2021-10-25 at 2:21 PM UTC
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Fona 10-25-2021
Feeling pretty worked up right now.
I tend to get myself like this just about anytime I am going to do something new or even mildly uncomfortable.
All that I have to do is get myself to work today and the rest will happen as it should.
2021-10-25 at 2:06 PM UTC
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Fona 10-25-2021
I know my current job would pan out like that^ which is why I'm focused on my goal of becoming a programmer you shit brain.
2021-10-25 at 1:36 PM UTC
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Fona 10-25-2021
Woke up not caring about anything and just happy it was still dark outside.
Quickly filled up with anxiety about the day ahead.
I'm switching to 2nd shift today and it feels weird as now instead of being the first to the weekend, I will be the last.
Thankful it is at least not 1st shift where I can't make it out and about without avoiding crowds.
This first week will be an adjustment but I don't forsee it being as much of a time change adjustment as it will be a "totally new set of co-workers" adjustment.
I use to stay at the crappy plastics factory telling new people I was training that "this job sucks and I have been here too long. Don't be like me and instead go make more money at 'this place/that place' " and I finally just got tired of being complacent and faking that it was alright I wasn't paid well because I was happy with my work family.
Still I do that time to time at my current job except now I am actively trying to better myself and make more money instead of just sticking around because the work is relaxed or I can leave when I want.
Truth is (at least where I have worked) that everyone has stuff that comes up and if you really need flexible time and so long as you are a good worker it is not that hard to get and if you are a good worker you will find yourself with down time.
I will never again be okay with any job working for some filthy rich tycoon while being paid mere sheckles and not even having my needs met.
Shit just isn't worth my time wasting away my life like that.
All my focus on now is making some money while I learn programming so that I can make the big bucks.
I am still being paid a crap wage but I am a lot better off than if I hadn't switched jobs earlier this year.
All that I wanted was some support from someone saying "Yeah, go do it. You're worth it". But I never got any of that...
Misery loves company I guess :/
Sometimes you are just too close to a situation to get a good perspective on it like I was and it turned out it was just hurting me.
I took the risk on my own to switch jobs to begin with and today I once again am taking a big risk by switching shifts to a whole new set of people I know nothing about and vice versa. My comfort bubble that consisted of people having my back at work will be gone when I go in today.
I've done this before though and I will do it again.
With any luck I will have the opportunity to advance much faster now and be able to have a little more cash while I continue my studies which is really the only important thing I need to be focusing on.
My options are work my self do death over the course of the next 35 years at a crappy job or I can invest in myself and as long as I work hard I will get a return that will be well worth it and allow me to do things in life that I can only dream of now.
Nothing I can do now will tell me how my day will be later so I might as well quit worrying about it.
Before I go to work today my goals are to pay my rent. Go to the grocery and get some stuff moved to my mom's house so I can stay over there again this week while she is away on business.
That being said I want to get a move on and not rush at the last minute.
After this last weekend I really need to slow my life outside of work down a notch and get all my cards in order again.
Felt like I had a really good weekend but it wasn't planned and now I got to recoup some cash.
2021-10-24 at 3:11 PM UTC
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Fona 10-24-2021
Imma go on an adventure today.
This weekend isn't a vacation but it is longer than usual and I'm trying to have some fun.
2021-10-24 at 2:51 PM UTC
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Fona 10-24-2021
Got my hair cut.
They had me in and out really quick.
The woman cutting my hair wouldn't shut up about her boyfriend and I'm pretty sure she was on something too.
I sat down in the chair and she just started cutting my hair without even asking what I wanted done.
And then at the end she said "close your eyes and let me blow off all this hair" but she said it as she turned on her hair dryer and blew it a little in my eyes but what was funnier is that there was another customer standing right behind me and most of my hair blew onto his pants.
It was hard keeping a straight face but thankfully I was already a little ticked off that I knew I was paying $24 for a haircut that only cost me $20 a couple years ago.
I could have just done it myself but I can't do the back well and I really just wanted it done so I didn't look like a 5th grader going to work tomorrow.
Stopped and got gas on my way home and it cost me $36 to fill up.
Pretty damn annoyed at Joe Biden for ruining the economy.
2021-10-24 at 1:44 PM UTC
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Fona 10-24-2021
I keep trying to do simple stuff from last week and finding I am still hung up on stuff.
For a long time I have been working in fields of repetition where I just get better and better at something the more I do it and it is never easy trying to figure things out early on.
Way too jacked up on coffee to work on the site this morning.
Right now I need to get focused on making sure I am prepared for the week ahead and that means I have to go out and get a hair cut.
TTYL
2021-10-24 at 1:13 PM UTC
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Fona 10-24-2021
Shit, showered, shaved, ate breakfast and now having another coffee.
Might try and do some programming this morning but really trying to get my hair cut today and Great Clips opens at 10am.
I have no one to help me cut my hair anymore so now I have to pay the single loser tax.
Oh well.
2021-10-24 at 12:26 PM UTC
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Fona 10-24-2021
Good morning.
Woke up just a little while ago.
It's been weeks since I slept that long uninterrupted and it was a real nice surprise.
Feeling rested and restored so I will probably try to make something out of today.
Right now I am just getting my coffee and nicotine fix while catching up with the bros on how their weekends have been going.
Today I am not sure what I will be getting into...
2021-10-24 at 1 AM UTC
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Fona 10-23-2021
Went thrifting and then ate at Asian Star.
Now I am back home.
2021-10-23 at 3:55 PM UTC
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Fona 10-23-2021
Forgot to charge my shit so Imma not go shopping before hand and instead play minecraft for a half hour.
2021-10-23 at 3:36 PM UTC
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Fona 10-23-2021
Heading out soon to go meet up with Cly.
All programmed out for this morning anyways.
Weather sure feels appropriate for this time of the year.
I probably won't sweat again until next May.
I should probably go check the fluids in my car and see what needs topped off before I head out.
Next week I plan on changing my oil and doing some preventative damage to my car.
I'm going to head out early and maybe hit up a store along the way.
This might be less interesting if it turns out the only set up is going to be installing the batteries.
Rabbitweed came up with the idea of messing with HAM radios except they do not have enough range to travel the globe.
Also, he was probably drunk when we talked about this.
