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2017-03-11 at 2:48 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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i've never been addicted to opis, but aren't wds manageable with the right mix of non opiods? immodium, some bundy, gabapentin, some vodka, supplements. idk. im sure there's some way to stave off the suffering.

if i forced myself into a state of catatonia for a week or so i bet it wouldnt be that bad

2017-03-11 at 2:42 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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Originally posted by Sophie The dream falls under the parallel Universe of infinite darkness category.

So here is what happened. As the dream starts, i can hear the rumble of thunder in the background, it's not raining, just constant thunder and lightning. This world is devoid of all color, it is entirely gray. I am standing in a great plain of nothingness, but in the distance there is a city. As i walk over there i begin to realize the city is entirely empty, devoid of life and is falling apart, like some post apocalyptic hellscape. As i continue to walk through this strange world i notice that all thoughout the landscape there are these HUGE black obelisks, they are so tall, they reach the clouds. What's more, they are crumbling at the top. As huge pieces of obelisk break off in what looks like slow motion the pieces don't fall. They gently float and ascend into the clouds out of sight.

It was the most bizarre thing, but the thing is, it wasn't scary or anything. In fact, it felt very serene.

this makes fentanyl w/d sound not too bad, good for you. i feel like i mustve gotten attacked by demons in my sleep those times.

2017-03-11 at 2:40 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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Originally posted by puffy butts i've never dreamed of a mirror either. getting high in dreams works about half of the time.

Same, but when it works for me I tend to wake up feeling like I'm in withdrawal

when i lucid dream i tend to do a rape

I hate how often I find myself doing this

I always wake up feeling like shit because I just wasted a lucid dream

2017-03-11 at 2:31 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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no, what happened? i developed post traumatic stress disorder from one of the dreams, intrusive thoughts 24/7, i didn't think it was possible to get ptsd from a dream but it is. i was withdrawing from 2mg xanax, 40mg vyvanse, and 5 grams of k2 a day. i was at the jedi hospital. they tapered me off 2mg in 3 days and treated me like i was lying piece of shit drug seeker every time i asked for medical assistance because i felt like i was about to have seizures. they kept me there as long as they legally could for extra $ and were about to send me out but luckily i was able to outjedi the jedis. that plus the nightmares i had there convinced me they really are an evil as fuck race and would be better off exterminated like rats. no other hospital wouldve treated me anywhere near similarly that wasn't a jedi hospital. i never experienced anything so bad in my life.

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2017-03-11 at 2:12 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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my dreams are nice and generally devoid of any emotional content. i tend to dream in vidya gaems my unconscious mind creates, so the dreams can get very colorful and amusing, other times it's spice addiction simulator v2. sometimes i have dreams about girls i've loved and it makes me want to rekindle things with them or feel the affection again for a few days.

were you trying to slight me with "did you think of that yourself" it made me 0.87% mad

i've had some nightmares that would terrify the antichrist though, mostly in spice withdrawals. the sky raining roaches or being forced by knifepoint to eat holographic worms out of dirt by a psychotic jack-in-the-box clown, or being thrown into a gore dungeon. makes me nauseous just thinking about it.

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2017-03-11 at 2:08 PM UTC in What is your favorite English word?

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frongledong

2017-03-11 at 2:01 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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i've never dreamed of a mirror either. getting high in dreams works about half of the time. when i lucid dream i tend to do a rape

2017-03-11 at 1:58 PM UTC in im always bored

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i feel rused

2017-03-11 at 1:55 PM UTC in im always bored

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:)

2017-03-11 at 1:54 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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ive looked at myself in the mirror a million times but i still hardly know what i look like. i bet this is a symptom of vampirism.

2017-03-11 at 1:52 PM UTC in im always bored

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the worst thing for a man with a life devoid of meaning is to come to the realization that he himself is also unremarkable

2017-03-11 at 1:50 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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Why are mirrors in dreams so fucking terrifying

2017-03-11 at 1:42 PM UTC in im always bored

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Originally posted by puffy butts 20 years of extremely limited human contact has made me like a fucking serial killer. i do that thing about feeling good about being superior so much that i have that thing where i feel like i'm a chosen one and have the right to disassemble thots like lego sets because everything must be my property that i am entitled to. sure i can feel okay sometimes but my environment has definitely played a large part in whatever unusual brain structure i currently possess regardless of genetic influence. plus if i have some self realization/self doubt that i'm only slightly above average in the grand scheme of things my whole theory of being the farseer outcast falls apart.

Exhibit A: http://biqnavi.runboard.com/t69

f5ing for replies from the admins to tell me not to be insecure

2017-03-11 at 1:41 PM UTC in im always bored

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Originally posted by Sophie You can compensate about feeling bad because of that by feeling good you're superior. Also drugs.

20 years of extremely limited human contact has made me like a fucking serial killer. i do that thing about feeling good about being superior so much that i have that thing where i feel like i'm a chosen one and have the right to disassemble thots like lego sets because everything must be my property that i am entitled to. sure i can feel okay sometimes but my environment has definitely played a large part in whatever unusual brain structure i currently possess regardless of genetic influence. plus if i have some self realization/self doubt that i'm only slightly above average in the grand scheme of things my whole theory of being the farseer outcast falls apart.

2017-03-11 at 1:37 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin

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E site mxe

2017-03-11 at 1:37 PM UTC in microdosing non-psychedelic hallucinogens

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But I have drugd

2017-03-11 at 1:36 PM UTC in im always bored

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Zech and zENDIES

2017-03-11 at 1:32 PM UTC in im always bored

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social and emotional deprivation

2017-03-11 at 1:22 PM UTC in What is your favorite English word?

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Originally posted by aldra defenestration

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xKH5pGC9jQ

immolation is pretty good too

2017-03-11 at 12:49 PM UTC in microdosing non-psychedelic hallucinogens

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tl;dr don't take drugs just mix a bunch of supplements together until you have a manic episode

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