My brain isn't fully awake I can't do all this.
I need to order the Christmas decorations soon because they could take weeks to get here.
I need to take my health tonic, do my nails, clean four rooms. Take these eyelashes off somehow. Get a few hours of sleep.
Tonight I need to capture Akira to get her measurements so I can buy her a Christmas dress. Buy vodka. Shower. Review the Christmas decorations I'm thinking of buying. Sort out my clothes which will take hours. Listen to hypnosis to chill out. Study so I don't feel anxiety about going a day without doing that. Block some people. Make a hairdressers appointment. Set out outfit for tomorrow. Clear my head somehow. Cancel DisneyPlus because the kardashians is killing my braincells.
I can't get a delivery tonight so have to go to the shop for vodka. Idk I'm stuck between deadlines and then physical things like all the clothes I have to clean for the Christmas dinner I'm hosting. I'm giving my beloved clothes to a charity shop because there's too many.
Literally all I've done today is sent an email, took my clothes out of the washing machine and purchased things. There is too much to do and I'm shutting down. Too much stress.
Dunno what to do to wind down.
2023-11-28 at 3:03 PM UTC
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Idk what this is
I'm not letting anyone back into my life just because it's the holidays. I'm done with him for good.
2023-11-28 at 2:53 PM UTC
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Idk what this is
When he tried being affectionate with me it disturbed me because I knew it wasn't him. Some girls think it's real.
2023-11-28 at 2:49 PM UTC
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Idc what Mik does. Ik he sees girls irl and teenagers sometimes but they're petty like that and he has to fake empathy with them so ig he'll alway miss me. He's a psychopath.
There was a string of glue in my eye it's better now. Now Akira's in I have to be vigilant for her scratching paint off the doors and searching the rubbish for my salmon breakfast.
Go straight back to shopping to see if I can get vodka delivered sighs.
I'm just not going to shop for six hours or do anything until I can see properly.
And these false eyelashes I can't remove are obstructing my vision I can't do this.
There's so much to organise and now I'm sucked into Aliexpress because I've found most of my Amazon basket there and have gone down the rabbit hole searching for cat kimonos and beds.
I think I'm stressed about Christmas shopping. I had a vision in mind for the decorations but now I'm unsure, and since I'll be alone I want to host dinner for the first time, something I've never done and is a rite of passage as an adult. I've never cooked a Christmas dinner.
I had three hours of sleep with the cat on my chest, woke me up, dreamt about the post office in Paris I was in, same situation except I understood the language and replied in it. They asked when I'd like it delivered, I said tomorrow then they smirked. What really happened is I had no idea what they said, I put my letter in the postbox and they acted like I wasn't supposed to then said nevermind. Maybe the post box was ornamental? The letter was never delivered.
