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The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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2015-08-01 at 5:41 AM UTC
The few times I've been in a situation I literally couldn't do anything else I'd start doing things to hurt myself just to break the lack of sensation.
There was actually a study done where people where left in an empty room alone with their thoughts, except for a machine to shock themselves with, and people actually started doing it pretty quickly just to alleviate boredom.
Here it is: http://news.sciencemag.org/brain-beh...their-thoughts
Kind of amusing, and it seems your behavior isn't too abnormal.
Hearing your philosophy on pharmacological enhancement/augmentation and knowing that I helped plant the seed in you makes me feel pleased. -
2015-08-01 at 8:37 AM UTC
There was actually a study done where people where left in an empty room alone with their thoughts, except for a machine to shock themselves with, and people actually started doing it pretty quickly just to alleviate boredom.
Here it is: http://news.sciencemag.org/brain-beh...their-thoughts
Kind of amusing, and it seems your behavior isn't too abnormal.
Yeah, I think there's positive selection pressure for ADD-like qualities. In a world where the vast majority of the best professions fall under the "knowledge worker" umbrella you can choose it makes sense that abhorrence of non-novel activity is becoming more prevalent.Hearing your philosophy on pharmacological enhancement/augmentation and knowing that I helped plant the seed in you makes me feel pleased.
Take solace blood, whatever becomes of you, at least you participated in the creation of ubermensch, the being so perfectly torn between self indulgence and neurrotic self restraint that nothing but the raw, unadulterated reality is present and all that is left is pure truth. Even if you perish beneath the weight of your sorrows you participated in the birth a future for our people...
nah jk, I'm just some rando drunken programmer. -
2015-08-01 at 2:51 PM UTC60 days sober, I'm actually doing it.
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2015-08-01 at 7:28 PM UTC
60 days sober, I'm actually doing it.
this is me
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2015-08-01 at 7:51 PM UTC
this is me
hah
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2015-08-01 at 9:58 PM UTC
Have you tried them in low or "non-recreational" (scare quotes because they can still be fun) doses? I think for people with a need for constant engagement, stimulants can correct a sort of anxiousness that many people feel when they're not doing anything in particular. For me sitting still or just laying down is pretty unpleasant, going on for long enough it borders on unbearable. The few times I've been in a situation I literally couldn't do anything else I'd start doing things to hurt myself just to break the lack of sensation. On an appropriate dose of stimulants (not too high) that's not a problem. I can sit quietly and the experience itself is sufficient to keep me content. It's a totally different experience from the muscles-tensed breakneck energy of a high dose (although that's fun too), it's just like the nagging sensation of boredom is removed from everything for a while. I'm not sure if everyone experiences the same thing or you need my particular personality defect to get that response but it feels a lot more like being "fixed" than anything synthetic or unnatural.
Yeah, I usually was dosing pretty low because I worried about my heart (dem heart conditions). But it still felt unnatural. I never got anxious from them save from my one episode of psychosis, though I did always feel a need to do shit. I guess that's part of why I think it feels unnatural. That mental push to just do something, anything is kind of unnerving for me.
Plus liek, I don't want my heart to explode. -
2015-08-02 at 12:23 AM UTC
Yeah, I usually was dosing pretty low because I worried about my heart (dem heart conditions). But it still felt unnatural. I never got anxious from them save from my one episode of psychosis, though I did always feel a need to do shit. I guess that's part of why I think it feels unnatural. That mental push to just do something, anything is kind of unnerving for me.
The mental push is the best part. Using that energy and motivation to accomplish anything. That's the best feeling. -
2015-08-02 at 2:02 AM UTCBlah
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2015-08-02 at 2:54 AM UTCWhat ended up happening to your mother in law? Looked through your recent posts and it doesn't seem you ever told us, thought I may have missed it or forgotten.
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2015-08-02 at 12:37 PM UTC
FO3 late game balance is hilarious. I don't complain though, the feeling of fucking up any humanoid nigga with one shot vs. pumping late-game mobs like death claws and yao guais full of lead and only making a scratch makes the game interesting again after the lull between getting good enough that nothing on the MQ can hurt you but before you hit the level cap.
Lol Yeah, i play both FO3 and new Vegas way too much
i just got raped by a massive pack of yao guais
it was like the game went crazy, there were like 15 of them
this is the first time in years I've gotten killed on that game
i got through like 8 of them and i would have survived but i accidentally backed off a cliff -
2015-08-02 at 2:34 PM UTC
What ended up happening to your mother in law? Looked through your recent posts and it doesn't seem you ever told us, thought I may have missed it or forgotten.
I don't know where I left off buth here goes,
A week from yesterday he got drunk as shit and feel and dislocated her shoulder. Had to take her to ER at 1am after I had taken oxy, k pin prazosin and gaba when i went to slep at 11. Get in the car and the fucking low tire presure light is on. Get her to er and go to find somewhere to air up tire and noluck. drive home 15 miles on an essentially flat tire. Got that replaced the next day.
Doc prescribes her hydro and valium. So she spends first part of last week taking that along with oxy and drinking. I felt OD was emminant but it didn't happen. She ran out of pils friday and called ER telling them she didnt have a ride and needed them to call in pain meds. which of course they said NOPE to. So she laid in bed withdrawing friday and yday. This morning she wanted beer and my girl wouldnt take her so she ended up walking to the store and woke me up at like fucking 9 this morning beating on my window.
In the meantime I chewed my girls ass about her moms rampant drug and alochol abuse. My girl got all mad at me of course. then the next day, friday, my girl took her mom w her to run errands and they got in a huge fight as MIL told my girl that she must be "ratting" her out to me about when she's drinking. So they fought.
TL/DR MIL got a bunch of pills stayed fucked up for a few days and is now going through bad withdrawls. -
2015-08-02 at 2:50 PM UTCwithdrawals from a week of use? she must have been taking them every waking minute
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2015-08-02 at 2:58 PM UTCi feel horrible and have felt that way for 2 weeks
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2015-08-02 at 5 PM UTC
withdrawals from a week of use? she must have been taking them every waking minute
Then still. I'm not a junkie anymore, but i do get a shitload of oxy from time to time and i usually binge right through them for 2 or 3 weeks and even then i only have mild withdrawel for a couple days. -
2015-08-02 at 5:22 PM UTC
Then still. I'm not a junkie anymore, but i do get a shitload of oxy from time to time and i usually binge right through them for 2 or 3 weeks and even then i only have mild withdrawel for a couple days.
I was opiate free for six months, and when started up again, I tried to only do poppy seed washes on the weekends, I would start getting withdrawals later in the week, thursday and friday. It was crazy. -
2015-08-02 at 5:40 PM UTC
I was opiate free for six months, and when started up again, I tried to only do poppy seed washes on the weekends, I would start getting withdrawals later in the week, thursday and friday. It was crazy.
Crazy indeed, also, poppy seed 'tea' tastes like ass. -
2015-08-02 at 6:06 PM UTC
Crazy indeed, also, poppy seed 'tea' tastes like ass.
I actually kind of like it. Tastes like hay. It doesn't keep well, though, and the smell of two day old seed water is fucking repellent.
maybe it's just pavlovian or something; when I taste that flavor of hay and dirt, I know I'm about to get high as fuck.... -
2015-08-02 at 10:04 PM UTC
withdrawals from a week of use? she must have been taking them every waking minute
well she had a wek of oxy th week prior for her "spider bite" (she went to a friends and had a nasty abcess from you know "spiders" -
2015-08-02 at 10:09 PM UTC
well she had a wek of oxy th week prior for her "spider bite" (she went to a friends and had a nasty abcess from you know "spiders"
would be funny to get some naloxone or something, and somehow get her to ingest it, and then laugh at her as she undergoes precipitated withdrawal -
2015-08-03 at 3:16 AM UTCI went to pagan ritual for the first time. One guy, the bf of one of my old college professors (whom I was hoping wouldn't recognise me but she did) invited me to a Satanist thing next week I think I'll give that a pass though. Happy Lammas everyone.
