Idk what your aim is Jig. If you're still salty I rejected you or if you think this will make me like you, it won't, you just come across as a bitch. It's pathetic that someone who prides themselves on being objective can't see that they've been reduced to a dog.
I can't stand cowards because I'm not one. Like when some chavs said they were going to hit my friend, I approached them at a bus depot all by myself, 7 chavs saying I would hit whoever. If a man isn't as brave as me it's very off-putting and a sign they aren't loyal. Loyalty and fearlessness are things I respect.
Now I'm sipping wine, staring at the rain and logged in to some game. Nothing ever goes to plan.
I want a real man who isn't too cowardly to do something about my enemies. They're shockingly hard to find. Bloodshed is the quickest way to my heart.
I want to listen to hypnosis for speed-reading and creative writing.
I'm not going to do physical stuff tonight because I feel drained. I just showered, am about to take my supplements and the plan is to finish carving for cara, send emails, spend time learning hacking, make food, maybe watch an epispde of Lost, do my skincare then listen to hypnosis for hours.
I've noticed a new skin growth, like a mole or a skin tag. Idk which can appear over-night. All I know is it's some type of growth and not swollen skin so I'm going to phone the doctor tomorrow.
There's still no appetite and it's freaking me out bcus idk what's causing this and the sleeping so much. It doesn't feel like an emotional problem.
I had my day planned by the hour and am disappointed I slept through it all.
I slept all day and don't know why. I probably won't be awake tonight either.
I've been called a womaniser and don't know what it is I project. Relationships with women end badly bcus I don't know how to make them happy. I like that I can be myself with them though and they still like me. Men only make me feel stifled and like I have to hide parts of myself. Then there's more intensity with women. You don't have to hold back to try and appear sane to someone judgemental man.
I live in an area with a lot of nature but don't go out into it because of my sensory issues, so games help me escape without having to go outside. I would listen to forest walk hypnosis as well to relax even though I live next to a forest.
I'll let the universe decide if he's the one. Let a coin flip decide if I should track him down.
I keep thinking about this man I had an intense staring contest with. He wasn't even my type physically but it was intense. Now I'm wondering if he's my soulmate or if it's just that staring is known to create intimacy.
My five year old nephew said he wanted to marry me. I've distanced myself from him now so he doesn't suffer the heartbreak of never finding a lady like me in future. Men are supposed to want someone like their mother.
I had a bad dream that I had to pretend to be male so I'd be treated better, but that isn't going to happen because I'm not giving men credit for my mind. What will happen is I'll never be with one. You are flawed, evolution can go awry and it's why the Y-chromosome is decaying. I'd rather die than be with a man and will be taking my chances with coke next weekend, but don't ever act like you didn't try to kill me, you did because you're flawed.
