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2022-02-19 at 4:39 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionI never sleep long enough or deep enough to remember my dreams. Since I stopped smoking so much weed I've been hoping I'll remember my dreams more often but alas I still can't remember them. I always remembered them in prison because the lack of sensory stimulation would result in vivid dreams and be furious to wake up in the reality I was currently stuck in
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2022-02-18 at 10:48 PM UTC in Memorial page
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2022-02-18 at 10:29 PM UTC in Memorial pageKind of reminds at the end of the film, "A Scanner Darkly", were Philip K Dick the author dedicates the film to all his friends who died as a result of misadventure. It goes something like:
This has been a novel about some people who were punished entirely too much for what they did. They wanted to have a good time, but they were like children playing in the street; they could see one after another of them being killed—run over, maimed, destroyed—but they continued to play anyhow. We really all were very happy for a while, sitting around not toiling but just bullshitting and playing, but it was for such a terrible brief time, and then the punishment was beyond belief: even when we could see it, we could not believe it…. For a while I myself was one of these children playing in the street; I was, like the rest of them, trying to play instead of being grown up, and I was punished. I am on the list below, which is a list of those to whom this novel is dedicated, and what became of each.
Drug misuse is not a disease, it is a decision, like the decision to step out in front of a moving car. You would call that not a disease but an error in judgment. When a bunch of people begin to do it, it is a social error, a life-style. In this particular life-style the motto is “Be happy now because tomorrow you are dying.” But the dying begins almost at once, and the happiness is a memory. It is, then, only a speeding up, an intensifying, of the ordinary human existence. It is not different from your life-style, it is only faster. It all takes place in days or weeks or months instead of years. “Take the cash and let the credit go,” as Villon said in 1460. But that is a mistake if the cash is a penny and the credit a whole lifetime.
There is no moral in this novel; it is not bourgeois; it does not say they were wrong to play when they should have toiled; it just tells what the consequences were. In Greek drama they were beginning, as a society, to discover science, which means causal law. Here in this novel there is Nemesis: not fate, because any one of us could have chosen to stop playing in the street, but, as I narrate from the deepest part of my life and heart, a dreadful Nemesis for those who kept on playing. So, though, was our entire nation at this time. This novel is about more people than I knew personally. Some we all read about in the newspapers. It was, this sitting around with our buddies and bullshitting while making tape-recordings, the bad decision of the decade, the sixties, both in and out of the establishment. And nature cracked down on us. We were forced to stop by things dreadful.
If there was any ‘sin’, it was that these people wanted to keep on having a good time forever, and were punished for that, but, as I say, I feel that, if so, the punishment was far too great, and I prefer to think of it only in a Greek or morally neutral way, as mere science, as deterministic impartial cause-and-effect. I loved them all. Here is the list, to whom I dedicate my love:
To Gaylene deceased
To Ray deceased
To Francy permanent psychosis
To Kathy permanent brain damage
To Jim deceased
To Val massive permanent brain damage
To Nancy permanent psychosis
To Joanne permanent brain damage
To Maren deceased
To Nick deceased
To Terry deceased
To Dennis deceased
To Phil permanent pancreatic damage
To Sue permanent vascular damage
To Jerri permanent psychosis and vascular damage
…and so forth.
In Memoriam. These were comrades whom I had; there are no better. They remain in my mind, and the enemy will never be forgiven. The ‘enemy’ was their mistake in playing. Let them all play again, in some other way, and let them be happy.
I always found that part somewhat connected to our community everytime I saw the film.
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2022-02-18 at 8:32 PM UTC in Tomorrow (19/02/22) I am going to hang myself from the Concourse Shopping CentreIt's not your mental health, it's the drugs. Get off the drugs first, then make life-changing decisions.
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2022-02-18 at 2:43 PM UTC in If the government can print money for free why do we need taxes?Yeah that's what causes inflation, at some point the bubble will burst and society will collapse al a Weimer Republic style.
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2022-02-18 at 9:43 AM UTC in The pandemic ruined gen ZI was given half a beer by my pops on my 12th birthday. got a buzz.
when he and his friends got drunker I went and snuck a second one from the fridge.
His birthday was the day before mine. so it was Our birthday party every year. I hated that dude though. he was a crazy fucker.
but he had a few good moments to be around. My Mom married him when I was 3 after my parents seperated the year before and divorced. And he adopted me and I took his last name for like the first years of my life.
then My Mom caught him cheating and she divorced him and was like You want your birthname back. I had to think about it because my first, middle and last name was the same as a popular musician at the time. but when I took my real name back, my first and last name was the name of a popular musician at the time.
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2022-02-18 at 12:15 AM UTC in What are you doing at the momentI just found out Trevor Moore died 6 months ago so I'm watching some whitest kids you know in his memory and trying to figure my life out
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2022-02-17 at 3:42 PM UTC in The pandemic ruined gen Z
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2022-02-16 at 11:48 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionIt's insane how fundamentalist Christians are against abortion and assisted suicide. They really like people to suffer personal, private hells on earth.
A few years ago before all the local papers were Bought by an oil company, there was a 4 page article after a friend of the editors died by assisted suicide. Iirc a few weeks later there was another 1 or 2 pages about some other rich person who offed themselves. I remember reading the articles and thinking that seemed like such a nice send off, on your own terms and everything. I think Hunter S Thompson is a faggot for doing it tho, nigga wasn't even depressed -
2022-02-16 at 10:31 PM UTC in Is this a cult?Kafka is the Belle of Belfast city who likes getting her hair pulled and comb stolen
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2022-02-16 at 9:49 PM UTC in Is this a cult?I told a few people at work about totse and the 9/11 thing (I was thrown out of my house and hit rock bottom) its the only time I ever told strangers about it, except some interesting people on an uber ride that brought up totse themselves.
so No, I dont go around telling people left and right this shit. I did it here because Lanny is an iteration. I did it in the post back in 2013 on Zoklet site with Lanny in the conversation "Take your meds skitzo" right off the bat.
its funny that same kid is now running this board. and I didn't make that connection because at the time it was 4-5 years after that and I went to look for that post "Hunt for Hunter" and saw it was Zolet board and Lanny was the first to reply to me (or second) then I find this fucking site through the naming of a WiFi SSID name.
it seems Zoklet and Totse is more popular than you think. but My original point was, I was telling this guy more detail who came in and asked me to expand on the totse/ pre 9/11 manifesto story. and 5 minutes later Michael Aquino came in. I knew I met him before but couldn't place his face. I noticed his eyebrows with the Pyramid shap he liked to do. I asked him if he was a Psychiatrist by chance, I think I had him as a sit in for another shrink I normally went to who was sick. but this is the weird part. He said "I am a Doctor, but I don't practice however I have filled in before" then asked to purchase the square (theme here) (that scans credit cards for purchase) but then after I ran his credit card and saw the name Dr Michael A Aquino on it. He decided to back out of the transaction. I did scan it though. So it is documented.
Not 3-4 months later, I was on youtube. I was watching FBI Ted Gunderson videos. they were lined up as suggested videos. then came on the Geraldo Show. the episode that coinded the phrase "Trash TV" like trash magazines of conspiracy shit. Ted Gunderson with a Priest from Boystown Omaha challenging Lt Col Michael Aquino and some lady claiming she would have babies without seeing doctors because they would give birth to them and give them to Church of Satan/SET
all kinds of crazy shit. I looked at the younger Aquino and it hit me like crazy. I was trying to remember the guy who came into the store and just when I remembered his name his name came up on screen. Lt Col Michael Aquino. then I realized he came to the Halloween Party some years before this show. at a friends house. Thats why I recognized him. We thought he came to dress up like Eddy Munster and his wife Lillith was dressed as Lillith. He said, "We get that a lot. People think we're in costume" and her name is really Lillith.
and he's of the Scottish Right?
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2022-02-16 at 9:27 PM UTC in Is this a cult?
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2022-02-16 at 8:23 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
Originally posted by Kafka Like there’s no one I can talk with even though people say they’re there, and that there’s nothing I want to talk about.
You're a young woman, most people who say they are there for you just want in your pants and say it to appear caring thinking that will increase their chances.
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2022-02-16 at 6:37 PM UTC in Is this a cult?The answer to op's question is yes. There is a cult but no one will admit to being a part of it.
Some dude from &t was worshipping unspeakable deities and did despicable things towards women, probably because he was an incel loser.
I didn't become aware of him till about a month or so before the temple closed. He made a post with a picture of a naked woman tied to a pole. She had several weird cuts all over her body. I don't recall the entire post he made about it, but he did mention insertion of certain objects, and period blood having magical properties, and that he needed it to perform certain rituals. I imagine him hanging girls out to drip, and then collect said drip. The woman on the picture seemed to be in despair, as if her soul had left her body.
The post got deleted no more than a few minutes after it was made.
Fast forward to zoklet.
One day i'm sitting there reading a thread about prostitutes and recommendations, while drinking scotch and smoking like the OG i am.
I look at the hot topics and see a thread title called extraction of the uterus on a wake and alert subject. Now, as the no bullshit guy i am, i click it expecting a link to a vid with guy performing oral sex on a donkey. But that wasn't it. I got exactly what the title said, and that wasn't all. You see the creator of the post had the same name as the guy from &t.
In this hopelessly recorded clip, this girl was strapped to a table and had her stomach cut open by some shady figure with some sort of lancel used for anatomical dissection. At first she was pleading, but when he opened her op, she started screaming. It lasted a good 5 minutes. The girl passed out or died halfway in. It was hard to tell.
I don't know how long that thread was up for, but it was removed the day after when i wanted to show a friend of mine the clip.
So how is this guy related to a cult?
This guy, before he was banned, had pm'd several users including a buddy of mine liquidice/burningchrome about an offer to join him on his ranch where people could recieve "pleasure" from his "stock" and the blessings of his master.
I didn't get that pm myself, but several other members did and a thread was made about it because apparently it freaked some people out.
About 2 months or so later, people start acting weird. Writing about things they don't usually write about, in ways that seems.. unauthentic. Well known posters starts talking about period blood and the worship of the unspeakable and how they are going to lead us to a greater plane of existence. This didn't last for long, as many of these people simply stopped posting one day, and those who didn't kept on being "weird" and unlike themselves.
We've since then been grinded through several shithole substitutes for forums and only the most dedicated remains.
I do know of two people from that event who still posts here though.
Thoughts:
There's rumors that the death of our recently diseased member was related because he threatened to talk about some dark things going on with the people on these boards.
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2022-02-16 at 2:55 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionThere was a local headline today about a food bank desperately seeking donations. It was one I had not heard of so after reading about it its apparently "queer led" which is an insane way to advertise.
Imagine if I advertised my sexual proclivities as a way to solicit donations for other people. What is the actual rationale for mentioning this? Legit asking because I'm still very confused -
2022-02-16 at 7:57 AM UTC in Is this a cult?Dead regulars, and if ya ain't dead, ya sure as hell will be dead inside.
It's like a black hole ah tell ya!
**spits**- Quick Mix Ready,
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- Kafka,
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- mmQ
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2022-02-14 at 10:37 PM UTC in You guys ever look at fossils?
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2022-02-14 at 2:55 PM UTC in Fona 2-12-2022 Happy Valentine's Day
Good morning.
Hope everyone had a great weekend and is off to a productive Monday.
My weekend was good in the sense I won't be doing half that shit ever again.
I enjoyed getting to spend time with my girlfriend but the activities we did in our free time did not amount to a lot of enjoyment.
I'll give you gonts a quick run down.
Woke up Saturday and we headed to the liquidation center - FUN
From there we went to get breakfast at a place neither of us had ever ate at before which turned out to be a gas station diner - NOT FUN
After that we hit up Trader's World flea market which was just a bunch of over priced old garbage and a lot of walking around - NOT FUN
We decided to get groceries with the remainder of our energy and hit up a Kroger's Marketplace in the ghetto - NOT FUN
Dinner that night was fried chicken - FUN
Sunday,
Dirty Walmart - NOT FUN
Car wash - NOT FUN
Visited my mom - NOT FUN
Ate at a shitty restaurant (that I picked) where a homeless guy called my girlfriend a "bitch" - NOT FUN
I guess that's winter for you though. There just isn't much going on when it's 15 degrees outside and the sun sets at 6pm.
Shit happens but it was still alright because I was with my girlfriend.
I slept a bunch both days too.
14 hours Saturday night and 12 more Sunday night.
Fresh as a fucking daisy now.
Unfortunately today is Monday and it will be my first full week at my new job.
One thing I've noticed about this job that hasn't happened but has with all my previous jobs is normally when I start something new I get all sore and wake up hurting from finding myself doing a different type of work.
I haven't noticed any soreness or overly tired feelings from my new job. It sort of is the same type of work but it is different enough I really expected to be a lot more worn down last week than I was.
But anyways, yea it's Monday and in 4 and a half hours I have to be heading out the door.
I'll probably kill time doing laundry and a bit of cleaning.
Might go ahead and run through my e-mails and check my bills.
There really isn't much for me to do other than kill time right now.
Maybe tonight I'll play some video games after work. -
2022-02-14 at 4:01 AM UTC in haunted by memories of my future
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2022-02-14 at 3:11 AM UTC in You guys ever look at fossils?Those... Are mollusca and nautiloid lol