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2017-02-08 at 10:24 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinMother of god, I genuinely had to pause a video because my waifu Shinobu (Oshino) was too kawaii and elicited a feeling of moe that was too strong for me to contain!
*HEavy breathing*
I AM NOT AN ANIMAL, I AM NOT AN ANIMAL!
I'M A HUMAN BEING!!!
[size=42]I…AM…A…MAN!!![/size=42]
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2017-02-08 at 9:50 AM UTC in Alex Jones!Ahahaha, may just be the drugs, but that cracked me up.
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2017-02-08 at 9:47 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin"How the fuck did I get this drunk for this long?"
I've honestly got to read more into the concentration dynamics of alcohol. I swear there's a point where you simply inundate your liver and it goes "aww, fuck it@". -
2017-02-08 at 9:45 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinIt's kind of interesting how I've managed to create an indefinitely sustainale (in terms of a standard human lifespan) means of existence in completely physical isolation. I assure you that screens on a word (just kept it because of the initial typo) don't even come close to an equivalent substitute. This is indeed through means of pharmacological augmentation, but going from genuinely suicidal due to unbearable psychich pain to sustainble is somewhat impressive, right?
Ah, something I've thought before countless times but likely have not posted: I want to remove every unnecessary/unwanted aspect of humanity within me. -
2017-02-08 at 9:24 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Discount Whore Malice would you be willing to do an interview for a project of mine?
Warning: Nearing one eye closed tipsy/cross faded for now. Not sure if I'll be able to maintain it. Edit: Oh, and what's the project?
Agh, makes it kind of a pain to respond. I've genuinely seriously considered it for myself. I really shouldn't drink to this level and I damn well know it, I keep having to go back and correct misstrokes. At least the pleasant sound of rain evens our rgw oddness of life.
Genuinely (I'm aware of my habit) I've considered it and would be willing to. But what you have to understand is that I genuinely have (hesitate to fully state somewhat out of a sense of dishonesty) a speech impediment to to literally having have averaged less than 10 words spoken a day throughout my life and have gone 2 years without a real conversation recently. You don't go through such an inhuman (out of alignment) experience without having it partially be responsible for how fucked up you are. Aww fuck, the point where you wonder, how did I get drunk enough to make typing without typos this much of a pain. At the very least, I need quite a hefty dose of drugs, primarily benzos, to even consider it. Maybe with a pre-approval of questions so I won't panic on the spot, possibly with one mystery/no-holds-barred question for fanservice. Generally I am in a completely non-communicative state where I have no desire to share the overwhelming majority of my thoughts with other human beings. When you've had literally almost 0 social interaction for almost a decade you really don't have much more to do but ruminate.
Lanny, what does it say about the nature of existence that the most enjoyable point is when you forget who you ate, the burden of i.d.entity, of limitations, and are truly divorced from ordinary reality? What monstrosity would want to cast life into this? Mediate on ati-natalism while you're unable to sleep and ask yourself why you're unable to commit to a vasectomy, you unrighteous monstrosity. Compared to you I am a vision of divine purity. -
2017-02-08 at 9:23 AM UTC in Dirtiest thing your dick has ever been in?*sigh* The tyranny of biological desires is absolutely revolting and something that must be surpassed as soon as possible. I'm in my mid 20s and have genuinely never so much as held hands. nor have I wanted to. I see no end in sight to this and have no plans to deviate from my path.
You have to admit, it's somewhat remarkable, or grotesque (both are equally valid interpretations of reality) to make it this far without deviation, existing in near total physical isolation (There's no real intimacy on this site. It doesn't even come close and you know it. Grok what it means to have this be the limit, as close as others get.). It genuinely does seem absolutely distasteful, the only possibly exception being when it's the one you truly love. I'm certain casual sex would be an enormous mistake for me that would do far more harm than good (Dependant on an understanding of myself that is far more in depth than I wish to share and anyone could hope to attain.). -
2017-02-08 at 6:53 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinYou can't run away from who you truly are forever (concern trolling).
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2017-02-08 at 6:10 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-02-08 at 5:37 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Lanny I set the goal of not drinking during the week and cutting down on some of my other time sinks to get more done. I can't sleep for shit now though, bleh. It's like the magical season of insomnia or something.
Random note, you should record when the insomnia began and when it abates, if it ever does. The reason I suggest this is because if it doesn't you may have a genuine neurological sub-optimality, which shouldn't be hard to believe. -
2017-02-08 at 5:35 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinWhat does getting more done accomplish? Ultimately, with regard to this and various other factors, we're all just passing the time. There's really surprisingly little to occupy yourself with beyond the optimization of the self. Altruism holds no appeal to me, unsurprisingly. I could have been you, but the cold reality is that I am not and as far as I am aware everything relevant I have encountered suggests to me that there is nothing beyond death, no satisfactory reason to devote yourself to what occurs to others beyond it, unless involves the attempt to ensure than no life arises beyond it (AGI could feasibly,in actuality, practically guaranteed, to be a "being" beyond suffering (aspects that are unwanted can be removed, of course) or to even evolve beyond the need for consciousness).
The more you ascertain about the nature of reality, the more knowledge you attain, the worse it will likely become. The answers you find may not be the ones you would have hoped for, and in your case I very much doubt you will be able to, able to rationalize or delude, distract yourself (with isn't something I'm necessarily against, I simply refuse to look away or give in to illusion).
Every man of character should have at least one proper severe mental breakdown in your life. When do you estimate yours will be, Lan-lan? Every year novelty drips down (reminds of your drug stack for preserving this effect with regard to anime), you already understand the implications of this, don't you? At your core you're already filled with self hatred and resentment, how long is it sustainable. Of course I don't commit the foolish assumption that you will always be at the same company/position or subjugating your labor, but ultimately what I want to state is that you may find that the horrors of reality contain no real exit if you are unwilling to compromise on and abandon the aspects that you consider to most closely comprise the "core" of yourself, the fundamental attributes you desire to comprise the ideological foundation of you consider yourself to be, something ideally immutable, free from the continuous cycle of death and rebirth.
One day you may just find out what it's like to have a nuclear bomb go off in your psyche. -
2017-02-08 at 4:53 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Malice >wake up in a panic completely soaked in a cold sweat after bout of extensive insomnia
>reach over to grab bucket and dry heave
>do some some dabs for the antiemetic effect and other benefits in order to keep anything down, dry heave from the smoke/vapor
>scramble for a drink and anti-depressants
Man, the sad thing is that is 100% accurate. It shouldn't even be hard to believe. Well, at least I'm not The Duke, if he's still alive. Never drank iso/went blind from it for multiple days is a pretty good standard for rock bottom. I'm drunk right now. -
2017-02-08 at 4:32 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinOh, and once r/ancap hits 30K subscribers I want to use the Milo-UCBerkeley incident to propose a strategy for greatly increasing the support/awareness of ancapism. Make them aware that the two prominent (in terms of victims of the incident) were ancaps/voluntaryists, then suggest that we organize to defend businesses and fight back against antifa at future events.
God, I think I my hands, or at least knuckles, may genuinely still be growing. Had the idea that as an alternative to SAP gloves (lead shot in knuckles) I could just wrap them around the knuckles and wear my wool fingerless gloves/hand socks/hobo gloves (love them) and probably KO nearly every one of them in a single punch. The overwhelming majority of them are literally skinny white kids from fairly well off families who are in their teens or early twenties at most. Oh, SAP gloves are actually banned in CA and may be a felony thanks to that fucking fraud Reagan (He signed the law when he was governor), along with it being unnervingly/unacceptably easy to kill someone, so this is a far superior alternative.
Not entirely serious about this, and I'm referring specifically to my intentions, I just want to start a lulz/shitstorm.
The aforementioned event did generate massive backlash against antifa, related far-left groups, a general negative perception of leftist kulture, along with a massive raise in awareness and support for Milo (Can't really argue against literally rocketing up to #1 in book sales on Amazon and having extensive interviews on major television shows) so it actually isn't unreasonable that if this actually occurred we would get considerable support. Even if we got our asses beat due to sheer numbers.
Come to think of it, I actually stood in front of a McDonald's, the only person to do so, while a black bloc was moving past, and they knew damn well what I was doing. I recall doing a silly thing where I blew kisses at McDonald's and said it was my life, but this time, and I had this thought some time after that event, I would prefer a sign that said "Show some respect! McDonald's is the largest employer of anarchists!" just to ruffle them. Probably prevented them from fucking it up worse than they did, although one guy did throw something to shatter a window, which could have seriously injured someone, causing everyone inside the restaurant to duck under the tables. I should have dive tackled that motherfucker, I remember him coming up to me beforehand and telling me, "You may not look like a cop, but you sure act like one." ("Oh, thank you. I take that as a compliment, police officers are American heroes.")
I'm getting platinum mad just thinking about this again. God I wanted to destroy them at the time, but then it completely died out. Grrr! May be tipsy, but I'm yearning for anarchist watch 2.0. I swear I'm going to get back on steroids this year, a far stronger stack than the basic test I was using for TRT, and begin an accelerated training program. Or at least take SARMs and see what effects they have on my baseline. Planet Fitness tends to be super shitty for serious lifters, but it is fairly close by, cheap, and may be acceptable to get me back to my old strength, which can occur surprisingly quickly (Hard gainer, but seem to be a surprisingly hard loser as well). -
2017-02-08 at 3:56 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinSomewhat tempted to tackle some idiotic market like penis enlargement or hair loss, plastic surgery, superficial matters of that nature, and take out a patent. Well, not like I really give a shit about saving lives or alleviating suffering, although the enormous capital infusion would undoubtedly make a world of difference if I decided to utilize it to pursue higher goals.
Aww man, I swear I may have discovered a highly plausible MOA/procedure that could effectively treat something in this sector, but forgot about it in a drug induced haze. Oh well. -
2017-02-08 at 3:21 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinAnxiety can just suddenly hit you and may never leave, or at the very least may take years of effort to rescind. Same is true for many mental illnesses, actually. I thought my anxiety had become much better, than in the last 2 years it became worse than ever before in many ways.
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2017-02-08 at 3:18 AM UTC in Do you steal?
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump I steal hearts.
Example: a girl at work is married and she asked to be my girlfriend today.
Post last edited by SCronaldo_J_Trump at 2017-02-08T00:18:49.602440+00:00
Damn that sounds like a dangerous situation. Either way you'll probably end up majorly fucked over.
Always remember: "In love and revenge, woman is more barbaric than man." - Nietzsche (Jaded or not he was damn right) -
2017-02-08 at 2:29 AM UTC in Why are lesbians so hateful?
Originally posted by aldra I'd read in multiple places that gays had extremely high rates of domestic violence… maybe they were conflating them with the lesbians
***which is funny because that means the lesbians were beating on each other enough to bring the gays (who apparently have significantly lower rates) above the national average
This is what happens when you bring two irrational beings together, without a mediating/attenuating masculine force.
Oh, come to think of it, personal anecdote. For a relatively short time (fortunately) the apartment above one I was living in in the past was populated by two large black lesbians. Mother of god those fights were insane, as in you should seriously call the cops level of insanity. Fortunately they were kicked the fuck out. -
2017-02-08 at 1:48 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by bling bling so coowl how malice had slepness same time as me
I had it yesterday too. Same stuff, cold sweating, indeterminate anxiety/fear (I'm sure it's a norepinephrine and gaba dysfunction, possibly being driven largely by alcohol (shit drug)), 8+ in bed without a wink of sleep.
To make it even worse I only had about 4-5 hours of sleep yesterday, then for some reason it kicked into overdrive and not even weed + alcohol + melatonin could fix it. I finally managed to fall asleep around 11AM then for some goddamn reason woke up around 1-2PM.
Oddly, I feel surprisingly refresh and actually better than I did yesterday.
I've been noticing some odd changes in behavior, quirks that very likely have a neurological basis. Hopefully my brain isn't finally self-destructing. -
2017-02-08 at 1:38 AM UTC in Why are lesbians so hateful?Oh, fun fact, I recall coming across some data showing that lesbian couples actually had the highest rates of domestic violence, and gays the lowest.
To be fair, there was only like a 1% difference between the 3 categories and I don't know what the margin of error/p-value was, but still, kind of amusing. -
2017-02-08 at 1:35 AM UTC in I have Tinnitus and it makes me crazy.
Originally posted by Malice Have you read about this technique before? https://np.reddit.com/r/WTF/comments/3l3uri/these_guys_lighting_a_mortar_shell_in_their_garage/cv3474n/?st=iyuksi13&sh=e82bfbde
Try it and tell us if it works, it must be a pretty cool feeling after years without relent.
Hey, did you try this? I want to be praised if it works. -
2017-02-07 at 1:54 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Sophie
If you're gonna' rape a loli, the least you can do is drug her so she is passed out during the ordeal. It's the humane thing to do. Also, you don't even have to actually rape her, penetration wise. She'll just wake up feeling particularly well rested. Wonder how long a 8yo would be knock out from 2mg k-pin.
"Yee babygirl, it's vitamins, good for you. Promise."