2023-03-14 at 12:44 AM UTC
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Is this normal?
I don't like my mum to look at me because it feels pervy. In the past if I was dressed up she would try to make me feel ugly, she'd want me to change. I don't think that's it though, other daughters are fine with their mothers looking at them, my sister is fine with it and I suspect it's normal for mothers to be pervs because I've seen it so much but for some reason I'm not okay with it and don't know why. If I was having a baby I wouldn't want my mum to be there for support. Is there something wrong with her or me?
I've made up my mind to not care if I ruin my mum's life. It's not something I want to do but she's caused me too much damage and left me for dead. She'll never be my mum and now she's a threat to me. I'm not taking the risk.
Idk why handbags haven't grown on me. I have a few ones that are more like purses to go with certain outfits. I don't like backpacks either. It's either a vintage gladstone bag, my dad's briefcase or my Moschino purse and jacket pockets.
It's rare when the weather doesn't overwhelm me, air pressure affects autism. Today is my kind of weather.
Standing in a doorway looking at the anime rain.
So I went to counselling. I feel a tiny bit better after complaining about my mum for an hour. There were a few moments when she almost made me tear up but I stifled my emotions. I think my goal is to try and open up, I'm not sure if I'm capable of being vulnerable. I don't know if I should go back because I got the impression she was uncomfortable or scared of me. Maybe I had the wrong reactions to things or she thinks this is too complex for her.
Looking at Swatches from my birth year
This dealer would text me asking if I was okay, it makes me wonder if I was the guinea pig for a new blend. Idk if I should buy from him again or go with the other guy who puts too much speed in it.
I dunno what I dreamt about but I woke up feeling different. Idk what I want to talk about with the counsellor tomorrow.
What I'm gonna talk about with the counsellor tomorrow. My old psychologist told me I don't need therapy, I think because I couldn't open up to her. I don't want that to happen again.
2023-03-12 at 7:34 PM UTC
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what u having for supper?
If I feel like cooking, Romanian potatoes. If not, waffles.
2023-03-12 at 7:19 PM UTC
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Psychic Abilities
Why are you using my ex-boyfriends picture as your DP? Do you want to be him?
2023-03-12 at 7:13 PM UTC
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Psychic Abilities
It said there were 500 passengers before.
"I can only find information about the number of passenger seats on one of the trains that I mentioned earlier. The Malbone Street Wreck in New York City in 1918 involved a wooden-bodied train with five cars that could seat about 200 passengers1. However, there were about 650 passengers on board at the time of the crash12, which means that many people were standing or squeezed into the cars. This made it harder for them to escape or survive when the train derailed and crashed under Malbone Street."
2023-03-12 at 7:05 PM UTC
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Psychic Abilities
I might have worded the question wrong:
"That’s a challenging task, but I’ll try my best. Here are some examples of historical train crashes and the number of people on board compared to a regular day when there was no crash:
The Malbone Street Wreck in New York City in 1918 killed 102 people and injured 250 out of about 500 passengers on board1. A regular day on the Brooklyn Rapid Transit system would have seen about 1.5 million passengers1.
The Great Train Wreck of 1918 in Nashville, Tennessee killed 101 people and injured 171 out of about 400 passengers on board1. A regular day on the Nashville, Chattanooga and St. Louis Railway would have seen about 10,000 passengers2.
The Ashtabula River Railroad Disaster in Ohio in 1876 killed 98 people and injured 64 out of about 160 passengers on board1. A regular day on the Lake Shore and Michigan Southern Railway would have seen about 20,000 passengers3.
The Greece Train Crash near Thessaloniki in March this year killed at least 57 people and injured more than 100 out of about 350 passengers on board4. A regular day on the TrainOSE network would have seen about 50,000 passengers5.
As you can see, these examples show that there were fewer people on board trains that crashed than on a regular day when there was no crash. However, this does not necessarily mean that people knew or predicted that these trains were destined to crash. It could be due to other factors such as time of day, seasonality, demand, availability or randomness."
So mad I missed the Northern Lights here. I kinda wanna go to Norway now.
No blood today. I thought I was on the brink but have my appetite back and didn't sleep all day.
2023-03-12 at 12:59 AM UTC
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Psychic Abilities
Thousands of years of testimony can't be ignored.
