And the overdose after my afterjal hoorah caused me acute respiratory distress syndrome ,aspiration pneumonia, rhabdomyolysis, hypokalemia, hypomagnesemia, and brain swelling and they induce a coma with fentanyl ketamine and propofol because I kept trying to rip the breathing tube out and was flailing wildly they thought I was going to damage myself even more
they told my mother I was at risk for compartment syndrome which has to be remedied by amputation, that if I did wake up which they said was only 40% chance that I would even survive these ailments that I would be on dialysis for the rest of my life and possibly in a wheelchair if after the coma my muscles didn't recover from the rhabdo
but I finally feel so selfish after all the s*** I put my family through that as soon as the insurance cut off my physical rehabilitation ,I went straight to rehab and I just got out two days ago completed 30-day program which is the first rehab out of more than 30 that I've ever completed in my completed in my life
There's some funny stories from rehab to for example they would buy $3 cigarettes mark them up to $10 have them build to insurance daily as Tylenol cigarette insurance fraud. Lel
So if anyone knows I was staying in almost complete isolation for 3 months at that ranch which made me be losing my shit and at the in the middle of the night after shooting up Ritalin and being extremely pissed off that I ran out I started breaking cups and plates outside and rambling talking about how people that think heavy metals better than punk rock or are complete faggot mongoloids and then the owner of the place came up to me looking very concerned and annoyed cuz it was for the morning offered to take me to the hospital
I was brought to the hospital and in triage I was smoking my Delta 8 vape and using the metal chair as a drum set and singing George Harrison and Ringo Starr solo career songs very loudly to where they were probably going to commit me so I freaked out and left and they had security trying to escort me out but I told him I needed to use the phone in the waiting room they said I was trespassing and then I could use the phone in j Reuben Long when I got there I refused their b******* arrest and then I was brought outside and freaked out even more when the cops were called and what I was shoved into the police car I started completely freaking out telling them I'd autism and claustrophobia and that I did nothing wrong I wasn't about to let officers of the law abuse me or my rights but I was too high and stupid to properly advocate for my rights and looking back I would have gotten a PR bond from trespassing and even resisting if I hadn't freaked out
but stupidly I started kicking and flailing and they tased me once in the stomach and it didn't work they tased me a second time in the neck and that mildly worked I asked him to turn it off after about 10 seconds cuz I told them is burning my brain as soon
as it shut it off I kicked a woman cop right above the knee and she started screaming and apparently was very injured then the lieutenant cop on the scene he smiled at me and said oh I'm so glad you did that" he knew more than I did about how my life was going to change for the worst
I was brought to j Reuben Long jail put in the holding cell the lieutenant threw me on the ground where I hit my face ripped my clothes off and I said "what boy you don't get enough action from your wife at home so you got to take it out on the prisoners"
He got a very very pissed and stood me up and said well tough guy we're in here where no one can see us do you have the balls to fight someone who protects your right to freedom".
and I lurched to him and he hit me in the face so hard to try to knock my nasal bone into my skull which honestly made me almost pass out from the pain and he's pretty clever cuz he hit me in a way that didn't that only caused mine or bleeding and did not need to be reset
I was brought into maximum security for that and then banging my head against the wall put in a turtle suit and given a suicide mat and over the next few days I was detoxing off phenibute GHB Ritalin cocaine Xanax weed and alcohol. They brought me to bond hearing the night after I was there where I learned that my charge is carried up to $10,000 fine and 10 years in prison. to be able to cope with the reality in my situation. After about 6 or 7 days yelling at all the nurses refusing all my meals they brought me to a2 the disciplinary unit. The withdrawal was unlike anything I've ever experienced in all of my life I was constantly seizing and would tell the nurses but they would not call the infirmary or bring me to the hospital. I was seizing because I I knew it because I would have very odd pain like even worse than the withdrawal pain and confusion along with extreme unexplainable anxiety and if I'm standing up I start to rapidly shake and fall into the ground and not be able to move but I was aware that something really wasn't right and then waking up with blood in my mouth pain all over the place and more confusion and I knew that I was actually having legitimate seizures but none of that mattered to me since the DTs had me hallucinating s*** like being in an El Camino in the middle of the desert being attacked by a pack of great Pyrenees dogs who are ripping my entrails out. And falling out of a helicopter at 7,000 ft
These first 14 days were so f****** bad but I bet you all know what jail is like and what DTS are like so I'm going to end this post as part one if anyone wants to give me any feedback or questions I'll wait for that before I write part two. I was in there 90 days so there are a lot of stories to tell let's give you a preview pedophile 18 year old with Harry Potter glasses, Mark knopfler's brother who was in a wheelchair and taught me music theory
I've recently gotten my gabapentin refilled and tonight I've taken 16mg tizanidine, 3g phenibut total and probably around 2400mg of gabapentin doses staggered
As doses go up I I keep getting these pastoral old like king arthur and the knights of the round table memory flashbacks reminding me of a dream in which i was in a castle which led to a yard and a gate which you had to crawl under like a groundhog to get to the triangle temple
which contained the giant walls of oTaljiBahmaro with time telling scriptures dated on 300 year delays with sprites which did technically contain life but only at a microcosm of meaning levels. Basically satellite reviewers coded to pickup on certain delerium anthems and dialects spoken by the deranged children of Tried
Schplew, Roshambou, sfronasldoou, wcromfvontlaroyd, samoastigmatagaya datschundibaba and garundigadesh
Slightly agitated. Annoyed that suboxone no longer works due to two year plus tolerance and no methadone clinics in area.
And since I have no pepsi and my topamax maka me crave that flavored drink I made a pitcher of sweet tea and chugfed the damn thing at midnight
But a girl did message me about some weed stuff so at least I got that going on
As a wise man once said.
"C-cc-catfight :)"
He also said.
"HES A NIGGER. LOOK EVERYBODY HES A NIGGER. OOOH. OOOOOH "
Picking at my scrotum trying to untangle the ingrown hairs which plague my existence
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Had another dream I was in highschool but it was like a supermarket .. I shopped and went to check out and they said "sir you don't go here " and I said "yeh but I did in 2013 year I dropped out)) so he escrotsd me out
Then I'm outside talking to some chicks at a softball game and I'm taking apart a lithium battery tinkering with it when it just sprays me In the leg. Then for some reason I'm flying . Like in a car just zoomig up a street then over a ramp about 200 mph up into the sky
I awaken
Had an odd dream that I was chosen to be a student on like a super selective ancient chinese suicide death ritual ship in the future and I got shot with a sniper rifle for looking a sensei in the eye
