Originally posted by Bill Krozby
What were the psychotic symptoms like? Just curious because the only psychotic symptoms I've had were from drugs and I used to work as a nursing assistant at a psychiatric hospital and was always curious what it was like those people went through
Post last edited by Bill Krozby at 2017-02-11T07:16:12.075135+00:00
For me it's more delusional thinking and paranoia than it is hallucinations. I tend to draw connections between thoughts or events that make no sense to anyone else. I almost always assume that everyone has the worst intentions in mind, or that they have ulterior motives and can't possibly be "just trying to help." Interestingly this effect didn't used to apply to women at all until a couple of years ago, now it applies to everyone.
I definitely get hallucinations but can easily tell them from reality unless I'm very sleep deprived.
The most common one for me is seeing a person or animal run in front of my car while I'm driving at night, or seeing people crouched behind trees.
Inside my house I'll see cats that aren't there (apparently that's a pretty common one)
I will constantly see large semi trucks or abnormally large cars parked in odd places in the distance that will slowly disappear the closer I get.
I used to see bugs that weren't there, thankfully I don't really get that anymore.
If I sit in a small room for too long, I will start to see patterns on the walls.
If I'm very sleep deprived it gets worse. I'll see random structures rising in the distance out of nowhere, like radio antennas and water towers. Once I start seeing these I get instantly and incredibly terrified for no reason. I have no idea why. I know it isn't real but it's still terrifying and it generally ends in a full blown panic attack.
I wonder if this is something like temporal lobe epilepsy rather than mental illness though because it fits the symptoms pretty well. There's always a noticeable change in consciousness and a strong feeling of deja vu, like I am reliving something that has happened before.
I also used to hear music playing from a radio, and when I would go to turn it up or down the radio would be off. Sleep deprivation would cause the music to play off-key, which was immensely unnerving.
Smoking any amount of Marijuana will result in me sitting right next to my front door with an AK-47 for like four hours, positive that someone is going to break in any second. Yet amphetamines seem to cause the symptoms to either disappear for a couple of days, or make me look at the situation objectively and realize that there's nothing to be worried about. If I drink too much alcohol one night, the psychotic symptoms will be magnified for most of the next day, but not while I'm actually drunk.
At work I'll see people walk up to me out of the corner of my eye, and when I look toward them they will be gone, apparently another pretty common one.
I constantly hear people call my name but there will be nobody there, or if there is somebody they will say that they never called me.
Post last edited by Hash Slinging Slasher at 2017-02-11T12:31:02.441056+00:00
