There's something pretentious about backpackers.
I don't really like meeting people in hostels anymore, it's always the same boring conversations.
OK I do feel at home at home, but the UK is backwards and has less freedoms. That's why I'm so relieved to be away.
Ig there's my dad's village but I'll never try to interact with people at home. I don't want to join some running club and don't find anyone attractive.
I feel like I don't belong anywhere.
Ig I could live here if it was isolated in the countryside. I can't deal with the stares.
I've wanted to move abroad either to Germany or here. I'm not sure now, if I'll ever feel at home here even though it does seem better for my mental health. Maybe I'll try Romania.
I haven't had anything today just vodka and just finished reading my book. Was it just a few truffles that did this?
Even though I'm all over the place rn with underlying anxiety, the brain fog has lifted so I consider myself better now.
Glad I stayed in to write in my notebook. I haven't registered my feelings at all since I got here but just wrote five pages.
I think coming here was the right choice, that the truffles helped my brain.
Wondering how much food waste would be avoided if restaurant chains had physical representations of the portion size.
I've already had a vodka.
I befriended an American couple, managed to crack them up but idk if I'll be too off to drink w them tonight.
Ig I'm more comfortable venting here because you're all mental so idc what you think. When I left my anxiety flared up in other communities.
Today I remembered I have exams next month. They didn't cross my mind for two weeks.
I feel like I could lose myself, sometimes I completely forget what I'm doing with my life and need checklists to get through the day.
