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2020-02-17 at 6:53 PM UTC in Just celebrated my birthday...And it was pretty good thanks to my friends. Went to the aquarium all day, spent time at the coffee shops, ate good food- it was nice.
I've been having issues that I should be in the hospital for as well... If I don't get admitted and have surgery soon, it'll probably kill me eventually so my friend has told me he's going to put his whole check into making sure I stay there and get what I need done and that way I'll be covered for my dope while I'm in getting these surgeries/care I desperately need. Hell,he's also allocated a bedroom for me to stay at anytime I want in his house too.
I'm lucky that I have a friend like I do. He really made me have an awesome birthday and has saved my ass more than once... Now he's likely literally saving my life...
Makes ya feel all warm and fuzzy when you have a friend like that. I'm really grateful to have it as good as I do, and have a friend as good as he is. Even the friends I have that might not be able to help me like he can, I'm grateful for what they do and being there for me and having my back when I need it. I'm very lucky.
Hope y'all are doing well. take it easy.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-21 at 3:02 AM UTC in Hydromorphone to be available from Vancouver vending machines for 32 cents a 8mg pillI mean... This is a good start to ending prohibition on drugs, however... Why would you, knowing that people STILL are going to inject, provide them with an oral pill form? Why not just provide the shit straight up, ready to IV as one would find in a hospital? It'd sterile, clean, and well... You'd have less issues in the event of a miss causing abcesses from unsanitary water, cookers and the like which could occur. If done how I suggested, all one would need to worry about is a clean rig and property prepping the skin prior to injection...
Also, if people had this all available (cheap, clean drugs, ready to IV, prepped sterile) I'd think that just providing long term users safe ports or PICC lines to inject (you'd be using safe clean sterile drugs manufactured for the purpose of IVing... Then it just falls to the user to properly and sanitarily inject the drug into the line as one would if in a hospital- proper cleanliness procedures being taught obviously... That would be the way to go to avoid users of destroying their cardiovascular system with misses, over use of veins, and abcesses forming from said misses etc.
I had a resident doctor at Hopkins whom took a shine to me, have this very discussion... He agreed. There is a large number of users who's only real issue with using is the legality factor, not being able to get employment due to legality factors, being made criminals just for being a users, etc.. when it'd just make more sense to let them live and let live, do their shit, and promote them doing as safely as possible.
Also, while I don't condone stealing to take care of a habit, getting rid of the artificial inflation of drugs would help a lot in terms of crime with users... Typically people don't need to steal to maintain an alcohol addiction because well... Beer and liquor are pretty cheap... It'd ruin the cartels too.. cutting them off at the balls. A lot less crime would exist due to legalization.
Also I am very much in support of people being responsible for what the fuck they do. That's one reason a lot of addicts don't want legalization lol. They like to blame their fuck ups and shit decisions on their addiction rather than themselves.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-27 at 4:18 PM UTC in Merry Christmas- get down on it...
Originally posted by Bill Krozby lol OP has a picc line
I wish I still did.
I'm seriously considering getting a port either done by someone on the side, or taking a trip to Mexico. That'd be the ticket.
I wouldn't really need new rigs, if I had a PICC. Just syringes. Insulin needles for right now though.
Glad the fag spic gets some humor from my happiness. Its just jealousy. I can be happy like this, yet he can't be happy in his life, which should be miles above mine.
I've learned a lot, I've grown, and well... I'm just gonna cherish each day.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-26 at 12:43 AM UTC in Merry Christmas- get down on it...... if ya really want it.
I'm having a pretty awesome Christmas. I have a day pack o' the goodie good dope pills, a few bags of new needles, some reefer (rarely smoke anymore but it was a Christmas present), and blunt wraps. Even got a lot of other people gifts, and cards. I made a ton of money. I gave out a fuckload of cards to those who helped me survive, and I was able to save a few other people's asses who are less fortunate than I am.
I'm grateful. I'm happy.
Merry Christmas,1337. love ya always. Praying for you always, especially today.
I'm gonna be going to look at Christmas display lights now with friends. Hope y'all have a good Christmas.
Merry Christmas, Narc. Love ya, bro. -
2019-12-27 at 12:03 AM UTC in Merry Christmas- get down on it...I live by myself, deep in the woods, in a tent. It's a safe and secure spot, and hard to access, if you don't know the way, which is heavily concealed.
I have a propane heater, plenty of 1lb tanks, which I can refill with my 15lb tanks (2 of them, and I just use an adaptor hose on the big tank when I'm here and use the little tanks for when I'm panhandling so it's easy to carry/tote along. Just becareful of some hoses, especially felible ones as they are manufactured with an oil to make them felible... It leeches into the heater lines and clogs it up, rendering your heater useless. You sometimes can pull it apart and blow out the oil, and best is to use a compressor to blow the oil out. Put it back together and it runs fine. Sometimes the pilot light assembly needs replacing, which is maybe once a season with heavy use (done a lot of camping with these bitches waaaay before I ever was homeless, hence why I am well informed on this wonderful thingie madoodle.
I can happily say I've never once stayed in a shithole shelter, which often has lice and bed/body bugs which infest clothing too. (I've seen the results on other homeless folks though).I also am not handing over my knives.
I gotmmy setup good for winter, and I don't need their help.
Hey I'm happy. That's the ultimate goal, right? To be happy? My pain is well managed at this point, albeit some times I have little set backs where I take a hard fall, or twist my knee, which has me take an extra dose or two once in a blue moon but I'm never without dope. I'm over 3 days ahead. I meet all sorts of cool people everyday. Some help me, others, I help them... I'm grateful. I'm excited to get up and see my people eveeyday. I look forward to seeing my cool cats who look out for me when I go to cop.
Got stoned tonight for the first time in a long time. Having a good time. Going to bed soon as I get up insanely early to begin my day.
Hey, I'm grateful to be alive and having good days. Tomorrow isn't promised, not is it promised to be a great day, but I'm thankful for the ones I get.
Hope y'all had a good Christmas. Happy New year incase I'm too busy to say so.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-26 at 11:22 PM UTC in I might put myself to sleep soon.It's funny to think that when I was living in a home and had sommuch that I was at my worst mentally.
Seriously... Try homelessness even if just for a week. It could always be worse. I see kindness and generosity everyday. I am blessed everyday, enough so that a lot of days I can help and bless others... completely changing their entire day. It's touching, really.
I don't know what happened... But once I fell into the right groove... I just got better at least in the head.
I wish you the best. I hope you choose living. If I can help somehow, message me.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-19 at 10:32 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕Oh, and Merry Christmas, happy Holidays to all you cool cats, and Happy New year I'm the event I'm out living my life, actually happy for the most part. I may stop in to say Hi, but I'm usually too occupied with other shit.
Take care, y'all.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-15 at 3:58 AM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?
Originally posted by Sudo Being homeless would certainly have an effect on your pain management. As someone who also suffers from chronic pain (and has 2 prescriptions for your namesake) I can say that lifestyle DEFINITELY has an effect on pain. I don't know the extent of yours but stress, anxiety, lifestyle blah blah etc can cause it to be worse or better. As roughly 99% of the world would see being homeless as a depressing and stressful hand to mouth existence, this would likely cause them more pain and discomfort. When I'm in my car too much in the run of the day or am busy stressing about various things, my pain becomes much worse and it has always been that way. I also know that when you're dopesick your pain is much greater and when it is otherwise. Pain is a subjective thing though and I can't pretend to understand how yours works, I'm just telling you the experience of myself and most of the medical community I've talked to and books I've read on the subject (pain explained and the mindfulness solution to pain are the best ones I've found) over the last decade and a half.
Your life revolves around drugs and seeking ways and means of acquiring more. That much I can tell, as can anyone else. If you weren't in the grips of addiction you could likely find a place to stay or could afford your own apartment.
Stop trying so hard to appear as a good, selfless person too. You rely on the handouts of others who provide utility to the world and good people don't go around announcing they're doing things they perceive to be good, nor do they feel the need to qualify themselves as a good person.
I hope your pain and addiction get better and you don't harm any more §m£ÂgØLs
I think the biggest thing that has actually helped me is that I have routine, and healthy escapes. I do have an addiction, and that is managing my pain, but I don't let it be the end all, be all of my life.
As a friend I have said, who's actually a very intelligent guy, he's got his master's in some shit related to social services, but had a mental break down when his wife divorced him and a bunch of shit happened which fucked him over in his career path (he smokes weed and spice but has no addiction or use of other drugs) said to me "you have a reason to get up in the morning - dope- sure it's kinda a shitty reason BUT it's a reason, and you do it everyday, and prior, I bet you failed yo have a reason to.get up and about for a very long time. With that reason leads you to do yourur thing, but puts you in contact with so many other people that you touch positively everyday and you go about your day positively which reflects on to others, and while it's all do to something as small as dope, it's at least SOMETHING and thus this is why you do have it better to most in our situation- you have drive to get up, do what you got to do, smiling all the way, and then spread good while you go about with the rest of your day and why you're likely happier than you were previously. This was said by my friend and I believe him to be right.
I tell y'all small snippets of my life, I'm not on here everyday, I'm busy enjoying life, having freedom. I go to the aquarium nearly daily,.and luckily enough my year pass enables me to bring a guest, which I try to do as much as possible,even bringing strangers, other homeless with me, which is often a highlight of their day, and I know it is for me too.
Sure, I'm dope sick once in a blue moon ,which sucks, but the frequency is so much lower than it ever was when I lived in a house.
Take what you want from my little snippets, but I'm just trying to express that I'm happy, and it makes me happy that I can help others, that I can "share the wealth" I aquire. I am blessed. I have many people who genuinely love and care about me, and I love and care about them. I even got holiday cards (some are Muslim, and one a jedi lol) and some small gifts. I don't always want to be a "taker", so I try and find ways to giveback a little. They really appreciate that and are kinda astonished- thus I am helped even more. Karma is a real thing, and it comes back every day to me. I live and sleep comfortably. I use public transit, but due to coping dope everyday, I do a bit more walking than I'd like to, which is my only complaint, and sometimes I just cop enough for two or three days if funds allow.
I hope you all are doing well and as happy and mentally centered as I am now. I actually feel good despite my existing health issues but that's manageable. I go doctors regularly which was hard for me to do before too, so that's another plus. It's odd to think wow... I'm actually level. It's weird but hey.. whatever works.
If you read this 1337 I pray for you all the time and hope you are well.
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace She has a pentagram tattoo lol
It WAS a pentacle (a pentagram has a lot different meaning than a pentacle. Pentacle is star right side/point up, pentagram is star down/point down) and I no longer have it. It was covered up by back tattoo of the sword in the stone my tattoo artist friend did for me.
It was a jail house small tattoo inlet the asshole I was with talk me into, and also do one for him on his back. I'm so glad it's gone. I literally was going to use lye to burn it off but my friend talked me into this option which I prefer. Everyone seems to like it too. Kinda cool having a Sword go down my spine.
Regardless, what does it matter what I have on me. These people accept and love me how I am and I love them all the same too. I was blessed with family in them. They're happy and cool too. They joke about smoking weed all the time but nolonger partake but are chill about it and all.
They are really wonderful people. I'm blessed to have a lot of wonderful people around me.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-11-30 at 1:26 PM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?I guess no one knows.
I go to a pentacostal church. I go with friends I made who see me panhandling all the time. I go because I want to and it makes them happy. I get nothing from them or the church, except maybe a coat and some food here or there.
I do not go to a methadone clinic. That would fuck up my pain management. Im not gonna fuck up my pain management.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-11-15 at 10:57 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕
Originally posted by 6011UM Hey that's where hydro is at I hope she gets murdered
Yeah, I walk through the worst neighborhoods in the entire city, sleep in literally the worst too for gun crime and murder.
Ive known people selling dope one day a dead the next.
Personally, I dont feel a target. I give respect and get it in return. Ive had an asshole here or there act shitty and have folks up there set him straight and then escort me to the metro or wait with me for the bus just so they know Im okay.
For being white in a mostly black area, Im treated pretty good.
Meh, sure I guess anything could happen but I dont feel Id be lucky enough to take fatal gun shot.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-09-17 at 12:38 AM UTC in I've been depressed most my life......and one would think that being homeless, on the streets, would make it worse. I guess in some ways it does have it's own more severe issues that are depressing, however I've been in a much better place mentally than I have been in a very long, long time... if ever.
Not to say I'm never depressed or down, but it's never to the extent it used to be.
I have a little crew I hang with now days too. We all chip in to help each other, and cover each other's ass. They got a place I can go shower and even live if I want, but I prefer my little cut in the woods. I spend the night every so often though say when I need a shower or just want company. We all hustle together most days too, and we make bank.
We got aquarium year passes and can take guests so we always find some random homeless to tag along with us, and considering it's 40$ a ticket to go, they feel like they won the lottery. We're all planning a trip to the Smithsonian coming up soon too.
Right now at least,life is alright. I got my dope,I got my aquarium ticket, and I'm cool as a cucumber.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-06-25 at 5 PM UTC in Later
Originally posted by joerell On the other hand people who have great lives don't need to hear how cowardly addicts are destroying their lives and society.
Then don't come to the place where these addicts congregate and have built a small niche community. And cowardly? Where do you get that from? I can tell you first hand §m£ÂgØL is one of the most cowardly people one could meet irl. Being a user doesn't make one cowardly.
Originally posted by -SpectraL It's my opinion that users who come on the BBS to publish their personal information and personal lives and basically beg for sympathy should be banned. The BBS isn't some personal diary, and no one should really give two warm shits about the problems you are going through. Attention-whoring has nothing to do with knowledge is power. Nobody cares that you want to kill yourself. Nobody cares that your life is a mess. Nobody cares you need a helpin' hand. The "poor me" angle is a farce, and should be banned outright.
Surely, you're right that this isn't some personal diary, but the stories that get shared are what's being contributed. You might not like my story of being in the hospital, all my surgeries, and this addventure of being in the most ghetto nursing home in the world, BUT it's a contribution, where I've left information about the whole thing such as my experience with certain drugs, allergic reactions, causes of those reactions, and alternative drugs they gave me. I left my story of what happened to me, how I was coping. Same goes with others who share their adventures, trails, and tribulations, to someone else they maybe interesting, enligtening, helpful, and/or share information they have sought out, which could be mundane, or something they couldn't find elsewhere.
This is a community too, and when you have a small, close-knit community such as this one, you're going to have people share personal things, and come together. Shit, there's been many people who've helped others, and returned the favor to others. I was helped when I needed it (and I didn't even ask for the help, just mentioned my hardship, and when I was able I paid back the help I was given), and I helped others when I was in a better place to do so. That's what makes places like this so special is that we all know each other, and open up about our lives, and what's going on in our lives. Just because someone posts about a bad thing happening to them doesn't mean they're trying to get sympathy, or begging for something, sometimes it just means they're reaching out to the community for support or advice in how to cope/deal with that hardship.
And another thing: Malice was a huge part of this community. He contributed all sorts of shit, and at this very moment I wish he were here so I could ask him a question about something since he's probably the only one who could answer it here. Malice contributing personal trials and tribulations is a contribution of autism, of the suffering of mentalillness, the negative effects of social isolation.
I thought you were for freedom of speech... oh, guess it's just speech you like. Glad Lanny is good with freedom of speech as long as it's not spamming.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-23 at 7:24 PM UTC in Building a Pallet houseWhere I am camped at I have the perfect hidy-hole. It's wooded and peaceful, I don't get fucked with, yet the city is right outside the wood line.
I am planning to build a house out of skids/pallets since I seen some people who've done it before. I'm also considering other ideas. I may dig down and possibly make a sandbag house with a "basement" type thing, with a loft or something. Either way I'm planning on a loft style thingie either for storage or to have my bed (just a small loft space, with a slanted pallet ladder to climb up it- nothing huge).
Over time I could insulate it too, and add drywall, or some other wall material.
Once built, I am DEFINITELY going to dig a ditch, use a 55gal plastic barrel, and drill holes in the bottom, get rocks and such to create a leech bed, and connect it to a toilet. All I'd need then is water to flush, which I could get from collecting rain water. I've seen, and helped do this exact thing before, and it's pretty easy. I have a few people who can help me dig the trench for the barrel. It's also situated on a steep hill, so it'll run off perfectly.
I also am getting some solar panels and batteries. I just want to be able to charge my phone/laptop, use some LED lights, and run a small fan/maybe in the winter a small space heater, although heat could be generated through other means, if it won't support that.
Anyone done something similar? Any ideas I could add to or modify? Any thoughts? I'd love some input to this project.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-08-08 at 12:43 AM UTC in Building a Pallet house
Originally posted by Obbe If it is a temporary shelter you could probably build something suitable using pallets as they are.
Not even temporary. I plan to use the pallet slapped together using other pieces of pallets to secure them together ideally with screws but nails would work too. I'd buy a few 2x6 to add structural support.probably even get a few square posts for the corners and porch to put in the ground and screw the pallet foundation to.
And Lanny don't call me a shit bird... I can deviate in my own thread a little. See, we got back on topic. We're big kids now, dad... Let us play in the sand box please.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-08-04 at 11:18 PM UTC in World's greatest living programmer, John McAffee, hero, takes to waves to avoid CIA kidnap attemps
Originally posted by JÏ…icebox Not with a barrel that short unless he's done a lot of training, and if his boat is moving it's hopeless
A short barrel is good on a boat where you have a small area to move around in. He's planning for close up encounters with what's in his hand, not to hit them a mile off. You got to account for the situation. On a boat a short barrel is ideal to just have by your side. It'd be hard to hit anything with range with the waves much less moving.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-08-04 at 1:58 AM UTC in Building a Pallet houseI don't hoard shit and I keep my shit clean and picked up. I bag all my trash and take it to public trash cans and shit.
I am well hidden and I don't have others around or let people know where I am. My dog is gonna be a good deterrent too. When I sleep she's gonna have my money and dope in her collar lol. If you want my shit you have to go through my 120lb dog that protects momma and won't tolerate strangers in her home at night.
She doesn't bark either so that won't be a problem with drawing attention to me. She just whines and nudges me to alert me. She's a cool as shit dog.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-23 at 7:12 PM UTC in I'm going to start sleeping outside on Wednesday night...
Originally posted by WellHung I make $160 a week, no taxes. No car note. No car insurance. I can 'tread water' for a long time, and keep around that mark.
Dude, I make MINIMUM 60$ a day. Yesterday I made 130$ before 10am. I could have made more had I felt like getting back on the light. It wouldn't have been nothing to break 160$. I made 80$ today. I got up late and didn't feel like staying on longer when the sun came out and the humidity got bad. Many days, and at least once a week I make 180-200$. This is ALL JUST PANHANDLING. I do nothing else for income.
I suggest you get a tent, a cheap air mattress, a couple tarps, and find a little spot that's safe to post up at. It makes life easier. Beings that you have a car, you could just sleep in that and/or scout out a spot to park and set up a camp.
Be wary of other homeless. Some are good, others are shit. A lot of thieving assholes. Don't trust them or tell them where you stay or park.
good luck. I personally don't mind doing this most the time. It is liberating. I also get good dope everyday. Very rarely am I dope sick, and when I have been it's been related to my chronic health issues, but I have people who pull me out of tight spots, so it's not so bad. My biggest problem is I help too many people out, way too much. I'm stopping that shit. Unless I need to return a favor, or something, or they are near and dear, I ain't helping nobody with nothing anymore beyond a cigarette since I roll my own so it's not too much to do that. I'm just way too generous. I wouldn't have ever been in a bad spot on the few times I have if it wasn't for that.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-01 at 5:41 AM UTC in look in desperate can anyone help ASAP
Originally posted by Fonaplats Just go to the hospital hydro.
Tell them you was raped and if you act traumatic enough they will give you xanax.
Say blacks did it.
They will believe you due to your rough, gaping, beat to shit, addict, hooker pussy.
Fuck that. I hate how Xanax or any benzo makes me feel.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-26 at 5:02 AM UTC in A paradox I came up with that isn't a paradox at all probably
Originally posted by mmQ Yeah, of sorts. I was using more of a standard wage so to speak for a standard populus that obviously xant all be managers and CEOs. But that's the paradoxical part because blah blah blah.
I mean some people live on the streets their whole life, and they manage, and they live. So is it like they payed millions of dollars over the course of a few decades to live that way, or did they just live that way for free?
Dude, I'm homeless. I make a minimum of 60$ a day. That's a bad day too. I just made 180$ last Friday.
People on thw streets make money, don't think they don't. Some steal, some prostitute (I no longer do that), some panhandle (which is how I make my money). Some have odd hustles, like what I do on Friday and Saturday nights at the bars. I give out glow in the dark bracelets to the drunks and quite often I'm tipped very well. Some do odd jobs, like handy man work and shit. Some actually have jobs, ans live on the streets to save money and avoid a lot of expenses, or because of falling on hard times.
There is a lot of variables to those who dont have typical housing. We all make money though, one way or another, some make more, others make less. I know a lot of people struggling right now, and would kill to be making half of what I make daily, and I know a few who make more than I do too. It all depends on each individual's circumstance and strong points. If you're personable, and at least look like you try to be clean, you're gonna go a lot further than the dirty, depressed homeless dude.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-14 at 11:13 AM UTC in Are you for or against prohibition(drugs)?
Originally posted by HTS Drugs are one of the more self-destructive avenues of recreation. Recreational drug use is - by nature of it being recreational - totally unnecessary. You don't need to get high. Ever. Add to that the risks, and it totally makes sense to prohibit access. Of course you can say that harm reduction education and an educated populace would ideally never run into problems with legal drug use, but that is utopian nonsense. The reality is that people are fucking stupid. People will destroy themselves, their lives, and the lives of others if they're allowed to do drugs. Because they're fucking stupid. The government has a moral obligation to the people to prevent them from hurting themselves. You aren't crying about seatbelt safety laws, and it's the exact same concept. Why aren't you crying about that? Because you aren't a degenerate seatbeltlessness addict. You're a degenerate drug addict. 🤔
Dude, but there are WAY more people who fall into the recreational class of drug use (I.e. anyone who does a drug without a script is deemed "recreational") who actually are doing it for a reason, like I do, to control my chronic pain because of the whole "opioid epidemic" NO DOCTOR wants to write what is needed to control an opioid dependent person the dose of drugs needed to control the pain like they did back in the day.
People do drugs ANYWAY and they do stupid shit too, and a lot comes from lack of information or bad information since drugs are taboo. At least with legalization people would have the opportunity to know right from wrong. If then they still do dumb shit, well... Fuck themn theyd have done dumb shit with them being illegal.
Portugal decriminalized drugs and they had the highest rates of hep c and HIV. Now they are the lowest. Drug use did not go up either.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!