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2022-05-10 at 1:47 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?No, ffs, well maybe.
i don't care
gofundme? meh.
i'd say, not necessary.
it won't solve anything, seems debasing and more about the donors wanting to feel like they did "a good deed" (really they just gave away money) than actually helping much, and of course would be like taking a crowbar and opening up that wound so it could swallow up the tears and tolls extracted of a thousand mundanes, till i am actually thinking about it, talking about it and dwelling on it all the time. why....
calling attention to me too. nah. no thanks. -
2022-05-10 at 1:34 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by WellHung What problems have u been encountering, lately?
hard to open the coffee canister.
Dude, i'm so going to turn this gruesome and debilitating injury, as you mentioned, painful reminders of twitching nerves and sensitive stubs of a night of drunken self neglect into a goddamn experience and triumph of what i would call '33' insight.
heh, really, i got handed a whole livelihood here. -
2022-05-10 at 1:31 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by WellHung But there's a big difference betweem your hands and the mansion and 2 million bucks. The first you had and lost, the 2nd u never had to begin with. So u don't know any better.
Exactly I had them and now don't. see, things are more difficult, other than some jokes that wouldn't possible without the injury, but if i encounter a problem the thought isn't "geeee i wish i had my digits" it "whats the solution to this particular problem" -
2022-05-10 at 1:27 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by WellHung You have plenty of regrets about that night. You wish you could go back in time, because it was entirely preventable on ur part. It's not like you got attacked. You simply passed out drunk outside when it was way too cold to do so. You weren't dressed properly for the conditions, either. The frostbite was 100 percent due to your negligence. That is what stings. You didn't take Mother Nature seriously enuff. Mom don't like that.
You know who thinks about my hands and comes up with scenarios of regret and ideas on what didn't happen? You. Me? I bought an obsidian sphere, and the lady gifted me 2 amethyst crystals with it, been reading about cue sports and there history. and practicing cartomancy. Thinking about how my staff will look when i'm done creating it and whether to hold off calling it done, when a bit more refined and colored. or if i should hunt down some hard to find elements.(feathers, snake rattle,Talon)
an injury suffered in febuary? not so much. -
2022-05-10 at 12:37 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by Sophie Your positive attitude is impressive. If i lost my fingers i'd be pretty fucking depressed.
Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way. -
2022-05-08 at 4:54 PM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?55555
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2022-05-08 at 4:40 PM UTC in Military Genius Zelensky wants Ukrainians to throw molotovs at Russian tanks
Originally posted by Donald Trump Meanwhile Russians have been forced to do without their favorite fonts due to the crippling sanctions.
https://tass.ru/ekonomika/14377529
im imagining everything in comic sans now -
2022-05-08 at 6:16 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?I don't worship jesus, The Creator to me is unfathomable, but i regard Him as a storyteller. some entity punished me tho, either it was their job or i offended with my obviously malicious sorcery, their sensibilities.
i dunno. whatever. -
2022-05-08 at 6:05 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?lol i could probably still manage to make my bongs lol, would need a dremel and not a drill tho.
well i feel like i would have lost them anyway, my fingers, whatever the circumstances that led to them being taken. i was the uhh asshole performing black magic and actually took this as a punishment. needed my fingers for that particular hex. was attempting to take energy or souls, cursing all passers by from an overpass....
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2022-05-08 at 5:32 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?at that point just upload me to the ommnissiah physical ticky tocky? barbaric and absurd.
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2022-05-08 at 5:31 AM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionalright, got a plant, hung from the ceiling in front of the window(duh)
Got a coffee maker n well coffee, creamer and sugar.
found a table in the alley thats a perfect fit for my space which was nice.
stole 2 packs of cards today, and bought 1. 1 shitty pack from dollarama and 1 nice Bee set from shoppers, dunno why i lifted them tbh, was a whim.
i really love this plant tbh.
i also measured my erect penis, something i never bothered with. 7"s -
2022-05-08 at 5:25 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by Nile i'd rather talk to a medicine man, if i decided to seek out help. besides the weird demonic shit that manifests, i do get signs from the Creator, in small blessings and such. an example i needed Toilet Paper of all things after i moved into that shitty room i rented, walking through a wooded area the same night i came upon a pristine roll outside. in a really out of the way spot.
The demonic bullshit that occurs tho, much more powerful. But i consider it a sort of sign that this world is a low place, and it's just easier for those forces to influence outcomes on this plane. The trick is to persevere, Do right, Speak True and die proud, cuz they will seek to destroy you for those traits.
to elaborate on finding stuff.... i wanted to rake my grove went for a walk, found a rake.
i wanted a laundry basket, go for a stroll... find a perfect basket for the purpose.
I literally was wanting a low table, like a foot high, find a 2'x2' 1 foot high table in the alley a street up from my abode as i got back from walmart today. so fucking weird lol. i dont even understand why such a low table would be made tbh it's kinda awesome for me but im kinda chilling on a folded sponge with me bison hide and blankets over it. -
2022-05-08 at 5:01 AM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?
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2022-05-08 at 4:58 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?eh, most people feel worse about it than i do, but im pretty dead inside i guess. just my new reality and although some things are more difficult or take longer, i dunno it's not world ending, i spend most of my time observing, reading and thinking. I'm not gonna lie and say it's all ok and i get along with my destroyed hands just fine but for the most part.... im fine.
and i'm not getting my hopes of for prostetics, stem cell regrowth or transplants. it happened to hold out forlorn hopes of being healed? seems sadder to me. -
2022-05-07 at 5:26 PM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by aldra like what?
Honestly, Gematria, Demonology, Astrology, Tarot/card divination/cardomancy, look into different traditions, read up on religious texts. read up on different symbolic systems, color associations. Perhaps speak with a medicine man of my own tribe.
Think about magic as well, from say basic to more complex forms, not so much dealing with it from a supernatural stance but exploring it's relation to perception and "reality". in this sense to me teling a lie would be a form of magic, also creating an economic system like marx would fit as well in a higher order.
these days tho, i would really like to dig deeper into to veiled aspects of reality, taking in information from many traditions to get a better grasp of this shit, cuz i do believe there are higher power(s) playing games in this realm.
Basically i want to become a Spooky Magi, and actually believe it's possible, as i've had odd experiences convince me there's much to learn and gain by pursuing this path I'm going to do that. I think ill focus on trying to manifest beneficial effects than divination, and trying to see if i can discover the means by which these other (much better trained i guess?) Magi drive people insane/ruin there lives.
I guess i could uuhhh look to heal and cast off such things but meh.
I've had some great and informative chats with religious people but once you start talking about trying to connect with daemons, divination and such they not only stop the discussion almost get hostile. like i feel like this is some shit i gotta keep to myself, or i dunno the fucking inquisition will come out of the blue. -
2022-05-07 at 4:55 PM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by Speedy Parker What a waste of a life
How so? it sucks but for the most part in modern day society it's not a huge draw back. like i wouldnt recommend losing your fingers in a drunken/methed up state but really unless ones in a very menial position(like you i imagine), most jobs are at a desk, on a phone or using a computer. which i can do i would just rather take government $$(it spends just the same) than work at all because everything seems like bullshit to me and i'd rather read, enjoy the nice days when they come and live in leisure. as well as spend my time pursuing occult knowledge and getting high.
anyway my life isn't over yet, and honestly if you had to put up with the shit i do you would probably be in a mental institution or a broken husk of a man, being literally enslaved by dark powers. -
2022-05-07 at 4:25 AM UTC in Paper Tiger
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2022-05-07 at 4:11 AM UTC in Paper Tigerman the west is so going to steam roll the east this century in an orgy of blood and rape, 1 world under 1 power.
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2022-05-07 at 4:05 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?Edmonton. Capital of Alberta. a city of immigrants, less than 125 years old, a million in population. An odd place for sure.
North side. -
2022-05-07 at 4 AM UTC in fuck sakeno rice wine then?