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2016-10-03 at 12:36 AM UTC in -SpectraL appreciation thread.The story of how Spectral began as an elite career criminal:
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2016-10-03 at 12:07 AM UTC in What is love?I know what it is.
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2016-10-02 at 10:39 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMake meth in your stomach or child-proof your home.
Never read about John McAfee before, but he seemed to be popular in a r/Anarcho_Capitalism thread about who the best Libertarian Party candidate would have been. Doing it now and I like his kind of crazy. He actually wrote about his drug experiences on Bluelight! Oh, it seems it was an elaborate hoax for his own amusement that reached record length; don't know if he made other posts after that (Will check): http://www.whoismcafee.com/stuffmonger-and-bluelight/ -
2016-10-02 at 10:33 PM UTC in What is love?A sin, a tether; at least in the monogamous sense. To love one means to exclude billions, to be fixated on a single person as opposed to the world. There are countless problems with love. In marriage they speak of compromise, of ceasing to think of yourselves as individuals and instead a whole. Being robbed of personal autonomy, having your identity corrupted and subdued. This is a poison of the mind.
Love is a temporary lapse of reason, like a mental illness. -
2016-10-02 at 2:07 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionNo, I was actually feeling somewhat melancholy.
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2016-10-02 at 9:59 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition"...it makes me want to punch myself in the dick!" should be popularized as a positive exclamation.
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2016-10-02 at 9:37 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI just thought of another term for women: samsara quicksand.
Your brilliance astounds me yet again, master, you have the soul of a poet! Another masterpiece!
I know, I know. I like this better than "demonic vessels of sin". I mean, I do savor the vitriol of it, but understand that most people will be readily put off, and the word sin has a strong association with abrahamic religions. This may give people pause to think, maybe a chuckle from those who understand it. -
2016-10-02 at 9:14 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI also recall one time within the last few months when I was sleep deprived and attempting to remain awake for some reason, possibly to reset my sleep schedule, when I made a "pain/discomfort suit" to assist me. IIRC I had bags of ice down my back with belts use to keep them in place, put copper scouring pads in my socks, had some wire brushes in my armpits, possibly other things.
I think I felt somewhat disturbed/unnerved afterward. I've mentioned before that I succumb to the effects of sleep deprivation much faster than usual, likely due to being on the autism spectrum/neuro-atypical, and I have a good theory for why this occurs, if a researcher hasn't already tied it together. Practically significant reduced synaptic pruning in those with ASD (Around 40% extra synapses, IIRC), a paper theorizing that the amount of synapses we evolved may have played one of the most significant parts in the evolution of our sleep, the finding on how byproducts are cleansed by the brain during sleep. Anyway, it's very unhealthy, likely contributes to an unhealthy state of mind, and I hate it.
And I also recalled the time as a child when I thought someone was handing a plate to me, but it was for the person next to me. May have been the only time in my life that has occurred. -
2016-10-02 at 9:05 AM UTC in Insulin exitWhy not just use a heavy dose of benzos, which will also deal with some of the fear/inhibition toward death, and an opioid? That seems to be the way to go, and with RC drugs it doesn't necessarily need to be expensive.
Have you ever tried ketamine for depression? It seems to have a good record of attenuating suicidality, remission in the severely depressed. It could at least put your head in a clearer place, where you can see things from different viewpoint and be certain about whether you really want to do this. Of course, I'm not the kind to believe that decisions made while in a state of severe depression are invalid, a "healthier" state may simply mire you in samsara, keep you trapped in illusions and biological drives; depressive realism is an interesting subject to research and ponder. Still, with the finality of death, it's best to be certain.
Also, if you're planning to die, why not take out a life insurance policy and have your will set up so that the money goes toward your son? It isn't difficult to create a fairly fool proof plan to make your death seem like an accident if you try hard enough. -
2016-10-02 at 2:56 AM UTC in Things that you absolutely can't stand.I remember someone mentioning that people in the Netherlands sound like our news reporters, possibly in part because they're influenced by American TV or due to their natural accent.
This has very little value, but I wonder if it's true. It would be kind of amusing to hear a group of people speaking like that. -
2016-10-02 at 1:53 AM UTC in Perhaps you can answer the 1 question that has plagued thinkers for all time.Rrrrrrgh, AUUUUUTIIIIISM!!!
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2016-10-02 at 1:52 AM UTC in Things that you absolutely can't stand.Are you sure it isn't the lack of a British accent? I've heard it makes you seem 15+ IQ points smarter and causes everyone to believe nearly anything you say.
No, really, even if you have what's considered a lower class accent in the states, go to the US or any non-European country and you'd see the difference. -
2016-10-02 at 12:35 AM UTC in Perhaps you can answer the 1 question that has plagued thinkers for all time.
Happiness exists in forms beyond satiation of needs, not all worthwhile acts are performed out of necessity.
Existence is not a claim about experiential access. Cessation of subjective consciousness doesn't change anything about the external world.
This doesn't seem like a real objection. I breathe the same air as people I find reprehensible, it doesn't bother me, sharing some state is not intrinsically a problem.
Human motives are not exhausted by "crude hedonism", whatever you think that is.
Really malice, this anti-natalist phase is getting kind of emo. It's not an intellectual exercise anymore, it's you dragging a handful of stock lines and non sequiturs into a bunch of threads.
1.) I do not dispute this, the commas denote separate items. Honestly, this is so self-apparent, as if I would commit that manner of error.
2.) Duh. I'm not a solipsist. What I was stating is that for you, which no longer exists, it does not and is incapable of making any difference. That is, at that point there is no reward, death erases all, from the abstract vantage point of your identity.
3.) This is simply tied to the previous point. You do not deny that many people seem to believe in some independent system (The moronic misinterpretation of karma seems to be popular among leftists. IIRC ArmsMerchant once described it's common use/interpretation as being a form of "God's going to get you for that.") that will reward them after death. I am attempting to illustrate the vanity of life in a manner that is readily relatable to the masses.
My philosophy is 10ccs of naloxone straight to the dome. (Get the reference? You seem to have a difficult time grasping humor.) (I'm going to remember that line (The first sentence in this line, you autist. I am marvelling at and basking in my own artistic brilliance.))
4.) Once again, duh. And by crude hedonism I mean a poorly developed (subjective) philosophy on which one manners their lifestyle after.
God I hate arguing with autists. -
2016-10-02 at 12:17 AM UTC in Perhaps you can answer the 1 question that has plagued thinkers for all time.I am a tortured artist, something posted without any real effort on a message board is not meant to be taken as a serious philosophical treatise. And you're still repeatedly misinterpreting what I'm saying, you perverted autist.
It wouldn't surprise me if you were just jealous since your posts tend to be so boring and lifeless. I recall you once saying that speaking to me was like speaking to a robot and that you found it refreshing, but your writing/discourse style is far more robotic! -
2016-10-02 at 12:12 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI tried to remember to look this up right before going to sleep and when I woke up I did right away. I think I might refer to this technique as "setting a tag" or something, associating it with some reference point.
http://www.techtimes.com/articles/64...ve-a-child.htm
It's interesting that their chat bot espoused anti-natalist sentiment. I wonder if they know what caused it or at least researched it. It reminds me of my idea of the possibility of an AGI being an anti-natalist and exterminating all life on Earth, particularly focused on us, and then itself.
Well, the above dialogue probably doesn't mean much, but it would be amusing if it foretold the end of humanity.alcohol withdrawal, woo!
Before waking I had a dream about fighting Satan in large shower room with one or two other guys. It was completely non-sexual. Satan was really tall and powerfully built, although not pro-bodybuilder level. Beforehand hand I think we were all oddly friendly and just soaping up. At the end the water suddenly changed, becoming more forceful and torrent like, coming out of the ceiling, and the lighting changed like a hellish/demonic thunderstorm was about to begin.
When I woke up I needed a drink and considered that I may have been experiencing mild withdrawal since I hadn't had one in longer than usual, although it did seem to subside after X minutes awake, so it may have just been residual anxiety from dreaming (I hate dreaming, and I particularly hate dreams that contain other people, despite them never being nightmares.) -
2016-10-01 at 11:43 PM UTC in Perhaps you can answer the 1 question that has plagued thinkers for all time.
Malice once responded to this question by dropping his plate of food on the floor and asking what the meaning of it is.
Close, I wouldn't waste food and make a mess like that, although it could have more of an impact. Then again, the simplicity of my original version may create a better association between a lack of any inherent meaning.Something I've thought of is dropping something to the ground and asking "What meaning does this have?" in response to what may be my most hated question, "What is the meaning of life?"
To answer the question: Life is something that should never have arisen. Any happiness you achieve, anything you discover or create, the striving to maintain and better life, only fulfills a need that had no need to exist. And at the end, every cradle is shown to be a grave, death erases all, and no matter what purpose in life you may have decided, if you strived to better the world or help others, for you, which has ceased to exist, it will mean nothing, you will be in no better place than the beings you considered the most reprehensible, for in a state of non-existence there is nothing to experience existence.
No suffering, no striving, death, the cycle of samsara enmiring you in a constant cycle of unease always attempting to move forward on a hedonic treadmill, a cycle that's readily forgotten along with the countless minutes of every day you never think about again for the present demands your attention, chasing fleeting moments without questioning what it amounts to and the philosophical implications of crude hedonism, the concern of what lies at the end, even immortals having to heed the concern of destruction and what lies at the universe's end. At the end there is only a return to what you were before you were born: The truest form of eternal peace and immutability; the perfection of non-existence.
To be human is a very sad thing. -
2016-10-01 at 11:23 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionBut I purposefully chose it, why would I be sad?
Anyone could get laid if they really wanted to and were willing to accept nearly anyone, it isn't difficult and shouldn't take long. We have alcohol and good anxiolytics (benzos) for anxiety, cocaine for a confidence and energy boost, PDE-5 inhibitors to ensure performance, you could apply testosterone (no ester) rectally to give you a short term massive boost. -
2016-10-01 at 8:23 AM UTC in Wanting to scream for help that nobody can give me
.Yep. Bang on. If you did an amount of pure heroin equal to that of the amount of sulfur on the head of a single paper match, you'd be dead as a doornail, and nobody would be able to resuscitate you either. It would hit you just like a ton of bricks from 100 stories up. BANG… GONE.
It's no joke, you fiddler. Lots of retards like you thought it would be neat to try it, thinking they're too tough for anything to happen to them, and they're all pushing daises six feet under right now.
Not so fast, old man:
Litefire mentioned this to his roommate, who may have been in engineering, and then relayed that a blood oxygenation monitor, which, surprisingly, I learned was non-intrusive, would be superior.
Send me pure heroin. I'm so methodical and meticulous with my dosage, never having accidentally overdosed anything, this also having been remarked upon by others, that there's no chance I would die.
Naloxone is also available over the counter in our most popular/common pharmacies:
http://www.medicaldaily.com/walgreen...counter-372980
http://www.drugfree.org/news-service...ion-14-states/
I was planning on trying it anyway, along with cocaine and d-meth, in order to finally cross them off my drug to-do checklist, since I'm not taking an MAOI now. This would make a wonderful Christmas present, considering I'm a hikkomori/shit-in NEET and literally have no one in my life and haven't for years, never even celebrating Christmas or buying anything for myself, doing anything at all. -
2016-10-01 at 8:15 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMired in samsara.
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2016-10-01 at 2:03 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionWhenever I’m waiting for something to load/download I often think “Come on baby, give me that heroin.â€