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Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
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2022-05-10 at 12:31 AM UTC
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2022-05-10 at 12:31 AM UTCYou should look into The Royal Family of The Kingdom of the Netherlands. There are a couple of interesting NWO connections.
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2022-05-10 at 12:32 AM UTC
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2022-05-10 at 12:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie Your positive attitude is impressive. If i lost my fingers i'd be pretty fucking depressed.
Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way. -
2022-05-10 at 12:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by Nile Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way.
I don't really go like "if only X" well maybe on rare occasions, my issue is that i do tend to dwell on negative shit. And the more i dwell the worse i feel. And the more upset about something i am the more important it seems to think about. Repeat ad infinitum. Unless i actively stop myself. IDK if it's part of my personality, BPD or both. All i know is that it sucks, and i am probably retarded.
Oh well. -
2022-05-10 at 12:56 AM UTCIt's when your dick freezes solid and breaks off that you really need to start worrying.
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2022-05-10 at 12:58 AM UTC
Originally posted by Nile Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way.
You have plenty of regrets about that night. You wish you could go back in time, because it was entirely preventable on ur part. It's not like you got attacked. You simply passed out drunk outside when it was way too cold to do so. You weren't dressed properly for the conditions, either. The frostbite was 100 percent due to your negligence. That is what stings. You didn't take Mother Nature seriously enuff. Mom don't like that. -
2022-05-10 at 1 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie I don't really go like "if only X" well maybe on rare occasions, my issue is that i do tend to dwell on negative shit. And the more i dwell the worse i feel. And the more upset about something i am the more important it seems to think about. Repeat ad infinitum. Unless i actively stop myself. IDK if it's part of my personality, BPD or both. All i know is that it sucks, and i am probably retarded.
Oh well.
You don't seem too concerned about the fucking fact that he has no fucking hands. Way to show compassion & sympathy, bro. -
2022-05-10 at 1:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by Nile Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way.
they're gone and you can't get them back, so what are you going to do, cry and stump-blast your asshole?
accepting it is the only reasonable response -
2022-05-10 at 1:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by Nile Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way.
But there's a big difference betweem your hands and the mansion and 2 million bucks. The first you had and lost, the 2nd u never had to begin with. So u don't know any better. -
2022-05-10 at 1:08 AM UTC
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2022-05-10 at 1:10 AM UTCvery poorly
I'm a lot more afraid of getting crippled than dying -
2022-05-10 at 1:12 AM UTCCOVID doesn't exist.
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2022-05-10 at 1:13 AM UTCok
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2022-05-10 at 1:14 AM UTC
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2022-05-10 at 1:16 AM UTCnever actually broken a bone, weirdly enough considering the dumb shit I've done
mostly cuts and burns, couple of hairline fractures that didn't need treatment, concussions and stuff -
2022-05-10 at 1:25 AM UTC
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2022-05-10 at 1:26 AM UTCCOVID isn't real
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2022-05-10 at 1:27 AM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung You have plenty of regrets about that night. You wish you could go back in time, because it was entirely preventable on ur part. It's not like you got attacked. You simply passed out drunk outside when it was way too cold to do so. You weren't dressed properly for the conditions, either. The frostbite was 100 percent due to your negligence. That is what stings. You didn't take Mother Nature seriously enuff. Mom don't like that.
You know who thinks about my hands and comes up with scenarios of regret and ideas on what didn't happen? You. Me? I bought an obsidian sphere, and the lady gifted me 2 amethyst crystals with it, been reading about cue sports and there history. and practicing cartomancy. Thinking about how my staff will look when i'm done creating it and whether to hold off calling it done, when a bit more refined and colored. or if i should hunt down some hard to find elements.(feathers, snake rattle,Talon)
an injury suffered in febuary? not so much. -
2022-05-10 at 1:29 AM UTCCOVID is fake