Posts by Lanny

2015-10-27 at 5:56 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

Lanny Bird of Courage

@ Lanny. I wasn't serious, although family issues did cross my mind as being the cause of you feeling "off", your father's health problems.

My father's health problems. Did I mention that somewhere or do you know about that some other way? I know you know my name at least and I've put out enough information about myself here that it shouldn't be that difficult to identify me but I don't know how you'd be able to find out the particulars of my father's condition unless you knew me or my family. If that is a guess then impressive, my dad was hospitalized recently with a poor prognosis. I'm kinda fucked up over it and hate the whole social ritual of condolences so I avoid talking about it but either way, that was either an impressive guess or good stalking skills.

Your viewpoint is terrifying to me. It's good that you have made your peace with the world and found happiness, I just don't think I could ever be satisfied with that or accept it, even if continues to drive me toward self-destruction; I wasn't completely joking when I said that I hoped psychedelics would at least allow me to come to terms with and accept death.

Have you considered taking a hefty dose of a psychedelic while putting benzos or anything to abort the trip out of reach? Like going into the experience without a way jump out before the most intense part. I've sure you're aware of the research around psychedelics and dealing with death, how it helps terminal patients come to terms with their mortality, and that despite the subjective fear or anxiety there's no real physiological risk, even during really bad trips. I've had a couple of terrifying experiences but I don't imagine they're even that much worse than your day to day according to how you describe it. It's like jumping off a diving board for the first time: it's scary but once you commit to it without a way of turning back it's a really rewarding experience.

ok its on its way.

Really do be weary of the alcohol combo effect. I mention it because you talked about almost getting a DUI earlier. It will put you on your ass if your not looking out for it, most people have a really good feel for how drunk a given amount of alcohol will get them but your intuition goes out the window with the potentiation.

2015-10-27 at 3:50 AM UTC in Punk and Punk SubGenres

Lanny Bird of Courage

Fuck the Sex Pistols. Less Than Jake, Rancid, Choking Victim, bands like that are my favorites.

CV is a classic. I assume you've listened to Leftover Crack and Starfucking Hipsters?

I have mixed feelings about third wave ska/ska punk ala Less Than Jake. Some great hooks although the fanbase can be unabashed douchebags (not that that's a reason to dislike the music, but I still think it borders on being too poppy (as an aside I once basically memorized the lyrics to every aquabats song to move in with a girl (as a roommate) and subsequently get in her pants)), BUT my favorite pick from that genre is Planet Smashers:

2015-10-27 at 3:22 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

Lanny Bird of Courage

Good, good, you're progressing as planned. Taking psychedelics isn't as simple as you may have assumed, there are things I didn't tell you and you're going to find you will get much more than you bargained for. Think about the psychonaut community, how large it is, how many discussions there have been, people with years of experience, regular use. Don't you think people may have noticed general patterns, things that tend to occur in a person's life after a period of time/eventually, a general sort of progression/development among regular psychedelic users, at least the kind that don't use them like idiots?

Certainly not as simple as I had assumed before trying them, to a degree I thought it was just going to be seeing funny things, which of course isn't the case. But I think you're overthinking it. I've been feeling off because of family issues, not drugs. I'm interested in what you were thinking though. If you thought I was going to be driven off the rails by psychedelic induced disillusionment then you're mistaken, unlike the weak minded I don't see the profound and recoil from the mundane as false or sub-real. I play the game because I love it, no level of transcendent revelation will inspire me to move out to a farm and live in filth to be closer to the earth, the psychedelic experience has made sacred rather than profane the human struggle, "being a cog" doesn't terrify me, in fact wholehearted participation in our society is the truest lived realization of ego dissolution. I want to be a cog, the best possible cog I can be. The hippy nigger who drops some acid and goes to live as a hermit, alone, misses the point. Transcending the organism means being the machine, driving forward this incredible lumbering inconceivably intricate system which is our species, our planet, this bizarre force that seems to resist local entropy. Just as our identity, our separateness, is stripped from us at the peak of the psychedelic experience so is the authentic human's self interest, uniqueness, existence-beyond-function lost in the most intimate moments of living. Have you ever been so focused on something, so absorbed that the subject of your focus become the sole object of your consciousness? Like that feeling when you put down a book you've been reading furiously, or turn off a video game you've played for hours without breaking away from, the awkwardness of being in your own flesh again rather than that of what you were focusing on. That's what I'm here for, unity with another, with the rest, not through some contrived cosmology but through dedication and participation in the super-human being that is social structure. When you exist only as a means to an end then you're forced to ask yourself why, why is the end justified? If you, the organism, is totally consumed in the means then the end must, fundamentally, transcend the organism. This is what I feel when I'm fully absorbed in programming, I stop mattering, the flesh is sustained only because it's necessary to satisfy the ends, the self becomes nothing more than the implement by which discovery, absolution, creation is made possible. It's as though you die, or never lived, there is no you. Perception in the absence of the perceiver, action in the absence of the actor, one becomes pure animus, a force so powerful and unstoppable that the laws of nature bend to the inevitable process. It's bliss and agony and everything else in the palm of your hand and totally unstoppable. If a person is looking for something greater than themselves they don't need to invoke the supernatural, we need only look a the way selves, people, can organize themselves, bind themselves together through mutual agreement, to find something tremendously, definitionally, greater than ourselves.

Don't get the wrong idea, that isn't all it may do. It has multiple positive effects, mainly anxiolysis, but if you read reports of people's experiences with it it can be a very distinct drug not quite like anything they've tried before, one of the most enjoyable experiences they've ever had.

Also it potentiates alcohol quite impressively for what that's worth.

2015-10-27 at 2:36 AM UTC in Syme was literally the singular sympathetic character in 1984

Lanny Bird of Courage

Not that anyone needs my blessing but do whatever you want ITT. I have the intellectual capacity to ignore posts I don't find interesting, I would hope the rest of you do too. If anyone wants to talk about 1984 then that's what we'll do, if you want to do something else then go for it. I could give a shit if you don't want to talk about 1984, I think it's dull too.

1984 is a simple book about a beautiful, all consuming love consummated in a park and the womans harsh, overbearing father in a world that doesn't understand their love.

Shitty kinda love if he sells her out in the end. I also feel like a lot more time was spent on the villainy of a totalitarian government than any meaninful love story. In fact Winston himself describes the whole affair as more titillating as a form of rebellion than as anything resembling a healthy or meaningful relationship.

1984 was interesting a while ago. I literally read it a decade and a half ago and think it should be taught in elementary schools. There are really many themes which are quite freakishly accurate it's quite surprising orwell wasn't more heavily involved in the callousness of bureaucracy. Many of the topics are still prevalent (the need for an enemy, surveillance, rewriting of history etc.) but I didn't relate to any of the characters or feel sympathy for them because of Autism.

If some jerkoff wrote a book about how important a good typing speed is 50 years ago they would have made an accurate prediction, that doesn't mean we should be forcing typewriter fanfic on children and calling it world class literature.

2015-10-26 at 5:21 PM UTC in Syme was literally the singular sympathetic character in 1984

Lanny Bird of Courage

There have been numerous studies done on the effects of power and authority.The Stanford prison experiment is the most famous one, although severely flawed. There's also a large pool of literature on political incentive and the dynamics involved.

Of course, he didn't go into that.

Right, that research definitely exists and I'll even go so far as to say it has real and damaging (although not fatal) implications for certain political theories that advocate centralized power. But like you said, Orwell didn't investigate these. And I'm not saying it's an author's role to go read scientific journals and turn it into a novel, but it is an author's job to present give us insight rather than feed us details of an imaginary world (at least when you're writing a book like 1984). Like On Walden Pond does a minimum of investigating, we're given only details we either know or could trivially discover in our yards yet it does manage to investigate something about the human condition and our place in the world, it forms an argument, in one way or another, for the author's point of view.

2015-10-26 at 7:26 AM UTC in Punk and Punk SubGenres

Lanny Bird of Courage

Revival-era emo has always been my prefered brand of punk/post-punk. Snowing, TWIABP, Marietta (personal favorite).

I made a thread about talking heads lately, I know they're not really punk in the purest sense but they more punk (the kind of punk I give a shit about) than the fucking sex pistols, that's for sure.

2015-10-26 at 5:37 AM UTC in Do rainbows exist objectively?

Lanny Bird of Courage

Colour doesn't exist - at least not in the literal sense. Light, however, does exist, and it's the mind that transforms that light into colour. In this image the two squares appear to be a different colour, but if you place your finger across the middle of the blocks you can see they are the same colour.

What do you think "literally existing" even means? What does it mean for something to exist in a literal sense? This is not supposed a platitude or point out some intractable ambiguity, I ask you because your account of what "exists" will have to tell us why things like light, something totally imperceptible directly and ambitious on a quantum level, is real while things like color, a property of light, which is widely experienced and corroborated, somehow does not exist. If light exists, and it has properties (wavelength aka color) how is it real and it's properties are somehow unreal?

2015-10-26 at 4:33 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

Lanny Bird of Courage

Been in a weird headspace for the last... few weeks I guess. Probably shouldn't have but I took some 4-AcO-DMT. 10mg thinking it would be a very low dose (still seems like it shouldn't have been very strong). I was pretty anxious at first, came on stronger and faster than I was expecting, but then I went outside and just started wondering around. Surprisingly it was actually a lot of fun, I just walked around looking for high points where I could see the city and stuff. There are some nice neighborhoods that are hard to get to in the heart of the city with some really nice little parks and shit. Sorta came to (although I was perfectly lucid for the whole experience) two hours later and on the other side of the city. Finding my way back was kind of an adventure. I've never really done that before. Fun way to spend an afternoon at least, might have to try it again. Just hope I don't get arrested for being a bum in nice neighborhoods or something, would be awkward to explain.

2015-10-25 at 6:29 PM UTC in Trying to make lofi indie pop

Lanny Bird of Courage

hey, hey, try doing some jordaan mason covers

2015-10-25 at 6:27 PM UTC in Sophie is taking applicants for the position of e-girlfriend.

Lanny Bird of Courage

2015-10-25 at 6:26 PM UTC in I expressed a moderate opinion last night and got called far right (irl)

Lanny Bird of Courage

This world has shifted so far to the left that moderate now appears far right.

Hahah, typical right reactionism. You say literally the exact opposite of the truth in order to make your own extremist position appear moderate.

2015-10-25 at 6:06 PM UTC in Do rainbows exist objectively?

Lanny Bird of Courage

You just don't get it Lanny.

Colours only exist in your head.

Demonstrate to me that "colours only exist in your head".

2015-10-25 at 6:03 PM UTC in Syme was literally the singular sympathetic character in 1984

Lanny Bird of Courage

I actually think Animal Farm was his best work. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. Yadayadayada.

IDK, animal farm seems even more condescending than 1984, going so far as to dress up a piss simple moral in the trappings of a child's parable (talking animals and shit). But "Absolute power corrupts absolutely" is kind of what I'm talking about, it's not an idea that's actually investigated in either book, it's just a floating assumption that we see Orwell fumble his way through paying out. Why does power corrupt? We're never given an answer, not even the usual platitude of "greed is endemic to the human condition". Like maybe animal farm carries the additional message that revolution/social change is futile but again, there is no meaningful question posed or answer given. I'm left at the end of all of Orwell's fiction asking "why?". Like I could write a story where on day one everyone is living free and happy in libertarian paradise, but then they start killing and raping each other because they're greedy or something and then write a few hundred pages of all the terrible things these fictional characters do to each other and end with them all existing forever in unimaginable suffering. Would that novel be profound? Would it be considered a worthwhile polemic? I sure hope not.

2015-10-25 at 5:45 PM UTC in why is being gay, schizophrenic, autistic such a tend these days?

Lanny Bird of Courage

Being gay is a trend because the obvious and self-evident truth of homosexual superiority, thinking folks don't want to be associated with the cis-proles that are responsible for everything wrong with the world.

2015-10-25 at 5:40 PM UTC in Do rainbows exist objectively?

Lanny Bird of Courage

No, rainbows do not exist. Review my debate on debate.org. Colors only exist in our minds, therefore it's impossible for a arch of colors to exist in reality. Cameras capture light of different frequencies and create a image that transmits those same frequencies. It takes an eye and a mind to convert those light waves into color.

That's pretty retarded bro. When someone says "oh look, a rainbow" they don't mean "oh look, there's the mind-independent externalized perception of color!". In the world where everyone is colorblind red and blue objects still have different colors, direct perception isn't required for existence (unless you're some some kind of nutty cunt like Berkeley). In fact your position boils down to solipsism: if a thing requiring integration to be perceived means it's subjective, and all of our senses require integration, then you have to deny access to objectivity altogether and you can't even make a statement about the objectivity of subjectivity of rainbows since such a claim would itself require objectivity. Your position is self defeating, the best you could do is argue for rainbow agnosticism which is pretty faggy if I do say so myself.

2015-10-25 at 3:59 AM UTC in Talking Heads are Underrated

Lanny Bird of Courage

They were fucking great, and I usually hate music from that era. I think they were maligned by their genre ambiguity, failing as both funk and punk they kinda got rolled into "new wave" which deserves its reputation as being faggy but I'd argue talking heads were either the exception or misclassified. Remain in Light, in particular, is a masterpiece. People tend to get distracted by the (admittedly killer) hooks and the singles like Once in a Lifetime but look at tracks like Born Under Punches or Houses in Motion which have a real sense of musicality, song structures which remain interesting and innovative even 30 years later. The alternating phases of almost stifling density and sparse, almost transcendent mellody make for a really interesting, stimulating listening experience.

2015-10-25 at 3:42 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

Lanny Bird of Courage

How often do you use etizolam? If it's irregularly the amount you bought could last you a decade.

Pretty infrequently. Once a week tops, I don't have any real problem with anxiety so it's mostly just a sleep aid or a way to chill out if I'm feeling stressed (not that I experience stress very often). The plan is to stockpile, although god help me if I do manage to become dependent, even with heavy usage it will be a good while before I run out.

2015-10-25 at 1:33 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

Lanny Bird of Courage

So I got around to making etizolam solution from powder I got recently, took what should be 3mg worth and it put me on my ass. Mild intoxication for a few minutes, thought I'd lay down and watch something, fell asleep within seconds and woke up 7 hours later. I'm not sure if I fucked up when measuring (I don't know how, hardly rocket science) or if the etiz I had in the past was weak. Woke up feeling pretty great though, so that's good.

2015-10-24 at 4:06 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

Lanny Bird of Courage

Yea it was chemically. I knew as soon as I got a decent hit it wasn't heroin. I was gutted, I was looking forward to getting high as fuck.

free meth ain't too bad mang

2015-10-24 at 3:24 AM UTC in Vizier is Dead!

Lanny Bird of Courage

News corporations are in it for the profit, and so they are constantly sensationalize things, constantly putting out bogus numbers and bogus data to "support" the sensationalizing, and you basically can't believe a thing them and their paid lapdogs have to report.

I'm sure our old friend The Vizier will be just fine.

I like how you get all pedantic about using people's old handles or bringing up meaningless points of site history like it lends you an air of credibility.

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