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2018-07-13 at 2:12 AM UTC in Who has that ring?
Originally posted by Red_Woman No, it really is a "real" language, but it was created by Tolkien. He was a linguist.
Definitely before the movies.
He started working on it in 1910: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quenya
After, Tolkien fans (there are various foundation for Middle Earth, linguistic as well) created websites and places where you can learn the language. Not sure if this was before or after the movies though. I think the language thing might have been before the movies, but I'm not sure.
Source: I was born a nerd and raised by a nerdy father. I had 3 computers in my house in 95, all built by him, with me being a little helper, and I learned to play on the internet early. Of course I was searching nerdy shit like that before the 2000's for sure. The dial up tones sure bring back nostalgic memories. -
2018-06-24 at 9:50 PM UTC in My 55 year old roomie in the nursing home just ODedOn heroin. Like wtf. I spent an hour and a half trying to get her in bed because she was all spaced out and I knew the nurses or GNAs were gonna know she was fucked up on something. Well, I managed to keep her okay and was lucky we had a cool GNA who brought lunch.
She was nodding hard and you literally had to shake her to get her to "wake up". Finally I went to smoke when o knew she'd be okay. I was pissed because I don't like to get fucked up like that or deal with people who get fucked like that. Especially since we share a room and that heat gets brought around me.
Come back from my smoke and she's up and using the bathroom and apologizing for getting that fucked saying she normally don't do shit like that. Okay, fine.. she hands me a little... Well, I know shes got a little in her drawer.. More than what she handedme which was like next to nothing...
Fuckimg idiot does that little bit more and she's put again unable to function again. The GNA walks by me and says " she ain't right " and goes to get the nurse so they take her by the nurses desk to observe her... 5 mins go by and she starts droolimg on herself and turning blue. They take her back into the room, shoo me out and I was stuck for an hour before I could get my smokes and wheelchair (I can go short distances in my walker). They hit her with naloxone and she came right back wide awake talking and smiling.
I'm so pissed she brought this heat here. Apparently this ain't the first time she's ODed. She ODed twice before, this makes #3. Fucking liar "I don't usually get like that, I didn't have my glasses and so!e slid down to what I broke off"... Oh yeah, that's how you ended up doing it ALL..All but the tiny bit that was left she did that sent her over to OD. Fucking cunt.
Goddamn I'm pissed. I got GNAs coming in every 20mins now to check on her and no residents who aren't already on the floor can come visit at least for tonight. -
2018-06-25 at 2:06 AM UTC in I'm still alive and kickin' unfortunately... I'm now in the most ghetto nursing home in the world.
Originally posted by Kinks Who fucking cares about hydro and her eating shitty meds out of trash cans as if they alleviate withdrawal LUL
You do realize that the NURSES, in order to give me my dose of gabapentin, took the shit from the trashcan on the side of the med cart. Gabapentin does happen to alleviate opiate WDs reasonably well, actually, but I'm not in WDs at all. I'm getting 10mg of hydromorphone every 4 hours. My pain is decently controlled for the most part too. Sometimes a dick head nurse takes a little longer than I'd like for my shit, or just some days are worse than others with my pain, but I'm pretty good most days with what I get. The last couple days have been a bit trying, hence why I got that dope, and got another bit tonight (before I realized my dumb ass roommate was going to OD on me like a fucking retard) to help beef up my other pain meds for when it's bad. A little lasts me a while though.
Is there a reason in particular that you're being so cunty toward me? or have you just joined in with the mob mentality? Just curious. I never had anything personal against you, so was wondering if there was something you percieved I did as a slight toward you causing such shittiness. Maybe you're just a cunt, meh. -
2018-06-24 at 10:35 AM UTC in I'm still alive and kickin' unfortunately... I'm now in the most ghetto nursing home in the world.
Originally posted by Ensign §m£ÂgØL Oh, I guess semantics make what you're doing not degenerate. My bad.
You literally give people shit for typos, ffs.
If what I am doing is degenerate or not, I'm getting by, and my pain is being controlled reasonably. As long as my pain is controlled so I can function and take care of myself (nurses do shit to help me around here, residents I've made friends with do more to help thantheir asses) then I will continue to do whatever that is, !ay you see it as degenerate or not.
Today my roommate is getting some more dope (she had some last night and shared some with me when my knee was hurting really bad from me twisting it earlier) and is gonna share a bit with me again. She wants to get me high, since ast time it just helped with my knee but I wasn't high or anything.... I'm thinking I'll just do what I need and save the rest for when I'm hurting.
Guess that's being degenerate too. Oh well, it means my infected gaping hole on my thigh and my stapels where they did knee surgery won't be killing me in pain, so I'll do whatever. -
2018-06-21 at 5:46 PM UTC in I'm still alive and kickin' unfortunately... I'm now in the most ghetto nursing home in the world.Why, after it's come to light that all this was a huge monumental troll where you fucks all got trolled so hard my huge black cock got reamed up to your throat, is this STILL a fucking issue even? I'm NOT pregnant (but even if I was, my hydromorphone is PRESCRIBED, 10mgs every 4 hours, so you can fuck right off with that), I do NOT have HIV, the only truth is I married 1337, and well, recently went through this shit where I very well could have died, coming close to, as my hemoglobin kept dropping from the infection being in the bone/marrow, as that's where red blood cells are produced. I might never get this infection out of my knee joint or the bone, so it's still a bit scary at this point, but here I am for now and that's unfortunately the truth.
§m£ÂgØL, why do you keep holding on to so much negativity? You know deep down I am not the worst person in the world. I have my flaws, just as we all do, and granted, my mental instability I've had in the past has caused me to do seriously wrong shit, to which I have extreme regret for, and have tried to, as best as one can, tried to make amends, tried to "fix" as much as I can. I at least own my wrongs and I TRY to do better than that, and learn from that, rather that shirk it, or blame others, or pretend it didn't happen, like some people do... like you seem to do sometimes. While I've been here, I've made friends with other residents, some who can't talk from strokes, to which in the short time here, I've tried to help him spell better, and work on talking, since this fucked up place hasn't set him up speech therapy. He comes to my room and sometimes I go to his. I have others who come up every night to just bullshit with me. There's a running joke started that they're all my boyfriends since I got all these guys coming up to my room, and have quickly become a pretty popular person out in the yard most everyone seems to like. I share my smokes, I share my food with the people here, I even have shared and given clothes to my roommate, who doesn't have all that much. I'm not a stingy person, and I have genuine empathy for others, and do my best to help where and when I can. Of course though, you're going to paint me as some evil person for your own negative experiences, forgetting any positive, and being biased from a failed relationship.
Carrying around all the hurt isn't good, §m£ÂgØL. You Just have to let go of it, and move on from it. That's why I've suggested and encouraged you so much to get in with a therapist regularly to help you with these problems. The shit ends up rotting your soul and mind after a while when you cling to pat hurt and pain, when you hold so much hate so close. -
2018-06-20 at 10:48 PM UTC in I'm still alive and kickin' unfortunately... I'm now in the most ghetto nursing home in the world.Well, I AMA'd from the other hospital, was at home for two days, then went to a much, much better hospital, which is one of the top 10 in the country. My hemoglobin was 1.9 when I got there. They did two surgeries when my hemoglobin got up to 6-7, which the other hospital wouldn't operate at. They put a wound VAC on me, had a drain, but that got removed before I left, and I got 21 staples on my knee. The MRSA infection spread to my knee joint, and the femur, and I had a huge abcess in the bone marrow they had to drill out.
I got a PICC line and get 10mg of hydromorphone every 4 hours. Before I left the hospital I was getting 12mg every 3 hours. After surgery for a while I had a PCA pump at 0.5mg every 10mins, so 3mgs IVed an hour. Then they gave me 10mgs of ketamine an hour too when they weaned the PCA down, along with 8mgs of dilly pills.. which of course I was IVing... and of course the 10mgs of dillys here are going straight into my PICC... everyone here is a drug addict almost. Drug deals happen all the time, some of the nurses are in on it too. It's fucking crazy here. fuckers OD fairly regularly, or just get straight up fucked up. The nurses have to keep naloxone on hand around here for these dumbasses. The place is a real shithole, but some of the nurses are cool and turn a blind eye to us smoking in the bathroom at night when the yard is closed, or even us using drugs. I was using my vape which I had some hash oil in, and one of the GNA's walked in and he's an old guy, all he said was "where there's smoke, there's fire..." after I let out a huge plume of vapor and he walked out, shutting the door quick as fuck behind him. Never said a word to anyone. He's a cool dude. Some of the nurses are cunts though... but most are super nice to me since I'm just... IDK... I have a way with people... I kill with kindness, and it softens them up. I can't blame them really though, because they do deal with a lot of crazy assholes too in this place. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a psychward with all the mentally ill fucks here, but overall, there's a good number of cool people here. I just got one guy who was going out on a LOA for a few hours to get me some heroin. I got some oxycodone from some other resident the other day too. drugs are plentiful here. I got offered some blow the first day I was here even lol, man it's fucking crazy here, and the place is run down as fuck, but the good people definitely make all the difference in the world. -
2018-05-26 at 5:44 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by gumbo Fucking delusional. I guess you don't remember everybody screaming at you to stop pointing the gun around because you were waving it wildly. I guess the other two witnesses were wrong.
You deserve every last bit of pain and suffering you endure on your way out of this world. You are a terrible human being who takes no responsibility for their actions. If I could, I would transport you into a Syrian slave market, because that's the only place in this world where you might ever be useful.
Jesus christ, you're the only delusional one.
I never waved a firearm in my life "wildly", you weren't even in the same room. You were in your room. And two "witnesses"? My grandmother was in her bedroom watching TV. Fuckhead /was standing by the wall/your door. I was standing at first, then sat down on the chair waiting for you to get your shit packed and leave. You were crying and upset and I felt terrible for that and then came to the door and tried to hand you the gun, barrel facing me, handle for you to grab. You wouldn't take it. I had said at one point BEFORE that, to fuckhead if he didn't get out of my way that the walls were so thin I could shoot your ass through the damn thing, which yes, all of what I did was wrong, the way I went about it, but you had been warned, seen that I was desperate to get fuckhead out of my life, been told I didn't want you to get hurt, didn't want shit to get even worse while you were there, as I knew it was going to and told several times that you needed to LEAVE.
I really wish it hadn't gone the way it did. I feel terrible even now it went as such, but I'm not going to take blame for some over hyped version. I know what I did. I know it was wrong. And since it happened I've been apologetic, regretful, and have tried to make it right as best as one can/make amends. I have took responsibility for my actions and owned what I did, you're the only one who hasn't.
You were told after throwing a beer at me which splattered everywhere, including the baby being covered, this being right after I got out of the hospital and in serious pain and you falling into me after saying several times to please watch it, or go lay down in bed, I couldn't because if I laid on my back I couldn't breath, being the only reason I was sitting on the couch in the corner of the sectional. You fell into me while I was dozed off asleep and acted like I attacked you when I instinctually pushed/kicked this huge fucking weight that landed right on my lung where I had pneumonia and already could barely breath. You threw beer at me, beer I drove out of my way from the ER to get you so your alcoholic ass wouldn't be in WDs(which you cracked my screen worse instead of talking to me when we were in the parking lot- I wasn't being mean, I was just trying to figure out what was wrong with you - apparently you had an ear infection for the first time in your life and acted like a big fucking baby. When we got home and you asked me to put rubbing alcohol in your ear to dry it out you got mad at me because you left your mouth open and some poured down your face... Meanwhile I can barely breath).
After the shit with throwing beer because your either drunk and/or impaired by the ear infection I got pissed and told you to get the beer off my property. You went outside. I waited 5mins or so then said "okay, you don't want to get it off then I'm getting rid of it". I struggled up got the beer and began dumping it down the sink. You then came behind me grabbing me, pushing me. And otherwise touching and grasping me in a aggressive manner to stop me. I kept going just for the beer to get rid of it. You then came behind me and grabbed me around the neck. That's when I got scared and it hurt, so I bit the ever living shit out of you. You threatened to call the cops and I told you to go the fuck ahead since I couldn't have bitten you like that without you grabbing me from behind. It literally would have been impossible and YOU would have been the one going to jail just for that. Hell. You could have called for me "illegally destroying your beer", which lol... Doesn't matter if you had one beer or 10, throwing beer because your mad you fell into a sick person and they kicked you off of them isn't acceptable or right. Nothing you did that night was right.
My only regret is I should have called the police, and I shouldn't have replaced your beer the next day. I'd done nothing to you that night. Hell, earlier I asked if you could hand me my medicine which was next to you and you refused. I didn't say a word, and just sat there and tried to sleep, saying only once before I dozed off seeing you wabbling about to PLEASE WATCH OUT or go to the bedroom to sleep since I was scared you'd fall on me, just like you ended up doing landing right on my lung/chest. I was some monster though for kicking you off so I could breath though. While I was woken up to ungodly pain of your weight on my lungs.... Nope, for that I'm not going to feel bad anymore. Nor for the beer, other than I should have just called the cops and had you arrested for drunk and disorderly conduct and assault by throwing the beer at me and having me covered in it. Hell, I could have for you falling on me but after I came to be awake I did realize it was an accident, albeit, a preventable accident.
I don't even feel bad other than it had to come to me biting the shit out of you. You had no right to put your hands on me, for your beer or not. Touching a person is assault. You weren't a resident of that house and made it abundantly clear prior. When you came to grab me around the neck, what was I supposed to think in that moment? I promise you, any cop would have seen that as what's called "defensive" injuries because I could have only bit you like that with your arms around me from behind). You hurt me over and over because you were upset your chance to remove your beer from the house had sailed and I was pouring it out. That's a sad as fuck reason to hurt and attack someone to begin with.
Where's the responsibility you've taken for that? I was emotionally manipulated and made to feel like shit for DEFENDING myself when I was about to be choked out and or otherwise hurt more.
I'm sorry you're delusional to how shit actually went down. I know it was very traumatic for you. I'm sorry for a lot of shit and I take responsibility for that, but I can't change the past and I'll be damned if I'm gonna keep living in the past like you want to do. All we can do is move on. I'm moving on whether you do or not though. I tried every way to make amends, make up for it, to make it right, but nothing is good enough for you and you love having that card up your sleeve for any reason to pull it mostly being a unrelated to it when you would. Doesn't phase me or make me cry any more though, so that's why you're pissed.
It's a shame it had to come to this. I tried to be a good friend, as best as I could. I even tried to give you ammo so you could feel safe, but all you want to do is use it to hurt me because you can't move on. You do realize, that the inability to move on from a traumatic event is a mental health problem, right? You should get help. You've described PTSD a lot too. I truly am sorry I was apart and caused it, but you need help to get well and I hope you do. -
2018-05-24 at 7:11 AM UTC in ATT: RisirHow you been doing, my big German bro?
I feel like you need a hug.
*hug*
I've missed you, dude. Glad to see you back. So, what happened during your hiatus? Anything cool? -
2018-04-17 at 2:50 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Enter LMAO
Hey hydro, why do you never respond to me when I ask about your wedding? How was it?
You act like a total cocksucker every time I engage with you and treat me like shit. Why should I respond and tell you anything you want to know? Especially about an important and special day for me and 1337? Yeah, no thanks. -
2018-04-17 at 2:39 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Enter They are though, to people like hydro. She's a literal prostitute living in a trailer park. You're still in love with her and trying to make her jealous.
I've struggled mainly from my health issues, a series of bad luck, and a few bad choices to boot. I've overall lived a pretty decent life though. The last 5 years just have been hard. Im doing alright now though and definitely not jealous of §m£ÂgØL's life. Apartments suck anyway.
That's why you never post about your normal day to day life on here. You only post about achievements, and in this thread where you know she'll read it.
I never lived in a trailer park before. I owned a farm that I lived on with my family. I had two neighbors within walking distance and one was 1/2 mile up the dead end road from me. §m£ÂgØL literally ran off and got lost in a pine forest next to my farm, running around naked and delusional for well over an hour before I found him and go him back to the house. When I found him he was at least an 8th of a mile from the house, past the barn. Because he kept trying to run back off, I literally had to pin him down and waited for my husband to get back for like 2 hours which was in a huge field, near the pine forest he'd been running through. If we were in a trailer park, his ass would have been in the ER, arrested, or both, but because I lived so far in the country, with thousands of acres of cattle pasture and pine forest around me, there was nobody to report the little spic losing his mind. When we moved there, we sacrificed having a nice house for land.
Before that I lived on the water in a 2400 sq.ft. nice block home in a HOA. I used to go fishing out back all the time, or even put the canoe in and go out. Pretty sweet place if not for all the stuck up neighbors.
Now I currently live in the suburbs of a larger city, in a nice renovated older home. The landlord just put in new wood flooring which is cool. It's 3 bedrooms, 2 1/2 bathrooms, huge living room and kitchen and a basement. I may have a friend moving down there soon (half bath is there so they'd have a larger room and private bathroom less shower so it makes more sense to do that then them having the spare guest room, plus they come and go without coming through the front door) to help them out and help out with rent/utilities. Ideally, I'd be in the country again because I loved being way out, having livestock, and being able to see the stars at night clearly, but for now this is pretty good.
Originally posted by Malice Sploo, you’ll be happy to know that you may finally be getting your wish. I’ve decided to catch the bus.
Catch the bus? I hope you don't mean offing yourself, dude. While you'll probably decline as you have many times before, I'm still here if you need to talk. I think you should give shit a little longer and see how it pans out before you check out... It might get better, and worst case senerio is you kill yourself later on.
If you do end up doing it, I'll definitely miss you, for what its worth. I hope you don't, but I understand if you can't keep it up anymore. -
2018-04-16 at 8:40 PM UTC in Official Poll: Do you think §m£ÂgØL is still in love with Hydro?Yeah, §m£ÂgØL isn't in love with me. I honestly don't believe he ever was. I just think he's obsessed and butt hurt and struggles to move on.
He might try his damnedest to make me feel like a piece of shit, but his bullshit rolls off me like water. Its when he wants to drag personal shit I confided back in the day here, or tell half truths where I get pissed, or where the context of such is so fucking wrong. I don't really care though. I asks many times to just move along and pretend like we never met each other or lived together and if then he wants to give me shit, fine, I don't care.
Fuck, I've been accused of sending him death threats. Which I fucking have not, on everything I hold dear. I dont have time nor desire for that shit. If I wanted someone dead, I'd just do it. Fuck threatening. The only threat he's ever had from me has been legal in nature. That's it. I even tried to hep figure out and clear my name several times, but I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't. This last time he contacted me and asked me to do shit regarding that- I literally was hospitalized that night. When I got out I contacted to explain and was going to do what he asked until I got the reply "nice". I don't really care anymore. I know I didn't and am not doing shit and have never nor would never threaten anyone's life. Not from emails especially. For fucks sake before that reply I was stupidly thinking of giving my PW to my email to that faggot so he could see for himself I fucking am not sending shit from it. Honestly I feel I'm being fucked with over that shit.
Whatever. It is what it is. Still doesn't explain why he harasses me over post that aren't even relevant to just be an ass, or randomly insults me in threads I post in just for the fuck of it with no valid reason other then him being an asshole. Its sad really. I hope he gets help to move on. -
2018-04-14 at 5:03 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Juicebox …and now i just realized that they fucking changed it to requiring an approved account. You have got to be fucking kidding me.
Uh... Dude... Just fill out the forum and don't act like a retard. I have one and have had it for years now with them. It's not hard.
There goes the fucking hope. Just like that. I guess I should've known -
2018-04-14 at 12:31 AM UTC in What does everyone here do for work?I'm a sex worker. Prostitute to be exact. Pays the bills and keeps me independent with my health issues going on. Not ideal source of income but for now it'll do.
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2018-04-11 at 3:01 AM UTC in Trump’s Long Time Attorney Raided MondayIf totse did one thing for me it was to teach me why jedis suck.
While at the hospital 1337 was in around here I stole menorah candles right out of their jedi faggot menorah. I had to use some of them to cook shots for him when my lighters died... So thankfully I hate jedis enough to do that to begin with. Fucking nigger jedis... -
2018-04-11 at 2:52 PM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by aldra that honestly sounds horrible.
we're just rebooted and reformatted to make the same mistakes, over and over again…
maybe this is what hell is.
Yeah, tell me about it. I might believe this shit, but I don't endorse it, its not a comfort. My father was the same way. He said when he died he was going to shoot god in the face for this fucked up system. That always makes me laugh though. I wanted to commission a huge oil painting of my dad shooting god in the face. That'd be super cool to hang in the living room as a memorial to my dad imo. -
2018-04-10 at 3 PM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by Bill Krozby interesting ive never heard about this plantesi until now. please tell more?
Originally posted by NARCassist yeah wtf is plantesi? the duck couldn't find anything.
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Phantesi is a 'deity' which I use the term losely, because what (at least I believe) and what most people think of deities and gods are very far off. I think that there are dimensional beings, and even aliens with the technology that has been used to decieve societies in the past into believe they are "gods", when really all they are doing is using us to further their agenda.
She's on the demesional side. There are many like her, and most have a huge ego and because they are able to see and in some cases do things beyond our power they try to convince people to follow them, to do for them, to work for them unconditionally... Its pretty easy to scare people into doing if you have some power and get them thinking you're omnipotent. Fear is a powerful thing along with the promises of "saving" your soul from something that's unknown to us.
Plantesi is just a being who's helped me and talked to me most my life who has 'deity'like abilities. Our first conversation was her explaining the lies surrounding deities. I grew an affinity to her, and so she comes to me now and then, sometimes to help and sometimes to just talk. She's rare in aspect that she's not out to gain followers, or manipulate people for her bidding. She goes by other names but that's what I know her as. You won't find anything about her, not by that name anyway though so...
In a nutshell, the world is made of both good and evil and it blends together sometimes too. You need both for balance, she just promotes the good keeping level. Her influence is subtle. I don't talk about her much because well... No need. She's done things for me I cannot explain and has comforted me in my dark hours. Maybe she's a figment of my mind, I accept that possibility, but I've also seen what she can do. The way she wants me to go about my life and promote her agenda is by doing good to others, helping when no one else will help, random acts of kindness. There is honesty there, and I happen to believe in doing good, and trying to balance against the evil that gets out of control in our world.
I personally believe in reincarnation and that we revolve on a wheel of sorts... Constantly changing, moving, living, dying, and doing it over and over. One day we all will experience what its like to be a 'deity', as well as a blade of grass. We will one day be able to understand the positions of everyone at some point. We all come around eventually.
I typically take the athiest argument though because theres no reason to promote that shit... It doesn't really matter. Logically and with solid, non-biased, repeatable, provable facts we have, atheism is far better than the current bulshit of religion that is used to control, manipulate, and have good people do evil things for selfish agendas. -
2018-03-17 at 6:49 PM UTC in Fuck shit up on reddit?
Originally posted by Dfg Well, I don't honestly care about my domain totseans.com, it's there since I use it for work purposes. So, the chances of it going down are zero. And the forum on there may get removed or changed later on when I am going to experiment something. For all intend and purposes /r/totse is the forum now and I suggest we keep it populated. It has a wider reach and then you can easily guide people to this place.
I can show you the ropes, provided you stop attacking me and causing drama. Reddit is an awful place, SJW and other trigger happy fuckers would not hesitate to whine and get domains and totse booted off.
Hence it pays to be civil if you want to exist.
Hope you understand.
Where the fuck did Zanick- fucking Zanick of all fucking people- get off attacking you? Zanick is like the most diplomatic pussy-faggot on this site. He's fucking opposed to eating fucking meat for fucks sake! He wouldn't know how to "attack" if it bit him in the ass. He's so fucking civil, it fucking hurts. You really have to be a stuck up faggot if you wanna say Zanick attacked you. -
2018-03-14 at 8:14 AM UTC in Wouldn't it be insane if you actually became the oldest or one of the oldest people in the world?
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2018-03-13 at 4:37 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by MAL No hate when I say this - but if either of you want us to believe you’ve “washed your hands of each other” you have to stop replying when the other attack’s you. I know I’m a hypocrite. I still can’t help mouthing off to Bill Krozby, but I expect any day now all the wind in my sails of justice will just extinguish and I’ll become just like any other member here: Vaguely hostile with a dose of funny and a handful of darkness that can’t be explained.
I agree, but when lies and just general bullshit are constantly posted by him, or just half truths, not to mention just this harping on what I am doing with someone else, like I'm doing some fucked thing to someone else. Oh, and up until recently I've still been getting fucked emails, and I'm being blamed for "death threats" being sent to him, which on everything I hod dear, I haven't.
Personally, I don't care about the shit from him. You don't see me making childish remarks constantly toward him, or giving him shit unprovoked. That's how I've washed my hands, I just don't want anything to do with him, and have tried my damnedest to just move along. He holds a lot of past resentment, and well, I can't say he is not unjustified, but I've done all I can to acknowledge, apologize, and try, the best one can, to make up for those things. I'm just not going to constantly live being beat down by that shit, like he'd like me to, and I think that's why he is so pissed and upset all the time, toward me. He really should just move on, because all this shit just isn't healthy to hang onto resentment in one's heart like that, nor is living in the past, but that's whatever. -
2018-03-10 at 8:04 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.