2015-07-29 at 8:50 PM UTC
Think I got a job! Fucking finally. They have a min of 24/h a week too so no more fucking 16 hour weeks. 75 dollar checks really suck. Goddamn I am good at interviews. There's only one interview for a job I haven't gotten and I'm pretty sure that was because they called my references like they said they were gonna and found out i lied on there (oops). I didn't call back and didn't exactly wanna work there either though. Fuck the food industry, may be great for some, not for me.
2015-07-30 at 1:19 AM UTC
People who say gabapentin potentiates alcohol are full of shit, though logically speaking it should. Every time I preload with a few grams prior to drinking I don't notice any difference.
Should just cop a gram of etizolam off this place for $70 and sprinkle it in my bourbon salt shaker style like I used to do with that phenazepam from San Francisco.
2015-07-30 at 7:07 AM UTC
I think I really understand how the long-term homeless feel, why they end up the way they do and some spend as much time as possible sleeping, lying immobile on a pile of cardboard or newspaper, having become one with the filth. If things had been different I may have ended up like them. I live like someone who has completely given up on life and only stays alive for a chance to see what's at the end of man. I really don't know what it's supposed to feel like to be human, even as a child the world has never felt like and it's always felt like something critical, a profoundly important piece of live, has always been missing.
2015-07-30 at 12:45 PM UTC
Well I'm an official secret shopper now. Do my first shop and audit today. Some little gas station out in the country. the items I have tocheck for being in stock are so redneck. HOtdogs and shit
2015-07-30 at 2:45 PM UTC
Going tomorrow to look at a 2006 Volkswagen Passat because my Subaru is on it's death bed. If I can scrap/sell this shitmobile for $400 I'll be happy, shouldn't be too hard to do since it still runs and the scrap value alone is almost $400.
People are telling me I should strip it down and sell it in parts but I'm too stupid and lazy for that shit.
2015-08-01 at 2:44 AM UTC
The place that was giving me Crouton for writing articles about Crouton, just offered to send me free extracts and enhanced leaf products if I write detailed, 'honest' reviews about the products. Fuck yeah: free pseudo-opiates, well almost free; I just have to slap a keyboard around for five minutes. I bet it won't last too long, though, because this place has ripoff prices, and I won't be able to refrain from talking shit. I just looked back at what I typed and came to one conclusion: I need to type 'fuck yeah' followed by a colon more often.
Apparently Crouton is a growth industry, I saw a vendor who started as an employee of another Crouton company, break off and start a company that is so swamped with orders, it sells out of its considerable stock in days, and never has the good strains. But there is a risk in bringing it through customs or something, it gets held up sometimes, which screws the vendor over.
2015-08-01 at 3:17 AM UTC
Shopping with a little buzz and some 2-fma is funnnn. Came home and realized I needed to go shopping, so I make my shopping list (on the off chance any of you niggers like cooking, pepperplate is great for keeping a hold of recipes and doing shopping) and have a few drinks in the process and by the time I'm ready to go all I want to do is veg out with my computer and I have to walk like 7 blocks up a hill to my grocery store so I take a little 2-fma to counteract the lethargy and by the time I get to the store I was feeling mighty good. All the produce seemed really colorful, I was smiling and tapping my cart in time to my music. Seemed like most people I walked past were bubbly too, but most people will return a smile anyway so that's probably all there was to it. Had a nice conversation with the cashier about cooking indian recipes (I realize she's paid to be congenial, but relative to my usual experience with cashiers this was exceptionally positive (also may have something to do with the fact I've stopped buying alcohol at my grocery store)). Walk home with heavy bags was kinda strenuous but felt good whereas exercise almost always just feels like low-level pain and boredom.
I hate how stimulants have this image of being like "artificial" and whatnot. Like I guess every drug has a negative stereotype attached to it, but the idea that stims are only for tweakers and high power execs who need to work 24/7 is lame. Considering how pervasive ADD/ADHD is and how common it is for people not formally diagnosed to have symptoms that fall under those umbrellas I think if more people would try low/moderate doses they'd realize how positive/calming those drugs can be.
2015-08-01 at 3:33 AM UTC
Everybody in Canterbury Commons is dead
they got eaten by a yao guai
lulz
2015-08-01 at 3:34 AM UTC
I also just got out of the looney bin for the second time
glad to be back
2015-08-01 at 3:37 AM UTC
FO3 late game balance is hilarious. I don't complain though, the feeling of fucking up any humanoid nigga with one shot vs. pumping late-game mobs like death claws and yao guais full of lead and only making a scratch makes the game interesting again after the lull between getting good enough that nothing on the MQ can hurt you but before you hit the level cap.
2015-08-01 at 4:43 AM UTC
Stimulants feel artificial to me lanny, I haven't had one that felt natural. It doesn't mean that only tweakers have to use it but I just don't like the chemical feel to any that I've tried, not that I"ve got any desire to try any more.
2015-08-01 at 5:15 AM UTC
Have you tried them in low or "non-recreational" (scare quotes because they can still be fun) doses? I think for people with a need for constant engagement, stimulants can correct a sort of anxiousness that many people feel when they're not doing anything in particular. For me sitting still or just laying down is pretty unpleasant, going on for long enough it borders on unbearable. The few times I've been in a situation I literally couldn't do anything else I'd start doing things to hurt myself just to break the lack of sensation. On an appropriate dose of stimulants (not too high) that's not a problem. I can sit quietly and the experience itself is sufficient to keep me content. It's a totally different experience from the muscles-tensed breakneck energy of a high dose (although that's fun too), it's just like the nagging sensation of boredom is removed from everything for a while. I'm not sure if everyone experiences the same thing or you need my particular personality defect to get that response but it feels a lot more like being "fixed" than anything synthetic or unnatural.
