Posts by gadzooks

1. 2019-04-05 at 5:19 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
   I'm also researching Facebook and Instagram marketing... People, for whatever reason, behave like highly predictable drones when it comes to the big social media sites/apps.
   
   Facebook uses Graph API (ideal for social network apps), and I have a bit of experience with that kind of thing...
   
   I could probably do me a great good (by which I mean, fatten my wallet and bank accounts... and maybe give a bit to a charity or two).
2. 2019-04-05 at 5:16 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

   Originally posted by aldra how about writing predictive market trading algorithms?

   
   Actually, programming projects are the only non-drug/alcohol thing in my life that give me at least some intrinsic pleasure.
   
   And the prospect of making money... That also helps keep me going.
   
   I have been looking into applying ML/AI to market analysis, but it is a HUGELY saturated field.
   
   Despite that, I can also apply sentimental analysis to big name twitter accounts, and combine other unique and creative features to give me an edge...
   
   Tomorrow I will likely add a few lines of code to my market analytics code... It's been a while.
3. 2019-04-05 at 5:13 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

   Originally posted by mmQ I didnt say anything about guns. Just like I didnt say psych ward. Why are you changing what I'm saying STAHP IT.

   
   I guess I just immediately jumped from suicide to guns because it's really the most efficient way to get the job done.
   
   I've had the box cutters by my side with the tarp for cleanliness.
   
   I've had the scratchy rope around the neck, ready to kick the stool from out beneath.
   
   But whenever there are any intermediary steps, it's hard.
   
   I figure that if I did own a gun, it'd probably have been done by now.
4. 2019-04-05 at 5:11 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

   Originally posted by aldra I'm in a similar place, just not inviting junkies in to make it worse

   
   I've been getting better at saying "no", but my three weaknesses are:
   1. If I'm drunk.
   2. They have free drugs to offer.
   3. It's a (at least vaguely attractive) chick that makes the request.
   
   Tonight all three applied.
   
   I am only human...
   
   
5. 2019-04-05 at 5:08 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

   Originally posted by aldra so you can 'self actualise' a few times in orbit before running out of oxygen?

   
   My metaphors are mixed, I'll admit.
   
   I'm drunk as fuck, plus mad as fuck, plus feeling helpess as fuck...
   
   I just want to walk through a magical closet into a land of fantasy and make-believe, where time passes by but does not correspond to the original world's timeline.
   
   Narnia-like and all.
   
   I need to get away and figure out a plan to defend myself against... my own weak inhibitions and tendencies towards people pleasing.
   
   Are people even all that worth pleasing? Like, damn.
6. 2019-04-05 at 5:06 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

   Originally posted by mmQ What about..
   
   Kill yourself?

   
   I live in Canada...
   
   Guns require too much pre-meditation.
   
   Plus, I'd rather blow myself up in a meth lab or something than that.
   
   I'll take intense risks before I hit that off switch.
7. 2019-04-05 at 5:04 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
   I'm like 35 (legit can't even remember exactly any more... Born in August of 1984... maybe 34).
   
   And nothing appeals to me.
   
   Everyone, and everything, is some kind of obstacle between myself and faint and faded once-held-proudly goals chock with ambition anticipating some kind of life full of accomplishments.
   
   Instead, I'm a fat, drunk, unemployed, drug addicted, lonely/single, push-over faggot that just keeps slipping deeper and deeper into the depths of shit land.
8. 2019-04-05 at 5:02 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
   I want escape... Like a pod of some kind that can just jettison me away from the day-to-day activities that just seem so banal and obstructive against any kind of true self-actualization.
9. 2019-04-05 at 5 AM UTC in I need to escape
   

   gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

   Originally posted by aldra drunk and intentionally disorderly would be easiest

   
   That reminds me... I'm still in the process of developing a legal case against the RCMP.
   
   I want to remain clean and well-to-do until after that.
   
   Then, unless I get some kind of million dollar settlement, I will carry on with whatever self- and world- destructive plan currently in the works.
10. 2019-04-05 at 4:59 AM UTC in I need to escape
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

    Originally posted by aldra I dunno, opium dens probably

    
    I can't do opiates/opioids.
    
    It's a hard rule I've established for myself.
    
    No matter how much I hate humanity and want to join Kim Jong-un whatever the fuck in destroying the entire world just cuz... I can't let myself (re)lapse into opiate addiction.
    
    I'd sooner work in a WMD lab for the enemy of every single nation for some reason.
11. 2019-04-05 at 4:57 AM UTC in I need to escape
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

    Originally posted by mmQ Uhh, check yourself into a treatment facility or commit a petty crime and sit in jail for a little bit.

    
    I've been in the psych ward too many times. I promised myself no more.
    
    And about petty crimes... What's petty?
    
    Like shoplifting?
    
    I'm too good at it to get caught.
    
    I suppose I could intentionally slip up.
12. 2019-04-05 at 4:56 AM UTC in I need to escape
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
    Actually, fuck sex, I'll move to a Buddhist monastery full of celibate dudes if it will get me away from all this.
13. 2019-04-05 at 4:55 AM UTC in I need to escape
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

    Originally posted by aldra move to china

    
    What's there?
    
    I wish I had the yellow fever like so many white dudes I know... but I'd be kind of especially lonely in the coital sense.
14. 2019-04-05 at 4:55 AM UTC in I need to escape
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
    I want a tent or nuclear bunker somewhere off grid that I can get to.
    
    I am a devoted, dedicated worker when I have a goal in my sights... I need to make this happen.
    
    Right now I'm getting a measly $2k a month for (un)employment insurance. That barely covers my residential expenses and student loans and phone and Internet and so on.
    
    If I could rob a bank with zero casualties and no decades plus long sentences, I'd so do it.
15. 2019-04-05 at 4:51 AM UTC in I need to escape
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
    I attract the itinerant vagrant community like bees to honey, or bees to pollen to make honey, whatever.
    
    I can't take it anymore.
    
    Every time I get a few days break from it all, let my body heal, calls, texts, and taps on my rear window accelerate in frequency.
    
    I can't take it.
    
    My task backlog is like, a million miles long.
    
    I just want my own getaway location I can go to to get away from the fucking bums, addicts, derelicts, schizos, the whole lot of them. I'm sorry. I have sympathy for people in fucked up situations, but I need to resolve my own issues before I can take care of anyone else.
    
    Without venturing into "attract the feds" kinda talk... Let me just say that, I kinda get the degree of rage it takes to assassinate an entire social/community event.
    
    Like... fuck.
    
    Nobody should ever "get" that kind of thinking. But right now I am beyond rage. Mostly at myself. I let them in. I am weak. It's a sickness. I get drunk, and needy street rats (lol, Aladdin) just happen to receive telekinetic notification of that fact, and I start getting visitors.
    
    And they offer harder drugs, and I say "yes", at least after some humming and hawing.
    
    I'm weak, I admit it.
    
    But I need to get away from the stress and the temptation in order to heal.
    
    What do I do?
16. 2019-04-01 at 7:49 AM UTC in I'm going to Marry my current girlfriend
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
    Bestiality is illegal pretty much everywhere.
    
    You aren't the first person to try the "but if we're married, she's my wife, not my property, so it's okay" defense.
17. 2019-04-01 at 7:44 AM UTC in Karen, I drink to memories of our future.
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
    Do not let yourself be an April Fool, Zanick.
    
    You are anything but!
18. 2019-04-01 at 7:43 AM UTC in Karen, I drink to memories of our future.
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]

    Originally posted by Zanick You are the reason men play the guitar
    You are fine print in the Constitution
    You inspire the lights of sun, moon, and stars
    You are the problem and the solution
    
    I am the reason for your adventure
    I am the journey you fear to begin
    I am margins controlling the center
    I am a chalice of bloody chagrin
    
    We are far apart; we are divided
    We are alive, and yet we are absent
    We are dead, and so we are united
    We are whiskey and wine in the absinthe
    
    Our paths have crossed and become intertwined
    Our stories met, and the gods are resigned
    
    
    User was banned for saying the taboo phrase "guitar"!

    
    Your love for Karen shares an eery degree of commonality with mine for my own lost love. After setting up a Facebook account today (after going without one since 2008), I tried to find her (of course I still recall her first, middle, and last name - they are all flower themed), only to recall that she won't be anywhere to be found on there...
    
    One of the billion things we had in common was that we both steered clear of the mundane trivialities of such zombifying sites of mass destraction.
    
    All I can do now is wax poetic over her much like you do for Karen.
    
    And, alas! A word that springs forth from the wells of linguistic expression while you are probing deep into the fathoms occupied only by the target of your truest affections, is like the prickly thorn on the that one rose that we grasp in order to create the complete bouquet representing the scope and totality of our love.
    
    This word was anything but taboo!
    
    Take this as a sign from the fates themselves that you are meant to devote tomorrow to yourself. I'm sure Karen is a compassionate soul who wants for your happiness as much as you for hers. Instead of dusting off the emergency alts, go out and pick yourself a bouquet of real flowers.
    
    Just don't forget to stop and savor the unique aromas each one has to offer.
19. 2019-04-01 at 7:40 AM UTC in Karen, I drink to memories of our future.
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
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20. 2019-04-01 at 7:26 AM UTC in Terminal BBS
    

    gadzooks Dark Matter [keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
    While writing my (totally non-nefarious) NiS bots, I have pretty much had to create my own REST-like API. Once you break down the content delivery system like that, you could theoretically access it, and interact with it, however you want.