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2022-01-29 at 1:35 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley No I get what you mean. I like weekends away but it always involved drink/ weed and coke but now I'm sober, I look forward to bolting myself away in a cottage somewhere with books and walks beside the sea. I'm starting to understand the importance of not having other users around me, I literally have Zero will power when someone whips out a bag or suggests a drink. I'm getting somewhat stronger willfully but I'm not ready to go clubs etc. I have a few dates with girls but I'll be drinking low alcohol when I do.
I think I feel more safe being with a girl/ going back her place and fucking eachother to death. If I was going out with mates it would only lead to excessive consumption, drug fuelled debauchery and wanton destruction. Even if I go home alone inebriated that would be worse cause I would just stock up on cocaine and masturbate for days like a disgusting degenerate.
Yeah fucking a bitch seems like a good substitute for drugs because of serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin etc but there's usually a whole other host of problems too, like what if they're being emotionally erratic and this fucks with your real intentions? Not to mention what if you bust, lie back and stupid questions start coming? That gives me anxiety and keeps me from plateauing to a "higher self" away from drugs and liquor proving the girl is just a distraction. Just about every girl who's vagina I have access to is amenable to drugs and alcohol too. I can't think of a girl ever stopping me from doing drugs because I'll either be able to manipulate the scenario or I'll make them miserable so they know that's the only way out.
Willpower comes with time and the development of skills but when shit hits the fan those seem to be the first things to go. Sometimes I think the best company would be a hooker I can just whine about my problems to while watching her facade fade. That can be expensive and depressing though.
Idk if I'm gonna detox its gotta be lonely and uncomfortable for it to have any lasting effect. The worst is I know if I tell people that's what I'm doing I will feel obligated to declare my excursion a success even if I end up using the whole time. Now is honestly a good time in my life to undertake this too but the idea of being alone with my thoughts and feelings unmedicated is pretty risky. -
2022-01-29 at 1:21 AM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬Candy how did you have sex while driving with a cop car behind you? Were you just fingerblasting? Was it an ls450? I have alot of questions about your story and also miss black gurl vybz
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2022-01-29 at 1:18 AM UTC in First Conflict of 2022Diesel is through the roof too. If I recall it began the year below petroleum but is now well over. Diesel prices are going to end up being absorbed by end level consumers. School busses, semi's, heavy equipment etc. all take diesel and will result in higher consumer prices and inflation. People only pay attention to crude because that's typically what they put in their own tank.
Joe Rogan posted the cybertruck yesterday and I'm fucking pissed I still don't have one. They better roll out in some serious numbers because I'm going to do my best to get one as soon as they're available here -
2022-01-29 at 1:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Motel for detox?
Yeah it's a motel of cottages on a lake, I have friends who have gone before because it's kinda romantic and shit. Probably pretty inexpensive this time of year.
Problem for me with detoxing is I know myself and I am pathologically driven to consume pills. Being so close to my house I could sneak back and get some, bug people for some or really find any kinda way to aquire. Putting more steps between myself and pills is a move in the right direction though. Detoxing wouldn't really be that bad for me tbh so might be best to taper with suboxone to a lower dose before going cold turkey (will smoke weed an take gabbies though). Being away from my baby mom will make want to take drugs less but being away from my son will make me want to take more. I could go to my friend's farm but he is always, always drinking and has too many crazy animals.
I need a good plan. Sorry for fagging out loud -
2022-01-29 at 1:02 AM UTC in me goin for an rip wid da homiesWhen you tell people you haven't had sex in a decade do they usually laugh or are they visibly creeped out? I can't think of any other possible reactions besides maybe simpathy but with your pathetic faggot MGTOW coping skills that's off the table
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2022-01-29 at 12:58 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionMy stomach problems are getting fucking worse. If my back doesn't hurt my stomach does, it's fucking hell. Ever since I realized pills can cure what ails me I've been taking them in droves and they have compounded exponentially. Years and years of use has rotted my stomach and made me weak. I need to go on Two retreats, one being a good bender, the other being isolation and detoxification. One is obviously much easier than the other. There is a motel near my house I've never been to but kinda want to check into for the detoxification as it would still allow me to be there for my family. The bender will be a hotel downtown with some ho, no fam involved. Right now tho the status quo is fucking painful and requires steady dissociating in order to cope with the pain and fragility of my existence
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2022-01-29 at 12:15 AM UTC in First Conflict of 2022
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2022-01-28 at 11:45 PM UTC in First Conflict of 2022
Originally posted by aldra why would you possibly think Albright was a 'decent' diplomat
I was just kinda impressed with how cold she was while acting in things that could be claimed to be in the US's best interests. Literally fracturing her home country and allowing organ harvesting while fucking with Cuba and having factories bombed in Africa for spite.
You're right she isn't a decent secretary of state or a decent person I was just impressed with her iron fist and supervillian qualities. Most other sec states are ineffectual puppets but she will have your entire family killed for talking shit. Have to admit it's impressive how she was able to control the narrative while doing so many crazy things. Didn't know she was a chosen one but it honestly makes perfect sense -
2022-01-28 at 8:44 PM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
Originally posted by Kafka You drink drive? Can I ask how old you are? Switching to two cans of monster a day got me off alcohol but it ain’t good either.
I'm over 30 under 35. Yeah I will drive drunk but prefer not to, that was just Christmas so we knew there wouldn't be many cars on the road. I have a friend who had a stroke from cocaine, monster energy drinks and steroids when he was around 27 -
2022-01-28 at 6:18 PM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
Originally posted by Kafka He died because of it. He was a very strong person, I think he’d been in the hospital two weeks but I only saw his last five days, they weren’t giving him any fluids, no food or water. The nurse said she’d rarely seen that in her career. He was screaming for five days in and out of consciousness because they couldn’t give him morphine, couldn’t give him anything as his liver couldn’t handle it and they weren’t allowed to kill him. The pain would come in waves. I tried hypnotising him for pain relief which helped a little but you have to be conscious to listen to it. I remember I was playing suspicious minds by Elvis and he was smiling at me and then he just broke into screaming.
That’s shitty he scammed people. What do you mean physical problems? Do you drink?
I'm sorry that sounds like a brutal way to go. It sounds like your visit helped him alot though.
I guess his physical problems aren't too bad considering. His parents both lived to be close to 90 and were tough folk who drank and smoked for 80 of those years so he has good genes for it. He just has facial tics, a stutter, bad memory loss and literal gout (which has gotten better). His liver seems to have held up somehow.
I might drink once every 2 months, if that. Last time was on Christmas, got very drunk and drove around at a high speed listening to pop smoke with the friend I mentioned earlier who fucks with people. When I wake up the next day I feel shitty but want to keep drinking but thankfully I can arrest that now. 3 times in my life I have been physically addicted to alcohol and I don't wanna go back to that. I am prescribed gabbapentin which helps kill any cravings for liquor -
2022-01-28 at 5:56 PM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?
Originally posted by Kafka My dad was like that, very generous, decent and friendly when he was sober, but he secretly hated everyone and would talk to himself in the mirror while drunk and shaving, very violent. I have a three and a half hour voice note of him talking to himself. He really was decent sober though, in England there was a gang of youths started on some Japanese, so he got involved beat some of them up, some lil girl tried to spray his hand with acid and he said he’d beat her up too. The Japanese man gave my dad his belt as thanks and he got all our names engraved on it saying he loves us.
Does your dad still drink? Mine quit a few years ago and now forgets everything and has eye twitches and stutters. He's become very kind but being around him makes me uncomfortable because I worry about having the same physical problems he does.
I forgot to mention that when my dad was an alcoholic he would scam money from people even when he wasn't drinking at the time. I think I posted about it before. I remember police showing up to our place because someone had said he broke into a house and I remember how weird that seemed at the time. When I got older I realized it was probably someone trying to frame him because he scammed them and they had no recourse. -
2022-01-28 at 5:06 PM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?I have a friend who was raised in a decent family but everytime he drinks he fucks with people to the point of making them have a breakdown. I've seen him make someone bigger than him scream about having heart palpitations from fucking with him. He's a terrible fighter too, he doesn't do it with me because I'm older, more respected and pretty fucked up in the head even while sober. We went to a bar one time, him, myself and a girl and he went up to a group of 5 or 6 bigger guys and told one of them that his shirt was stupid and another that the yeezys he had on his feet were fake and threatened to strip the shoes off his feet. He bad actually been charming the bartender before that so when the group of guys started freaking out she kicked them out and of course he followed so of course I had to follow too even tho I still had a no alcohol condition (as did he) then he started talking shit in the parking lot as he was walking over then I guess the "leader" of that group of men started freaking out and telling him not to come any closer. He knew I had my star trek phaser on me so he kinda kept in step with me since we were outnumbered. This was in the summer. He's like manipulatively evil and violent while drunk and when he's not he's kinda quiet, sweet and focused. This thread made me messagevhim to see what he's doing
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2022-01-28 at 4:55 PM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?One time as a yungsta I threw a beer bottle at a passerby from a wooded area off the sidewalk and he was all glasses and bookbaggy in the middle of the day, outraged that he should have glass shatter in front of him like a nancy boi. So he stormed up into the area we were in and got beaten pretty badly but in our defense he was like twice our age and bigger than us and kinda charged uphill at us which was really stupid. We kinda got frenzied and stomped his face and expected to get arrested but not everyone had a cell phone in those days so we just dipped and drank at another outdoor spot.
Another time I hit someone in the face with a lamp because he wanted me to leave his apartment. Lots of other stuff too. Honestly, my dad was an alcoholic so when I was a Yung alci I kinda hated myself for it and thought I was weak and shitty like how I perceived him to be at the time. I guess my reasons are a little different but a lot of people do, usually people who get drunk quickly and easily -
2022-01-28 at 4:47 PM UTC in Why does alcohol make people so mean?Because it was under the surface all along. Alcohol makes things that you secretly want to do much more agreeable (I.e. sex, junk food and coke) so trust that they were angry people all along and just used alcohol as an excuse to unleash it.
"Sorry I beat you with a fire poker, I was drunk. You know I'm not like that hehehe" -
2022-01-28 at 4:41 PM UTC in What do you want played at your funeral?Bury me a G by young Jeezy was what I would have said when I was on my Yung shit, dumb shit, where I'm from shit, riding around my hood all day wit my gun shit
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2022-01-28 at 4:40 PM UTC in What do you want played at your funeral?Xxxtentacion has some really good funeral Jams too, sad! Being one of them
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2022-01-28 at 4:29 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionI have actually consumed less cannabis in the last week than I have since the first week I went to prism in the summer. Mostly because I've been avoiding people and it's boring and not very enjoyable, plus I had a moment where I realized I've smoked way too much in my life and it's affected my memory horribly and as I get older I want to be as drug free as possible.
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2022-01-28 at 4:18 PM UTC in I got rug burn on my sevenhead.
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2022-01-28 at 4:10 PM UTC in What do you want played at your funeral?I used to talk about this subject with people but it's a subject that's always changing. I remember hearing "bright side" from Monty pythons life of Brian was one of the most popular in the UK and I believe Gary Jules "mad world" is too.
I always thought street spirit by radio head is a great funeral song but almost TOO great. It really depends on a few things and could change overtime. I went to a funeral last year and they played an inappropriate song although it was a song she liked.
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2022-01-28 at 4:05 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
Originally posted by Solstice I use the word dab as a general term for concentrates, not a specific type of concentrate. I've had diamonds, shatter, crumble, BHO, PHO, etc.
Sounds like you're thinking of pull-n-snap if you're talking about rolling them in joints.
And what do you mean by "everyone vapes dabs" there? That's how everyone uses dabs everywhere lol, you're vaporizing concentrate. Though you probably meant put into a pod system or something, like how I currently have distillate in my Novo 2 with a quartz coil.
Yaman I used to kill the yo cans. I thought you were talking about smoking them out a big bong with a torch and nail like back in the dizay. The government sells distillate pens now but they're one use and not as good as typical black Market fare. Aren't rechargeable and they are always less than the gram they're supposed to be (not to mention twice the price)
