It's my second bombay hitting me now
A four-night trip to London costs me £500, I'd have £200 for spending or something. Actually no, transport is £100, hostel £80, idk what I used to do with the rest of it.
Happy because it's like a girly sleepover, me, 18 yr old, 10 and 13 yr old. We watched high school musical 2, plaited each others hair, played cards all night and I scared them banging the window from outside. Ik I'm an adult but days like this are nice.
I'm really in the middle of nowhere there's just two estates, two small shops, a pub and a cafe. There's no library or church. You can't survive here unless you drive.
They wouldn't sell me cigs because I had no id. I said I'm 28 and this gross man behind me said "she's a fine looking thing". I feel like the cashier was trying to annoy me. Well it worked I'm passed and seeking revenge.
The stinginess as well, I took 50 euro out of an ATM and it charged me £53 exactly. It should have been £45 at the most.
I found out some things that everyone in the south of Ireland burns their plastic because they have to pay to have their bins emptied. They have to pay to have things recycled so they burn it instead. And that if your house is on fire and you phone the fire brigade you have to pay £500. Whoever phones has to pay so people will see their neighbour's house on fire and do nothing. I'm disgusted. During covid the south was like Nazi Germany but up north the vaccine passports never took off, people weren't going to go to pubs if their friends couldn't enter.
Why does my skin turn to shit so quickly when I'm away from home. I have all my products with me.
Drunk. Turns out my sister's boyfriend believes what Andrew tate says so we had a discussion. Had to tell him about Jim Carry's ethnomasochism and publicity stunts as well. He's a conspiracy theorist but at scary levels. I remember Andrew tate on big brother, got bad vibes from him because he was playing psychological games with people. What struck me was he got past the vetting stage by psychologists to get into the house. He's dangerous and now he has people brainwashed. I will keep saying this, those consumed by developing physical strength to be more manly have low self esteem. This low self esteem in men is widespread. Real men don't fear women but misogists do, the taliban barred women from education because they fear them, so they aren't real men. Just because it's widespread doesn't mean it's healthy. Wake up and let go of low self esteem and fear of women.
Other note, I'm taking my sister's pregnancy supplements now because they're the best iron you can get and I'm bleeding to death.
I'm still bleeding, feel like a corpse.
I'm also worried I'll OD, I always end up on the floor after coke.
I have managed to have a colourful and exciting life despite being alone. Sort of like Villanelle.
