It's to remember my pedo uncle who died. That's why they're meeting.
Idk where to start today, there's a list of things. I'm avoiding a family get-together where 4/7 people want to see me in a psych ward and my autistic cousin who wants to marry me will be there.
I feel a lot better now, I'm awake and at my desk. Idk what happened it started on Wednesday, no energy, slept day and night and throwing up.
I made it to the shop, got water etc and feel better now. Idk what to watch on Netflix, I'm looking for something cheerful.
That even if I made it to the shop I could collapse in store. I need bottled water and have had the minimum the past few days. I feel warm and it's cold out.
I don't think I can get to the shop, feel sleepy again.
I can't wait for this tbh, sometimes in my dreams I try to take photos.
Hope I'm not psycho later because I took fluoxetine. I might listen to hypnosis to control my emotions, it could keep me out of a ward.
I'm thinking about what clothes I'll die in. If I didn't have autism or sensory issues it would probably be something dramatic. I don't really want to die in my dad's grey sweatshirt and black leggings but I know it's most comfortable.
Keep forgetting to take the fish oil ones.
Waiting for the shop to open to get monster. I've had no strength to the past few days sp hopefully today.
Disoriented and like I'm dying
Sort of back to the land of the living. I'm still bedridden, it's the loss of blood and dehydration for two days. I'm trying to eat and watch Netflix now.
The time an Airbnb host left a bad review about me saying I was very messy. I left the room the way it was so idk if he had a thing against white girls or a secret camera in the room. I was peeling hospital stickers off my body, doing coke and self-harmed.
I'm sick, have been in and out of sleep since last night and am throwing up water, I can't eat. I had a virtual course today that cost over a grand, like a 7 hour lecture but I slept through it. His voice was soothing, I have an ebook to read about it myself and still managed to earn a certificate on my worst day.
I still have a Scooby Doo magnifying glass. I'm more interested in ghost-hunting and trespassing than spying now.
