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2016-02-06 at 5:47 PM UTC in Chess! I suck..how can I improve?
That's cool. How much does a pro player earn at your level?
Making real money as a chess player is almost impossible. I've placed before, but it's so highly competitive you're not making any money consistently unless you're a famous Grand Master. Even national masters usually don't make very much. -
2016-02-06 at 2:46 PM UTC in Chess! I suck..how can I improve?I just created a chess.com username.
Totse
Look me up. Let's play games. I'm actually a Professional Chess Player so I'll give you guys free lessons. -
2016-02-06 at 2:42 PM UTC in Chess! I suck..how can I improve?
Don't, put that time into trying to get laid, dude…
It's way easier getting laid then it is being good at chess. -
2016-02-06 at 2:40 PM UTC in I will no longer be posting on this website.
If it was possible for someone to 'give me a break' Id have already have jumped on that already. The most of a break Ive had since my exhusband left was when my babysitter did me a solid when I got off work at 7am and had to be back to work at 2pm. I had already worked a 10 hour shift and hadnt slept the day before because I was up caring for my son. i was even late to work I was so tired. I have ZERO family and Im not exaggerating one bit. I have no real friends. Ive begged this girl I thought I was somewhat good friends with to take my son for a day, a few hours, or even just come over and help me clean while we took turns watching him.. she said ahe would, but this has been fucking months and always has an excuse for why she cant. Ive thought about calling dcf just ao I could have a fucking break. My son shouldnt see me frustrated, dog ass tired and just wanting to put him in a playpen or for him to take a nap. I dont enjoy my child for all the shit Im having to do to support him. I wish I fucking could- this is why kids do better in two parent homes, because you start hating your kids when youre so tired you cant see straight, cant get any rest for having to care for him before work and then back to another 10 hour grind just to do it all over again. On your day off, you just want to fucking sleep… Im not physically well off either. Ive got a herniated disc, two torn miniscus in my knees, nerve damage, and a rapid heart rate and nearly sure Ive got an thorasic aortic anyerism thats going to kill me one day in a very painful way (though thankfully it should be a fairly quick death). this isnt the sole reason I want to die, its coupled with my physical problems to, the fact Im never going to get out of this shit hole situation. §m£ÂgØL has a large family that is supportive. His family doesnt really want for money either. That would be a much better situation for my son. Even if he is put up for adoption, they will screen for people that can dedicate the time and love to my little boy. Fuck, even §m£ÂgØL agrees I should give him up for adoption, but whats stopping me is that my exhusband wants to take custody and REFUSES to sign paperwork so he can be adopted out. If hes removed and Golum is then placed on as his father, then he can make that choice. He can either raise him with the support and help from his family or he can put him for adoption. Hea told me he cannot be in my sons life despite wishing he could be because of me being in his life- this way, I wont be in my sons life anylonger ans hopefully he does choose to raise him. My son deserves better than I can give him. Im not a good mother, despite my best efforts to be. I was left in a shit situation that I partially created with a house that is filthy, falling appart and just not good for a baby to be in and a nother who is at her last nerve everyday of her life. I love this child more than anything andbnothing pains me more than to say Ive failed my child and cant give him a great life, but thats the hard cold truth of it. Im just trying to do the one little thing that is in my power to protect him from a person that abused me for a decade and has abused others, even to the point of being convicted for it. Ita the least I can do for my child that I love dearly and while §m£ÂgØL acta like a fucked up little shit most the time, he really is a good guy irl. I trust he would raise my son properly, as best as he can and would do better than I can and if he chooses not to and place him for adoption, he will be doing what I cant since my exhusband, the father currently on the BC, has stopped me from doing. Im not strong like your mom, sorry I cant do it. I hurt way too much. all there is is failure in my future and like §m£ÂgØL said to me over the phone, last we spoke, Im toxic. he doesnt need that in his life. He also told me he hopes I do right by my son. Thats exacrly what I am trying to do. Its the whole reason I tried to contact his parents. Its why I am going through with the court shit. I havent been threatening, Ive only posted this shit ao he knows Im not trying to get child support that he is so fucking paranoid of. Hes paranoid as fuck that he might be court ordered to pay money for his biological child. Ive never wanted that mans money, nor anyones money, if I did Id already have gotten it from one fathwr or the other by now but I dont even get welfare for my child. Nobody has paid me one single cent of child support nor do I expect it now. This wasnt a threat, rather to reassure since hes threatened to commit suicide if he were ever forced to pay child support a dozen times before when he was fucking paranoid as fuck. you understand a bit better now?
Ok, this is hard to understand and you sound like you have a legit adjustment disorder (at least), but ...
If you're eligible for child support, are working your fingers to the bone because you have no money, and the father has the money, just collect your child support. If I'm reading this correctly and §m£ÂgØL is the father, then he's required by law to pay it. It'll probably be helpful. It doesn't make any sense for you to act like you don't want it when you clearly need it and it's available.
You're also eligible for social services. You can get food stamps and most likely even emergency funds. Just google the number for social services in your county.
Honestly it sounds like it's best for the kid to go up for adoption. As far as killing yourself that sounds like kind of a stupid idea and I would encourage you not to do it. But clearly this is the internet, I have no idea who you are, and there's no way for me to stop you.
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2016-02-06 at 2:28 PM UTC in How to stay stoned forever.Sploo that sounds like an awful high.
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2016-02-06 at 2:25 PM UTC in Legends From Space
This thread made me reflect on my life way more than it should. I really want to post a story but I don't have an appropriate one. I don't think that my life was as eventless as it seems to me right now but damn…. where did all my stories go? Do I have Dementia? Fuck.
You probably have more stories than you think. It's when people start telling them that you remember them. -
2016-02-06 at 5:21 AM UTC in How to stay stoned forever.In all seriousness Sploo, did you write a trip report for nutmeg?
That was some OG totse shit and I always wondered what peoples' experience with it was like. What's it like being high on nutmeg?
Care to share? I remember reading it takes a long time to hit. -
2016-02-06 at 5:20 AM UTC in Just got suboxoneYou're not only bad at music but you're also bad at drugs.
Good job man. -
2016-02-06 at 5:18 AM UTC in Life's good I feel like shooting up again
I think my receptors have fully recovered after two years opiate free my little marker sniffing Dionysian
Don't do it man. There's nothing at the end of that road besides misery.
Quit while you're ahead. You fucked with the hard stuff for a while and made it out alive. A lot of people who used to post within this community can't say that right now. Don't repeat their mistake. -
2016-02-06 at 5:14 AM UTC in Lanny, you're a mentally deficient pretentious cunt.
So far this is the singular true statement in this thread.
[link]http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/j.1743-6109.2008.00786.x/abstract;jsessionid=B1F86C91C94B73F1EA9F255D1353B16D.f02t04?userIsAuthenticated=false&deniedAccessCustomisedMessage=[/link][h=3]ABSTRACT[/h] Introduction.  Freud implied a link between inability to have a vaginal orgasm and psychosexual immaturity. Since Kinsey, many sexologists have asserted that no such link exists. However, empirical testing of the issue has been lacking.
Aim.  The objective was to determine the relationship between different sexual behavior triggers of female orgasm and use of immature psychological defense mechanisms.
Methods.  Women reported their past month frequency of different sexual behaviors and corresponding orgasm rates and completed the Defense Style Questionnaire (DSQ-40).
Main Outcome Measure.  The association between ability to have vaginal intercourse orgasm (versus clitoral orgasm) and the use of DSQ-40 immature psychological defense mechanisms (associated with various psychopathologies) was examined.
Results.  In a sample of 94 healthy Portuguese women, vaginal orgasm (triggered solely by penile–vaginal intercourse) was associated with less use of DSQ-40 immature defenses. Vaginal orgasm was associated with less somatization, dissociation, displacement, autistic fantasy, devaluation, and isolation of affect. Orgasm from clitoral stimulation or combined clitoral-intercourse stimulation was not associated with less use of immature defenses, and was associated with more use of some immature defenses. In one regression analysis, more masturbation and less vaginal orgasm consistency made independent contributions to the statistical prediction of immature defenses. In another regression analysis, any use of extrinsic clitoral stimulation for intercourse orgasm, and lack of any vaginal orgasm, made independent contributions to the statistical prediction of immature defenses. Vaginally anorgasmic women had immature defenses scores comparable to those of established (depression, social anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and obsessive–compulsive disorder) outpatient psychiatric groups. Results were not confounded by social desirability responding or relationship quality.
Conclusions.  The results linking penile–vaginal orgasm with less use of immature psychological defense mechanisms are consistent with both early psychoanalytic personality theory and recent advances in sexual physiology. Implications for diagnosis and sex therapy are noted. Brody S, and Costa RM. Vaginal orgasm is associated with less use of immature psychological defense mechanisms. J Sex Med 2008;5:1167–1176.
By the way, I can't make new threads. -
2016-02-06 at 5:07 AM UTC in The official 'Thank You Lanny' threadI actually really appreciate what Lanny's got going on here. Sure, I wish I could leave the site and have all traces of everything I've ever written disappear, but it's cool to be in touch with you guys. I also like the fact that the forum is basically free for us to do and say what we want. To be honest, the dude typically gives really great insight when he comments on stuff, but you can tell he's busy.
Long story short, even though he's busy making a ton of money and cross-dressing, it is appreciated that he tends to our playground.
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2016-02-06 at 5 AM UTC in As long as this website exists "sophie" will not kill itself
research the dextromethorphan conspiracy
Seriously though, are you doing okay? Last time I tried to talk to you, things didn't seem so promising. Are you at least working or in school? -
2016-02-06 at 4:59 AM UTC in As long as this website exists "sophie" will not kill itself
This backfired. I wanted a response this long out of Sophie.
Yeah but you got me instead bromo <3 -
2016-02-06 at 4:57 AM UTC in I will no longer be posting on this website.
My ex husband violently raped a 6 year old girl. Lied about it, down played it and basically told a tale much different than the court documents which he signed. He was a lying, manipulative piece of shit. You wouldnt have even have defended his actions of what he did. I wasnt aware it was so fucked as that. There is a difference of a 13 yo having a 6yo girl touch your penis than having violently raping a 6 yo when youre 15. He couldnt even keep his fucjing lies somewhat straight. I was raped repeatedly in our fucked relationship but too stupid to realize it. I have a sleep disorder.. he kept saying I was coming on to him and provking shit while I was asleep. I told him to just leave if I did that, but rather he just would give me bullshit about how I got mad at him if he did that. I woke up a majority of days feeling violated and like scum not even able to remember what happened, just cum in my cunt. Thats why I believe the court documents versus his play on things so much. He was an abuser and was good at making people feel sympathy for him, until you see what the court papers say that is… I was stupid. Im just continuing this fucked existence until Ican get my exhusband off the BC and §m£ÂgØL on it andnthen the ball is in his court- he can raise his son or place him with adoption. this isnt about child support- this is aaout a broken person unable to keep going raising a child completely alone with nobody, nothing in their life for support emotionally. It takes everything in me to not just clock out prematurely. Ive got the means, Ive got the desire. I just love my son so much, the least I can do is spare my child being raised by that fucked up piece of shit.
What is going on in this thread?
From what I'm reading, Hydromorphone had a kid with §m£ÂgØL, has custody of the kid, her ex-husband is a child rapist, she wants to kill herself, but wants to give the kid to §m£ÂgØL first?
You guys really need to get your shit together.
Also it sucks that §m£ÂgØL is leaving because he was cool dude, but I guess it is what it is. I'll always remember Bradley B berating you for being attacked by a bird, and you defending your position by explaining that the bird was very aggressive.
Peace out.
Also, your dick is really small (no offense).
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2016-02-06 at 4:50 AM UTC in Legends From SpaceCome on assholes, post more stories. I didn't put my heart and soul out there for this bullshit.
Although TLN, that shit made me laugh so hard I spit milk out of my nose. -
2016-02-06 at 4:47 AM UTC in Give me some bad ideasGet a bachelors degree in English from a private school.
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2016-02-06 at 4:45 AM UTC in do i have the best life out of anyone here?
I'm not sure what it has to do with this thread but Bukowski was clearly the superior author. Although he may have been "simple" by some standards, just like jazz was the natural american form of music around which an intelligentsia formed, so too did Bukowski's authenticity immediately cement itself as foundational in the american, if not western, canon. Tucker Max is just a slightly-more-articulate-than-average hack who somehow embodies what would otherwise be considered a totally unrealistic caricature, practically a boogeyman, of our culture. Where Bukowski makes you weep for what he didn't say Max makes you cringe for what he did. Anyone who can raise enough hackles will get some temporary fame, but while controversy may have been becoming of Bukowski it wasn't his only trick. Bukowski is both immediately recognizable as a symbol of his time and, over half a century later, intimately familiar with elements of the american narrative that it's pretty much impossible to imagine frat-boy-pseudo-parody as even coming close to touching.
I always appreciate reading your perspective. -
2016-02-06 at 4:42 AM UTC in Chess! I suck..how can I improve?If you really want to put effort into this, make a (free) account at www.chess.com. I'll tutor you if we wind up being in the same time zone and can play.
Basically, the best way to improve as a beginner is to 1) learn an opening (at least four or five moves in) and practice basic tactics.
I love chess. I'd start a TOTSE chess team here with you guys if you wanted to. -
2016-02-05 at 8:09 PM UTC in Legends From SpaceShare stories you dickbags.
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2016-02-05 at 7:39 PM UTC in Legends From SpaceHave anymore stories for us, RisiR?
They don't have to be eerie.