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2019-05-06 at 4:56 AM UTC in Raffi
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2019-05-06 at 4:48 AM UTC in Do your friends have a nickname for you?I'm 35 and I don't think I've ever had a (consistent) nickname.
I've had all kinds of consistent characteristics for which friends have either made jovial jabs in my direction, or at times even outright ridiculed me (like being the group "push-over", "pussy"; likening me to TV show and movie characters that exhibit such traits; etc)... But no consistent nicknames.
I legitimately can't tell how I should feel about it. -
2019-05-05 at 10:31 PM UTC in Faggots still falling for that jenkem trollAlso, whatever happened to pickwick?
He ever amount to anything (besides being the progenitor behind Jenkem culture)? -
2019-05-05 at 10:30 PM UTC in Faggots still falling for that jenkem troll
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2019-05-05 at 10:24 PM UTC in Gadzooks vs RCMP... FALSIFIED POLICE REPORT just came in the mail (from request under Access of Information act)... GTFIH!
Originally posted by Octavian Was worried, you been quiet faggit'. Hope you're well.
Yeah I'm also taking kind of a pseudo-hiatus from NiS.
It's definitely not permanent.
I'm just experimenting with different things to try and achieve the levels of ambition and self-confidence I had shortly before I discovered NiS (and re-discovered any kind of online community I was active in).
So part of that experimentation involves limiting my NiS activity (as well as limiting all social activity altogether, etc) while I find the perfect level of moderation for everything and ultimately get back on track. -
2019-05-05 at 10:21 PM UTC in Hospital puts me back on MAOIs and BOOM
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2019-05-05 at 10:19 PM UTC in Hospital puts me back on MAOIs and BOOM
Originally posted by DietYellow They are far superior though, and ssnris are worthless. Maois have a very neat moa that sounds very promising
I dunno... To each their own, I guess, as long as they know what they're doing.
But MAOI's also carry tremendous risk.
Risk has to be weighed against reward.
Are the particular mechanism achieved by MAOI's worth the huge potential for, say, serotonin syndrome, for one thing, and even dependency development to the MAOI's themselves?
Also, SSNRI's/SNRI's are not entirely worthless.
Wellbutrin has shown a pretty good track record for specific cases of depression, as well as smoking cessation apparently.
EDIT: Hold up, wellbutrin might not be an SNRI... I dunno. I quit all serotonin based prescriptions altogether. -
2019-05-05 at 10:12 PM UTC in Hospital puts me back on MAOIs and BOOM
Originally posted by blaster master He's forgetting to mention he was addicted to MAIOS for a while already
I honestly don't even get it... like, at all...
MAOI's, from what I understand, exclusively impact serotonin.
They also, however, interact negatively with like every fucking psychoactive compound in existence.
It's a recipe for serotonin syndrome (extremely serious and potentially fatal).
They are primitive as fuck and totally replaceable with, like, SSRI's, for one thing... and even other 5HT-active drugs like SSNRI's (which also impact norepinephrine), etc. -
2019-05-05 at 10:07 PM UTC in Gadzooks vs RCMP... FALSIFIED POLICE REPORT just came in the mail (from request under Access of Information act)... GTFIH!
Originally posted by mashlehash Update
The case is still open and ongoing.
I've also been collecting as much information as I can to build up a substantial directory of potential evidence in case this shit reaches the courts.
I'm also seeing a neurologist in two days, which may or may not reveal lasting neurological damage. I have my doubts, but it's worth checking out just in case if the opportunity presents itself, and it has (it's usually not that quick and easy to get a referral to any kind of medical specialist). -
2019-05-05 at 10:04 PM UTC in Hospital puts me back on MAOIs and BOOMI thought MAOIs were like... medically extinct.
Interesting, though, that they would have this memory restorative effect.
I'm pretty sure they exclusively target serotonin receptors (I could be wrong... they're outdated as a prescription so I don't know much about them).
If that's the case, then the mechanism by which it recovers memories once thought to be lost would be a pretty damn fascinating discovery.
It's also possible that simply reducing your GABA-active drug intake has just resulted in you coming out of a bit of a hazy fog you might have been in, ultimately leading to you spending more time actively reminiscing.
So-called "lost memories" (mainly from GABAergic drugs, but also from physical or even psychological trauma) can occasionally be recovered, but it takes very deliberate efforts, and very specific and unlikely scenarios (like walking into a room you blacked out in, but had never been there either before or after said black out event; or having memories triggered by lower-level neurological mechanisms like limbic/emotional, or smell). -
2019-05-05 at 9:57 PM UTC in if u do coke u r a crackhaedIf you like getting head, you're a headhead.
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2019-04-29 at 10:53 PM UTC in Stopping my.put of control drinking (day -2)This thread gives everyone a chance to get their affairs in order before the real deal starts.
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2019-04-29 at 10:37 PM UTC in Stopping my.put of control drinking (day -2)
Originally posted by Bill Krozby lol.. i quit drinking thursday and yesterday I went ham because I felt like ass and was sweating like a pig and having nightmares. ever tried those claw seltzers, I know it sounds gay as shit but their pretty good and still get you on it.
I had to google claw seltzers. I'd probably drink em if I saw em.
I need to steer clear entirely of any alcohol vending shop.
I have like zero will power apparantly.
I might need to chain myself to a radiator for the first week or so. -
2019-04-29 at 10:31 PM UTC in Stopping my.put of control drinking (day -2)But I'm not kidding.about getting sober.
I am gonna do it, and I'll provide moral support for anyone else looking to do the same. -
2019-04-29 at 10:30 PM UTC in Stopping my.put of control drinking (day -2)Fucking autocorrect.
Makes me want to drink. -
2019-04-29 at 10:30 PM UTC in Stopping my.put of control drinking (day -2)On may 1st Imma get on that shit.
Fona, how you doing on your sobriety?
Anyone who wants/needs an accountabilabuddy, join this thread.
I start in two days tho.
Just a heads up. -
2019-04-29 at 10:09 PM UTC in Literally Nothing Matters
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2019-04-29 at 9:59 PM UTC in Literally Nothing MattersI can even look at my Google Maps history and it's just mind blowingly surreal.
It looks like I sat outside the grocery store for like an hour, then took a cab (or hitchhiked... It was vehicular speeds) to a bar. I was at that bar for half an hour. I then walked to the nearby gas station and bought an egg salad sandwich (I found it on my floor the next morning next to the receipt).
I also texted some people.
I remember none of it.
Its so fucking creepy and weird. -
2019-04-29 at 9:53 PM UTC in Literally Nothing MattersI actually do have some things that I enjoy intrinsically without being drunk.
I think right now I'm just trying to deal with the whole blacking out thing.
I don't know how common it is for others, but for me, and I drink every single night, blacking out is rare as fuck.
But I worry about what I do when I'm in that state.
What if I'm a villain? Maybe I have a Dr Jekyll / Mr Hyde thing going on... Maybe I committed some unspeakable act.
I have absolutely no way of knowing for sure.
Its a downright horrible feeling is what it is.
Like, I recently posted that police report from when the cops beat my ass into a concussion. I was not blacked out when that happened (at least, not until the concussion induced a black out).
I know I was in the right.
In fact, logic is entirely on my side anyway. Were I up to no good, I'd have been dragged down to the station.
For all I know, once I blacked out (from the concussion, not alcohol), I might have pulled some Jason Bourne shit and just took down five cops before regaining consciousness.
But that's pretty ridiculous obviously.
They were in the wrong, and I know that for a fact.
But I don't know if on Friday I didn't do something genuinely wrong and/or illegal.
I just want confirmation that I didn't do anything wrong.
I'll never have that.
It sucks. It blows. It simultaneously sucks and blows. -
2019-04-29 at 9:46 PM UTC in THIS is the reason white people are losing and the non whites are taking over
Originally posted by Admin Do any of you consider that maybe white people deserve to be a shrinking race?
I mean if we're a bunch of shitbags, should we really be reproducing?
Maybe it's natures natural way of psychologically weeding us out.
Are we really such horrible shitbags?
I thought being a shitbag was race-independant.
