -
2019-03-28 at 7:40 PM UTC in Do you take it 'one day at a time'?fuck no im not no idiot
if you ignorize the future and past you're set up for failure -
2019-03-28 at 7:22 PM UTC in the situational depression conundrumI'm on one of teh best antidepressants known to man, nardil, but ive been in an inpatient residential rehab (a polished psychward) for 3 weeks, and you know what, my situational depression about being stuck in a place like this is making the nardil ineffective. i bet even when i leave, this oxidative stress will cause me to never be able to get un-depressed from nardil or anything else. best antidepressant, and my situational clusterfuck ruined it for me. fuck life.
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2019-03-28 at 3 PM UTC in Been drawing pictures of sexy aliens lately, slight fetish, but good for comics
