Can't believe I'm spending the last day of my vacation looking round graveyards instead of at the beach.
Myers and I found out a few things and are going to look for Sophie's grave now.
I should be enjoying the last of my vacation at the beach or something but instead I'm searching for a body and hanging out in the library like it's Scooby Doo.
I have been crazy before and this isn't it.
I'm gonna see my ex gf one last time.
I won't be in my right mind when I OD in England which is where I'm going after here. It's strange knowing I'm not thinking clearly but that won't stop anything.
Feel like I don't want to buy new clothes again, I'm done evolving and most of my clothes never see the light of day or turn into pyjamas.
Dunno if I should close the window, the noise is kind of comforting me for the first time in my life but if I sleep and my brain hears it all night I could get information overload.
This mattress is so firm, I thought to be safer with medium firmness but I really like this and will look for a new mattress when I get home.
Wow four hours later. I was in a hyper-fixated state that whole time but don't want to get glaucoma so I'm taking a break now. I feel like I'm in a bubble, tuned out the noise so it sounds like whatever I want it to be.
Feel like a mental health crisis is trying to surface but I'm too high.
Strange the majority of people here are average or below looking. Almost as if they have reclining jawlines. Idk how they can be so confident.
Best we can hope for are parallel worlds.
I don't believe in it because some people you want to see in heaven, they may not want to see you. People have to become enlightened to coexist first.
So many people came running from their tables to help, at home there'd be the bystander effect.
Second time sitting outside this place I've seen a crash on the road, third time in the Netherlands
I won't be scared of death because I'll be following my dad. At my cousin's wedding, this man told me that he'd been technically dead three times and said it's easier to go to death than to life.
I don't believe in an afterlife but think there must be a non-place where my dad and Sophie are.