Posts by The Self Taught Man

1. 2015-11-22 at 12:39 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   Malice, between you and facebook you make me cry. "We all get by with a little help from our friends. So we made you a film to celebrate your friends and some moments you’ve shared. From, your friends at Facebook", that was so sad watching pictures of me with friends, former friends, in moments where I genuinely looked happy. In moments when I did have people around me. And I Iook at my life now, and how empty and void it is of any "true" friends. Just people who have moved on with their lives, having careers and money and a place they can call their own, and I'm stuck, effectively homeless, no prospects for the future, no hope, no job. And it was all because of me, and decisions I took and actions I made. I can't blame it on anyone else. The only people I have are drug dealers/users, and they aren't real friends.
   
   I mean, and don't take this the wrong way, I in no way have it as bad as you, but it's all relative, right? We could have been someone.
   
   "What I would wish for most in the world was someone lying next to me to hold hands with and share in their warmth", I wish I could find that again.
   
2. 2015-11-22 at 12:22 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   I'm guna buy some 1p-LSD and hope that helps.
3. 2015-11-22 at 11:19 AM UTC in [UK] Turning a blank firing gun in to a 'live' firing gun
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   The key is to find a blank/rubber bullet gun that was converted from a real gun. In Russia these were common. You would see guns from American/European companies that are rebranded and have some internals changed to fire blanks/rubber bullets.
   
   These are the easiest ones to convert back.
4. 2015-11-22 at 11:13 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   I know it feels hopeless, when you're in that state it's so hard to do anything, even things that seem like basic tasks to others, you can lose the desire to even get better and live.
   
   But if you're at the end and feel you're going to die, you may as well give it one last shot, do something crazy/illegal/dangerous if you have to, make the money any way you need to. Nardil, NSI-189, transcranial magnetic stimulation. If you manage to become happy, and it still isn't what you want, you can't find anything in life, then you can at least feel confident in your decision, go through it without regrets or concerns about what could have been.
   
   Hey, you have the NHS in the UK, you should see if they have TMS available.

   
   You've never had to deal with the NHS, it's a joke, I'm still waiting on a referral to the Mental Health team and the Drug and Alcohol Recovery Team. That was like a month ago. I was meant to be referred to CBT and a psychiatrist, but still waiting. I'll be waiting a long time.
5. 2015-11-22 at 11:03 AM UTC in Posters this site could really use
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   zek is a faggot
6. 2015-11-22 at 1:19 AM UTC in Dear America
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Politicizing is inherently loathsome, but if we intend to get to the root of the matter we have to ask why it keeps happening and what we can do to prevent it. Obama knows this, the GOP knows it, the NRA knows it, your liberal Facebook pals know it and and so do you.

   So what do we all know faggot?
7. 2015-11-22 at 1:16 AM UTC in Signatures
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   you're

   Reduced to that again?
8. 2015-11-22 at 1:14 AM UTC in Roshambo is dead
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   1 down 1 to go.
9. 2015-11-21 at 11:33 PM UTC in ATTN: ANYONE WHO CARES
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   But what happened???
10. 2015-11-21 at 11:29 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    Suicide is an inevitability.
11. 2015-11-21 at 11:27 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    Dude, imagine if you took a drug that wiped out your entire memory. Now, why would you do that, since you'd essentially be retarded and likely rendered to state care? Because you would forget the reason why you wanted to die, the pain of your life, existence, and could potentially start anew. You'd still have the neurological changes accrued from chronic depression and other disorders, deficits you were born with, but you would live and would do so without the risks of being cryogenically frozen, hopefully living to a future of the singularity or augmentation.
    
    This isn't a novel idea by any means, but the thought, if you could no longer bear to be you.
    
    Oh: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Memory_erasure
    
    Wipe away every unhappy thought, all the fears and negativity. You could even write about it beforehand, which could increase the likelihood of you surviving, create a legion of supporters.

    
    I take benzos to temporarily wipe away the memory of my existence. They also make me retarded and one time rendered to state care. Although paradoxically (or perhaps not, idk how it makes others), but taking benzos makes me want to harm and kill myself, they don't make me forget the reason I want to die or the pain of existence, they make me want to do it. Apparently the other day when I took a bunch of zopiclone I rang my mum saying why am I even alive and I should just go out and jump in front of a train. I didn't, but yea I wish I had the balls to kill myself. It really would make life so much easier.
12. 2015-11-21 at 10:56 PM UTC in Roshambo is dead
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    He told me on facebook that he took 3 grams of bundy. This is an incredibly bad idea and hopefully he'll survive and just wake up in the ER. I'm only on 360mg. After he told me he took all 50 mucinex pills "20 minutes ago", he disapeared from the internet. I don't know if he's comatose right now, having a heart attack, or dead, fuck,
13. 2015-11-21 at 8:14 PM UTC in Signatures
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    You already have the answer you seek.

    I bet your mom thinks your clever.
14. 2015-11-21 at 6:16 PM UTC in Do rainbows exist objectively?
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    P.S. you never relied to this:
    But I maintain, and common/technical usage supports, that color is not the same thing as the experience of color. I can experience lavalamps differently than other people but this doesn't show that lavalamps do not have an objective existence,

    
    Why do you evade this? It wreks your entire point. Address it or fuck off.
15. 2015-11-21 at 6:12 PM UTC in Are illogical thoughts an evolutionary advantage?
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    Tough question. I would say abstract thought is more advantageous than illogical though but its a thin line between the two.
    
    Also, to say that the logical option is to think russling is the wind is not a good example. What if you felt no wind? How would that conclusion be logically sound?
    
    logic =/= the first thing that pops into your head.
16. 2015-11-21 at 4:41 PM UTC in What type of chemical will damage plastic to a small degree?
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    Do an experiment and report back.
17. 2015-11-21 at 4:38 PM UTC in Signatures
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    How does it feel to be the laughing stock of an entire community and all of it's offshoots?

    
    You already have the answer you seek.
18. 2015-11-21 at 4:26 PM UTC in Signatures
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    None of you even scare me.

    How does it feel to be the laughing stock of an entire community and all of it's offshoots?
19. 2015-11-21 at 4:24 PM UTC in This is the end beautiful friend
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    All I know is I'm posting in a thread that has a user by the name of, Sir slappy the sea turtle, in it, and that's good enough for me.

    Simple minds require simple things.
20. 2015-11-21 at 3:26 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    jesus fucking christ shut the fuck up