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2022-03-27 at 3:07 PM UTC in End de-facto ban on stl1
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2022-03-27 at 2:44 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sudo Will Never Make A TRT Edition
Originally posted by ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It's Satanic worship. Hollywood is all about Satanic rituals. They do the ritual in secret, while they kill the sacrifice in real time. The more loved and worshipped the sacrifice, the more valuable it is. Sacrifices to their master, Satan the Devil.
You're absolutely right. The 50 year old drummer for the foo fighters who had 10 substances in his system was sacrificed as part of a satanic ritual in Columbia.
Was Betty white sacrificed too? James Dean? Steve McQueen? Is anybody NOT sacrificed? How famous do you have to be to be sacrificed? -
2022-03-27 at 1:30 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
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2022-03-27 at 1:23 PM UTC in In insurance fraud a truly victimless crime?If you discount the amount paid out by the insurance companies because the insurance industry is crooked AF and hyper capitalism run J00ishly amok.
Do the premium increases (assuming it results in that for the average consumer of the product you said was stolen that you actually sold on craigslist) fall at the feet of the fraudster or at the feet of the company that chose to integrate this behavior into their model?
I'm not the most well versed with insurance practices but I know I pay alot a month and it's clearly a scam. Is it a truly "victimless crime" if someone were to defraud an insurance company? This obviously excludes the company itself because they are scum -
2022-03-27 at 11:32 AM UTC in As soon as I show I don't care, she wants to say she loves meYou should break into her house and put flowers everywhere, hold her down and eat her pussy then make yourself very available for pegging
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2022-03-27 at 11:30 AM UTC in Need some minor technology helpPartition and install j00buntu
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2022-03-27 at 11:27 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
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2022-03-27 at 12 AM UTC in Nigs nogging in New OrleansThis threads alot better than I thought it would be when I clicked it
If a 73 year old must die to be the catalyst of a good thread on NIS then SO BE IT -
2022-03-26 at 10:07 PM UTC in Why do so many posters consider this website to be detrimental to their mental/ emotional well-being?Because it's an echo chamber of my bad decisions/perspective
It's honestly done alot of good to keep me somewhat grounded tho, sadly. -
2022-03-26 at 10 PM UTC in Pisses me off
Originally posted by Sudo Remember the drew Carey show? What does "living in sin with a safety pin" mean? I'm gonna see if it's on genius.com right meow
FOUND IT OUTED IN 9 SECONDS
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.urbandictionary.com/define.php%3fterm=Living%2bin%2bsin%2bwith%2ba%2bsafety%2bpin&=true -
2022-03-26 at 9:59 PM UTC in Pisses me offRemember the drew Carey show? What does "living in sin with a safety pin" mean? I'm gonna see if it's on genius.com right meow
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2022-03-26 at 9:57 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Yeah it's kind of interesting the further I live, the more I find myself sort of always weighing the idea of 'trying to better myself' and 'jesus fuck who even cares at this point, it is what it is.'
Like you said, it's not HEALTHY to have self destructive thoughts, by definition, but when you don't care about healthy than you just… Don't care.
You're def right as far as me losing my faith in god and I will be the first to admit that there is a big difference between it, mainly the fact that with faith, regardless of how shitty things are, you can hold this belief that it's 'part of a plan' or whatever, that no matter what happens, God is there and will help you get through shit. When I gave that up, I didn't necessarily realize the impact that it has when I realize that life is truly on my terms and I am completely responsible for myself and my actions.
That said, I still just can't arbitrarily start pretending I believe in god again just for the sake of hoping it will help me and my accountability. It would obviously feel disenguine as fuck. But I suppose that's why people come up with other higher powers and I guess I could pretend the fucking cosmos is my leader and it'll make everything right in the end.
For now, I am DUST IN THE WIND.
It's not about God PER SE it's about having something to be accountable to, be it family, a partner, a future you don't wanna fuck up. I can imagine some of thr forgiveness aspects of Christianity would be problematic for people trying to really change because they can always confess and be absolved.
I think it would be good to try to find something that you don't wanna disappoint or a foreseeable scenario you don't wannanfuck up. That's the attraction of self destruction and negative talk is it's a self fulfilling prophecy and you're setting yourself up for failure so you're never disappointed.
You're better than that man. Other people have shit? Fuck their shit that should be your shit. Go take it from them. Fucking rape them too, fucking undeserving bitches take what's rightfully yours -
2022-03-26 at 9:40 PM UTC in Pisses me offLIES MAKE BABBY JESUS CRI ERRYTYME
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2022-03-26 at 9:15 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Sometimes I think for me it's my lack of accountability. Whenever I've been in a controlled environment like incarceration or halfway house or inpatient treatment, I somehow EXCEL. I do everything right as long as I have something hanging over my head to incentivise me to, but I've been off paper and out of treatments for years now, and it's just this weird rollercoaster of poor choices and good choices.
Like obviously I'd still prefer to be free but sometimes I wish a lengthy prison sentence was hanging over my head if I didn't get my shit together, and I realize more normal people would simply say to this 'well, time to man up and be adult, hold yourself accountable, put on your big boy pants etc etc' and they're not wrong. I just haven't been good at it. I'm actually surprised I've managed to not become homeless, that's like my biggest accomplishment lol.
But! I will still try and hold on to the hope that I can figure it out.
All of my stunted feels in this post ♤
I get the same thing where I'm like "dang I could go for a nice little incarceration to reset myself" but
a) this is very dangerous and risky thinking
B) you're putting things out of your own control
C) it never works out how you hope it will
Among probly one or two other reasons why it's not a good idea. It can be good to hone your focus in a setting conducive to gaining skills but incarceration is not the answer. I find myself thinking this way every few months and have learned to "check myself before I wreck myself" when it comes to desiring destructive scenarios. Same with fantastical thinking revolving around using drugs and committing violence. So unhealthy to allow to make your choices for you
Even when you entertain fantasies involving shitty people/scenarios you're selling yourself short because unless you're a real piece of shit, chances are you deserve your freedom and you're kinda telling yourself you don't.
I think personal accountability is what you need and perhaps losing your faith in DA BIG MAN UPSTAIRS has left an accountability hole in you because that's probably something you used to revere. Not saying that's what you need but something similar to feel beholden to is probably important. Dealing with loss is a barrier of personal accountability too. I really worry what I'll be like if I lose certain people, I really need to develop some fall back coping skills in case that happens -
2022-03-26 at 8:13 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Samesies. Although I've come to realize at this point that regardless of any strides forward I make, or Happies I obtain, just when I think I've perhaps turned the corner on the path to enlightenment, I fuck something up and slide back to where I started. Basically my life is a game of chutes (snakes for you weirdos) and ladders and there's just a lot of fucking chutes. It's hard for me not to believe that it's subconsciously hardwired into my brain to fuck things up whenever I'm doing well, as though I deserve it or something. Who knows. Whatever. Blah. Countblah.
Yea man, maladaptive coping mechanisms and self destructive tendies and shit. I just deal with shit wrong and manifest destruction by thinking negatively. Not sure if the first summer I'm off all conditions since I was 19 is good or bad for me but I'm leaning towards good because it's less stress but potentially less mindfulness of legalities. I just want things to be simple and peaceful -
2022-03-26 at 7:47 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionWhen the weather gets warmer I have more energy and feel less depressed and more motivated not to be addicted to opiates. I think I'm gonna make some strides towards a healthier lifestyle in the next few weeks.
I still wanna be a drunken coked up slut all the time but I'm aspiring for more -
2022-03-26 at 7:38 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sudo Will Never Make A TRT Edition
Originally posted by ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It's not a ridiculous and far fetched scenario at all. Happens all the time. You really gotta check your innocence and gullibility levels.
So you think the heroin addicted drummer for the foo fighters being murdered by a deep state cabal in Columbia is a likely scenario?
I know you are submitting there is absolutely no evidence to support this I'm just making sure that this is the kind of narrative you are seriously trying to construct. -
2022-03-26 at 2:45 PM UTC in What are you doing at the momentPost
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2022-03-26 at 2:40 PM UTC in The Lupin the 3rd series is seriously top tier animeDid you know that lupins are poisonous to some animals and small children?
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2022-03-26 at 2:27 PM UTC in HALF BAKED CULTURE OF DRUGS AND GUNSIM FEELIN IT
