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2018-03-21 at 12:55 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH She be holding the power. Ya done cared.
Nah. The only thing i can say is that I do keep checking my phone in anticipation of her texts. But if she wants to play games like that, i can easily tell the bitch to kick rocks. After calling 3 times, I texted "Alright Im going to stop embarrassing myself. Fuck this."
So we will see what new wall of text awaits me when she wakes up in a couple hours. -
2018-03-21 at 7 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.I did tell her if she broke our date again for tonight, I was gonna be done with her. Looks like thats going to be the case. Im going to give her another hour or so before I text her.
"This is bullshit. Fuck this ."
Thats why I dont understabnd. She sends me walls of text like that after I tell her we should just be friends, and then she says we should hang out and do shit and 80% of the time she stops responding and sends another wall of text at 9am apologizing profusely. -
2018-03-21 at 2:07 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-21 at 2:06 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-21 at 2:06 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Jeremus Casper, just pull the condom off mid sex and say it slipped after you cum inside her, ez gg, just sent everything about the sexual assaults charges.
Also, she has some kind of birth control implant, so shed probably be cool with that once I got tested. I kind of dont even want to fuck her until I get some time with an escort to get some practice strokes in. Need to make the home opener at least a solid show, nawmeen? -
2018-03-21 at 2 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by NARCassist i doubt she would bother to write all that if she wasn't straight up, but that's not a 100%, a good 90% tho i'd say.
casper have you ever been with her when she talked to the police?
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Negative. I think shes only called them once or twice in the two months we've been talking, but the p olice have probably been caled out 12 or so times to the same apartment. It seems like she only calls when it gets REALLY bad, and I think she knows if I were there when it got REALLY bad, I would probabvly do something to get myself in trouble. When I saw the blue and purple marks all down her arms, I bit a chunk out of the inside of my cheek. I started fantasizing about wrapping my belt around his neck and making him beg me to stop, and lecturing him on what its like to be at someone else's mercy. And what kind of a fucking LOSER you have to be to hurt someone who's out up with so much of your lazy, abusive bullshit. And pays yuour rent. And buys your clothes. And buys your oack of smokes every day. And buys your heroin and crack. And does your laundry. And cooks your meals.
It makes me start shaking when I thiunk about it, I get so angry.
Thats why I posted these texts though so you guys would get an idea of why im so confused. On paper, it sounds like shes a lying bitch who's banging her abusive ex bf. But when you read all this stuff, it sounds like it just might be true, right? Im not easily sucked in, but i fdeel like she actually might be telling the truth. -
2018-03-20 at 8:36 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Okay this is in response to me questioning the truth of her saying she got a restraining order, since she seems so reluctant to call the police on him now, and me saying that she has nothing to lose by telling me the truth- that she hardly knows me and everything, so if there were anyone she could confide in totally, why not a complete stranger?
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Hi hi hi
Of course I had the temporary protective order-- I don't just make things up😣😔I'm not that kind of person
Working on the long message now. I'm so sorry you thought I was ignoring:( really wasn't
Still want all the same stuff
I never had a piece of paper and I don't know why. I wish you would have been with me those three days In a row I went into the police station
And how completely wide eyed and useless they were other than the visit when photos were taken and even then they were rather nonchalant
My parents were with me at the station each time -- I'm sure they'd vouche for me if it helped.
But my better longer message is coming
Just a quick sidenote about the way you've made/ you make me feel:
Like every cheesy Taylor Swift song about hope or new starts or honest love for the first time is about us
Like this is the first time I've laughed this much or at my phone in forever
Like the thought of your face always fills me with the best warm happy feeling that just makes me want to smile and gives me hope that there are still good people out there
Like I might not die alone 😛but more so like I might live life alongside someone I actually adore being around
I stopped listening to music for a new months, stopped listening to music, stopped writing --everything.
Since you've come into my life I've got headphones in or the Bluetooth speaker going all the time, I'm singing and dancing in the shower again (not when I've let you down though.. not much dancing the last couple days)
And I'm sending you music videos left and right --something I only do for you.
Life is already better with you in it to the extent you are. If I don't get the chance to camp or raise a pup or cook many dinners with you, I will be the one who missed out. I'll be the one that lost something major and you'll be the one I let get away. I'm just not okay with that. I want to have called you (my name) so much longer than I ever knew you as (current street name. and to know you as your girlfriend to the point that we laugh at all of this nonsense happening right now.
My letting this situation continue as it has is not residual love or romantic feelings for him-- it's not wanting to be the horrible person that kicked someone out who is so lost literally and metaphorically and will paint the picture like I'm the monster and since I'm SO NOT and was a freaking peach to him. Angel, Saint, you name it-- I was the blue ribbon housewife and never complained. I took care of him and it's going to be painted by him like I didn't. I don't know why I care it's just I put a hell of a lot of effort into trying to save him and I failed.
As far as
Lol that wasn't even the long one so.. whoops
*few months
That was not a very articulate long message. I can do a lot better.
Good thing I've been drafting the real long one all last night and this morning..
Jeez no one makes me nervous like this
Also just for the record, I completely hated Taylor Swift and everything about her until just a couple years ago when I met her and realized she's a pretty awesome person, and then I started listening to her music while working out and now I basically listen to it when it comes on the YouTube red station and don't always skip it
Or when i like someone and am feelin like a girl.. 😌 -
2018-03-20 at 8:08 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.UGHHHHHHHH.
OKay normally im not one to share all this shit, but i need you guys to read this mornings texts and maybe understand why i have no idea what to believe. -
2018-03-20 at 4:52 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Malice CASPER, I’ve read that erectile dysfunction drugs like Viagra can greatly reduce/eliminate the refractory period, do you can just keep going. Don’t if they make you last longer. Something serotonergic like MDAI may also help a lot. Eventually Nardil ended up giving me inorgasmia, but it either subsided or I learned how to cum on it. It felt great to be able to last that long.
Someone traded me a bunch of viagra and cialis a couple months ago, so I was reading up on it. Doesn't actually help you last longer. Refractory period isn't a problem for me though. I can go again almost immediately after. But still it's best to try not to.
And yeah it's SSRIs that they often prescribe for it, but I'm scared to take anything really. -
2018-03-20 at 6:39 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH Would it only be nice if it worked out cause she's purdy? If she's pretty enough it's worth the gamble of using no condom and pulling out at the last millisecond. Or even if she's just cool.
Itd be nice if it worked out because shes pretty, SUPER intelligent, with loaded parents, and with a history of her own that makes it so I dont have to try to explain the last 10 years of my life....which is the primary obstacle i forsee having, trying to get out and talk to women in general, at the ripe old age of almost-30.
And as fuck as Id like to raw dog that sweet, athletic pussy, I think no condom would spoil the event. I havent gotten laid in years at this point, and I swear being on dope made my go-time way longer at first, and now way shorter. I tried out these dura-last rubbers in anticipation, and even with a dick slathered in benzocaine, i got like 3 1/2 min of furious jackin. That was the nice thing about dope and speed. Sex wasnt even about connection or enjoyment- it just turned into an athletic event. Ie- how many times in a row can I fuck you, in how many different places, and how many loads can I blow on how manty different parts of your body before it becomes too painful to ejaculate anymore, or my dick starts bleeding. -
2018-03-20 at 6:36 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-20 at 3:07 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.I still may eat the pussy. Long as she shows me that planned parenthood paperwork. Aint tryna join the club. Like i said- maybe shes lying. Maybe she really is headfucked and doesnt know what to do. Its]d be nice if shit worked out, but its not gonna be the end of the world if it doesn't.
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2018-03-20 at 2:56 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition."Going to read these all. I missed you today.
hey you
hey you?
Been one long really bad day
The equation hasn't changed. Its just complicated and im cowardly with things like
calling the police. Always afraid he'll say or do something that will switch around
the situation and my imagination places me being the one ending up in trouble. I get
that's crazy but he definitely wraps my head up into quite a knot and its hard to know
what is actually true and right.I guess my best answer to how I can spend the night in
the same apartment as him is it's miserable and i avoid it at all costs. He does speak
to me horribly and any time we're together im less happy than if im alone or with you.
Being physically sick and then standing up for myself is proving to be very difficult.
When shit got crazy over at work I was less of a strong willed landlady too
Anyway whats up with you? Are you at work?
Hello?
That all sounded like a bunch of lame excuses and cop outs Im sure.
Also Im at the end of another attack (her chronic condition) so im just all around more of a baby.
lots of stomach problems, im sweaty af and not dopesick, legs hurt, depressed meh. I thought everything
could be resolved well enouygh with him getting his own things out and getting the f out ASAP, then a
restraining order would be in effectand id put up the barsand if he came back- then 911.
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So fam? What would your reponse be to this dogshit? Somehow I dont buy that a girl who was strong enough to ace the MCAT in her hospital bed with 9 tubes coming out of her abdomen cant find the STRENGTH to pick up the fucking phone and have her abusive "ex" bf removed from the apartment hes destroyed, that he pays no rent for. -
2018-03-20 at 2:45 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-20 at 2:45 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH That shit sounds extra stupid but now you have locked yourself into guaranteed feelzbadman. When you kissed the scars on her stomach you shoulda ate the pussy. Now this bitch gone leave you in suspense.
I dont think so. I was trying really hard not to freak her out too much. Dating feels like a whole new world since the last time I was in the game. Now if you get a blowjob from a drunk chick, youre a rapist or some shit. I just wanted her to feel safe and let her know that shes should feel sexy and desireable not all the stuff the ex has been trying to headfuck her with. -
2018-03-20 at 2:42 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Look who just got 11 texts messages in a row...
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2018-03-20 at 2:17 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by SpatianHaigency She's back with the scummer isnt she
Honestly I have no clue. Just shit doesnt add up. Ive told her about 7 or 8 times now that if shes still got some stuff that needs to be resolved with him, thats fine- just dont drag me into it. Ill still get her the stuff shr needs to get by and stay sober. I still wont be doing her any special favors. Ill still keep making money off her. Ill still be friendly. Ive given her every opportunity to "come clean", and shes stiull sticking with the same story.
Yet, every single day she's "waiting for him to leave" the apt. Ive walked her into lying about small stuff. She texted me when she got off work last night at 11:30 and when I texted her back 20 min later she never nresponded. I assumed she fell asleep. So when I was out doing work last night, I passed by her apt a couple times and her car was parked in the private lot. And so I texted "I guess you never made it home. Going to bed. Night." And when she texted this morning, she said that she hadnt made it home.
My current working theory is that her parents hate the ex, and they perhaps threatened to stop paying rent and her "stipend" if she was going to be staying with scumfuck. But scumfuck is the only way she can really get drugs, since ive expressed that I have no interest in another junkie girlfriend overdosing in bed with me. So new, friendly, prpotective dude shows up for the parents, their minds are at ease, they continue on sending Western Union every week like usual, and keep contributing to her trust fund.
Idk. Like I said- Im not letting myself get sucked too far into it. If it works out, itll be nice. If this is all an elaborate act to keep getting high, shes a pretty awful person and im sure karma will work things out. Im not going to be listening to elliot smith, smoking clove cigarettes in the dark if tghe latter turns out to be true, I just dont UNDERSTAND more than anything. My brain has a need for LOGIC and ORDER. I need to put the puzzle pieces together here. Whatever the case it, I wish shed just say it outright. I suppose thats too much to expect of a woman. *shrug*
Anyway- stay tuned. Im sure Ill get a string of emotional texts back in the next 24 hours. -
2018-03-20 at 1:25 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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2018-03-18 at 10:10 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Every year I swear I'm going to go out and do something fun for St. Pats- one of my favorite days. And every year I just forget until the last minute, or end up getting caugh
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2018-03-17 at 1:45 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
