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2017-06-16 at 4:15 AM UTC in I need to talk to a Psychonaut that isn't a complete assholeYou should be more interested than that. Nearly everyone should try psychedelics at least a few times.
You're really missing out, a proper trip could be one of the most incredible and meaningful experiences of your life. It's so far from anything you could experience in ordinary reality. Even without deep insights, there's still incredible variety and profound beauty, things that can be impossible to convey to others because language fails to describe them.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-17 at 12:24 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSNardil is a very impressive antidepressant. Barely a month since I started at 15mg, increasing by 15 every week and having just started 60mg this week (dose most need before it really kicks in, usually happens within a month of reaching the optimal dosage), and I already notice a large difference. Nardil and Parnate are the highest rated medications by patients, after all.
There's a clear consistent difference in my mood compared to before I started this, which culminated in me checking myself into the ER. I still get down at times, and thoughts of suicide cross my mind, but they're far rarer. My mood is much more stable and usually I don't feel depressed during most of the day at this point. Before I would think about suicide multiple times an hour around the clock, now they're rare and fleeting, although I'll always prefer that I had never been born. I'm probably not even that unhappy compared to most people. Anxiety is also better, feel considerably calmer. Likely potentiates phenibut as well, due to the GABA-T (breaks down GABA) inhibition.
I haven't had any side effects at all, except anxiety may have increased until recently due to it taking time to reduce norepinephrine levels, with GABA levels being increased as the dose increases, up to a point. No food interactions either, they're completely overblown, so bacon has been fine. It feels far more natural than other antidepressants, like you aren't even on anything, and it's pretty much the most powerful antidepressant and anxiolytic you can get. With SSRIs they would just blunt my emotions. The lows may have been a bit lower, but positive emotions, along with every other emotion, eventually became restricted as well. I already had pretty severe blunted affect, a reduced range and intensity of emotion, along with anhedonia, so this was a terrible effect. They also caused a very unnerving shift in how the world felt, and increasing the dosage, being at higher doses, and the medication reaching peak plasma levels after taking it, worsened this feeling. Hard to explain how it feels, but it definitely isn't a positive change.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-16 at 4:11 AM UTC in Old ass monitors at goodwillThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-16 at 7:38 AM UTC in In all seriousness though...
(as evidenced by your world class honey ass)
I just had the idea to post those pics on the M4M SF bay craigslist. Title: Best ass in three states seeks best top in the bay
The attention and compliments received could do wonders for my self esteem. At the very least I could always keep in mind that a large number of gay men would want to fuck me. Of course I'd use a throwaway email and wouldn't give them my cell phone number.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-16 at 4:49 AM UTC in In all seriousness though...HTS, dye your hair, maybe get some piercings and glasses, and Lanny will probably be willing to pay you to be his live-in exclusive bottom.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-16 at 3:14 AM UTC in I need to talk to a Psychonaut that isn't a complete assholeThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-14 at 1:47 PM UTC in Ayy lmao. I just noticed something in the "About" section.And, as I documented on Zoklet, the reason I received SSI is because I lied like the devil and manipulated everyone into believing I was far more severe than I actually was, receiving a long list of diagnoses. I did it because I hated working and I am an evil shameless person, it was far better than a low wage job.
Although, to be fair, I did eventually have a mental breakdown and was suicidally depressed for about 3 years, which really fucked me up. I completely lost interest in life and stopped caring.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-14 at 1:45 PM UTC in Ayy lmao. I just noticed something in the "About" section.What the hell Lanny? You mock and immortalize my meager existence? What a cruel admin you are.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-15 at 9:33 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSWell, being banned for a day was surprisingly easy. May even have been good for my mental health.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-14 at 8:58 PM UTC in I kinda think adults dieing is sadder than young children dieing.
Originally posted by Zanick Malice, I have an honest question. How can you be such a monster?
I believe I may have had a natural predisposition that naturally arose around my teenage years, a time of profound neurological development and changes.
I could be wrong, and it could be the product of an extreme lifestyle, worldview and beliefs, along with the neurological abnormalities of being @atistic. By age 13 I purposefully went into a state of self-imposed isolation and was constantly in a state of reflection on mankind, human behavior and psychology, society, the state of the world, the problems inherent to interpersonal relationships. It turned me into an unbelievably extreme misanthrope and pessimist. I also purposefully honed my mind, learned to detach myself and subdue my emotions to an extreme extent, to the point where I genuinely did not even emotionally bond with my own family and could leave them without a word, without even thinking of them for about 5 years or so before eventually succumbing to a mental breakdown, severe suicidal depression, and a host of other issues.
I created myself, I purposefully made the choice to become evil, a monster, because that was my ideal, who I wanted to become. Can't say it worked out well, I didn't have the strength, the traits needed, the past. One day I might recover enough that things will be different, or I'll learn to accept other people in my life and change.
User was banned for saying the taboo phrase "monster"!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-14 at 8:05 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by 1337 This is pure condensed grade A autism. If this was anyone else posting, I would assume they were just fucking with me. Jesus H. Christ, every day we travel farther from God's image.
I'm honestly surprised you niggers are so uptight. Damn near everyone here has done abhorrent and shameful things, many still regularly engaging in them, yet dancing to anime openings receives this reaction?
How is it any different than dancing to other music you like? Or do you only do so at parties or venues? Fucking ridiculous, as if part of being an adult is only dancing at "appropriate" designated locations. I'll never become one of you goddamn pseduo and standard normies.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-14 at 8:47 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by mmQ All autism jokes aside, dancing to something you like really isn't weird at all. I can go to YouTube and find about ten million videos of people just being goofy and happy and dancing for fun, from kids to seniors.
It amuses me that others get uncomfortable when they see someone doing something that that they would be uncomfortable doing, but that very person doing it is not uncomfortable whatsoever.
That's actually some interesting psychology I'd like to know more about.
It's an empathetic response. Empathy is often defined and misinterpreted as care for others, but a more accurate definition many miss is that it's the vicarious experience of emotion. In part this is a natural neurologically mediated human response. Of course it makes perfect sense that we possess this trait, from an evolutionary perspective. So you witness someone displaying an emotion and it rouses the same emotion, albeit to a weaker extent, in you.
Another factor is metacognition. You have an awareness of how you would feel if you yourself were in that situation and how others would perceive it. Your own perception can be wildly off, though, and the vast majority of people have terrible theory of mind, an understanding of how others vary and what occurs mentally within them. So with regard to this: "It amuses me that others get uncomfortable when they see someone doing something that that they would be uncomfortable doing, but that very person doing it is not uncomfortable whatsoever. "
They miss the fact that the person doing this may genuinely not care about the perceptions of others at all. Their own perception of how others are generally perceiving the event could be radically inaccurate, warped due to various factors such as anxiety, insecurity, or how they were raised or turned out for whatever reason, their currently repressed and behaviorally conservative predisposition. People naturally relate things first to themselves and their worldview, how it affects them, as opposed to taking a detached and abstract stance based on the recognition of their own insignificance and irrelevance to greater issues and concepts that have nothing to do with them as individuals and their own life.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-14 at 8:37 PM UTC in I kinda think adults dieing is sadder than young children dieing.My eyes genuinely lit up when I saw that and thought about how much it would have been worth today.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-14 at 4:45 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSIT is the work of the devil.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-14 at 8:09 AM UTC in Important! Lanny was banned by a glitch in taboo, that means we can do whatever we want for a day!https://niggasin.space/post/189529
It slipped his mind that he would lose his admin powers if he ever lost and was banned. His fantasies of infallibility and unrivaled intellectual prowess were his undoing!
We're free from his tyranny, the tyranny of centralized power! The rules no longer apply, even illegal content can be posted.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-14 at 2:11 AM UTC in Me and sploo are romulus and remusThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-12 at 4:23 AM UTC in I got my mail-order kid todayThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-12 at 4:22 AM UTC in I got my mail-order kid todayFuck going outside. What if he's the kind that wants to go into STEM/the hard sciences? You'd literally be crippling him. He could find a passion for computers, or at the very least they could help him attain knowledge by having access to all of mankind's information. Lanny grew up spending most of his time indoors despite the beautiful environment he had available, spending most of his time in front of a computer or playing video games, and he's probably the most well adjusted and successful member here; which is pretty sad and not much of a competition to be fair. He's only 23 and making 100K+ in the financial sector of SF, working in the compsci field, which he majored in. The state also payed for most of his schooling, so he doesn't have debt. He also has about 300K in a low fee S&P index fund. Not only that, but when he was in middle school they gave him an assignment where they had to write about what they wanted to do after school and he wrote about wanting to travel, but they interpreted it as him wanting to be a bum/vagrant, so they put him in a school in southern california for troubled children, heavily minority and filled with gang members and other fuckups. The curriculum technically didn't even qualify for a 4 year university, but despite his disadvantages he scored high enough on the SAT to get into SFSU and have a state grant pay for it.
And now that gay marriage is legal in all parts of the United States, this lucky bachelor could be your's, and Tommy's new (2nd) dad!
Abandoning the negative aspects of Russian culture and becoming a libertarian (best people) is great, but as a libertarian you should understand the desire for freedom. I could not stand having my freedom restricted when I was with my parents. Let him do what he wants, within reason.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-12 at 3:51 AM UTC in I got my mail-order kid todayLet him watch a bit of TV as long as it's good. IIRC there's actually no correlation between hours watched and school performance, it's largely driven by IQ and personality traits.
Every child should have access to good anime. I would have been extremely resentful toward my parents if they hadn't let me watch TV or use computers (IIRC most of the time I used them for educational games anyway, and they were great at that, they made learning fun).
Don't raise him the Russian way. Based on outcomes of your country, how it turned out, it clearly doesn't work. Your culture is trash, you're in America now and Tommy is a fucking American.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-13 at 5:33 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSTo be perfectly honest, this community practically is a psychological addiction to most of the people that remain and post regularly, and it's bound to have had a considerable detrimental impact on our mental health.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!