"i dont want you coming this year because you're just an evil litte bitch and i fucking hate you, you think i don't remember last year or something like that. no wonder why none of your friends want to talk to you anymore. go find something else to do for your summer besides manipulate people like a witch. hurr durr yeah man gta 5 is the best you can kill anybody you want its fukin awesome. did you have to go to a therapist when your parents saw your drawings? probably probably not because your mom looks like she's fucking scared of you. i suggest you to do what i suggested at the start of this chat, if you don't do that, at least don't come please. pretty please ^.^ ?
good thing you're not good at anything or else it would be actually kind of saddening that you're such an evil bitch. instead you're a fat dumb fuck. i know you were trying to purposely embarrass me in front of people but talking to you is probably embarrassing enough. What's your IQ, like 50? I can't tell if you're insulting me or really stupid and not understanding sarcasm or just genuinely autistic as fuck.not to mention you have so many bags and dark patches of skin under your eyes it's like you might be a leukemia patient oh you just have the disease scurvy because you're scared to eat fruits, and your bones will wrinkle up from the lack of vitamin C!!"
[FONT=helvetica]K srry[/FONT]
[FONT=helvetica]This is wat i need especially after my grandma dies[/FONT]
[SIZE=13px]Thanks sir[/SIZE]
[SIZE=13px]Bye[/SIZE]
[SIZE=13px]Enjoy ur life[/SIZE]
[SIZE=13px]I might join [/SIZE]
[SIZE=13px]But dont worry[/SIZE]
[SIZE=13px]Just ignore[/SIZE]
[SIZE=13px]Me
"sure thing"
At first I was extremely mad and high, then I wrote this at 3 in the morning to her, then I forgot about it the next day. She didn't come to the teen social this year. I didn't think anything of it at first but she's like a catholic schoolgirl and this probably will make her cry for like a year. Shittttttttt
Then again, she might become a goth girl and that would make her hotter[/SIZE]
that is applied logic, and didnt read
2015-06-29 at 6:59 PM UTC
in
Does anybody here have HPPD?
>stays in bed all day long
2015-06-29 at 10:33 AM UTC
in
Does anybody here have HPPD?
I have it pretty strong. It's not unbearable static like some people get it, but I can see patterns appearing in my vision, especially with my eyes closed, almost all of the time, and I can consciously manipulate my hallucinations so that I feel like I'm tripping even when I''m sober i.e. the psuedohallucinations are interactive and controlled. I'll give an example of the visual phenomena I am experiencing at the moment. Looking around, everything is in a very, very mild multicolored static which is only noticeable when you purposely try to look at it. When I look into the distance I can make the fuzz take on somewhat geometric forms. I can auto-kick the derealization of bundy into gear, and I can move things in my field of vision slightly by staring at them. With closed eyes, I'm getting a vague image of an ovary or a penis in blue static in front of the black behind the eyelids. Do meditative techniques increase visual hallucinations? In fact, I'm really curious in general neurotransmitter manipulation by conscious though. Like, would it be possible to achieve significantly altered states of consciousness with only endogenous neurochemicals? If there's a free acid trip burrowed in my brain somewhere hell yeah I'd take it. I wonder if HPPD is a form of receptor rebound.. Like, the 5ht2c receptors get antagonized leading to a particular secondary messenger pathway when psychedelics are ingested, and then this antagonism distorts perception and feedback inhibition in optic nerves, leading to an exaggeration of certain elements, an inconsistent recurrence of specific optic networks resulting in visual pattern hallucinations. NMDA antagonists instead of working on feedback inhibition, which is the reduction of neural activity after a specific metric of signals have been sent...work by inducing sensory shutdown, with NMDA receptors turning off less essential neural networks and leaving a more basic brain which in turn has to use its energy to "fill in the blanks" induced by the shut down neural circuits, so the more essential neural circuits induce hallucinations so that your brain isn't processing absolutely nothing. Anticholinergics I'm not so sure about, I know choline converts to acetylcholine and this is an important neurotransmitter for muscle contractions as well as learning...so I guess a lack of choline causes a sensory shutdown which isn't a true deactivation of neural networks, but all the neural networks you typically have become weak and aperceptive, just like your muscles become weak. Then coupled with the dysphoria, when your brain tries to fill in the blanks, you get spiders. Not sure about cannabinoid 1 receptors either but I think the psychedelic qualities might have to do with the induction of neurogenesis. The only other receptors I can think of which may be implicated in hallucinations and schizophrenia is the kappa opiod receptors. I've never gotten high on salvia before so I can't really make any assumptions on what it's general properties or mechanism of action for hallucinations is. Guided meditation alongside foods that increase specific neurotransmitter levels or act as weak versions of these drugs (especially certain herbal teas) might have some promise for those dedicated to a spiritual experience. I consider the little temple I see in the back of my eyelids when I close my eyes to be the home of my consciousness, looked at from an alternate entity's perspective. I call it the Temple Of The Sickness, because Candiria (which is a shitty hardcore band) made an album called that and the album cover is quite similar to the hallucination. I also masturbate without any porn half the time because I just visualize the sex.
2015-06-28 at 7:36 AM UTC
in
smoking crack
lol spectral is addicted to crack
this explains so much
that's dependent on IQ, not gender
I meant if you were ever actually friends with a girl they mostly act the same way men do but they're more frillyand motherly, hence the estrogen connection
women are just like men but with more estrogen
All the women I have met so far are evil.
First girlfriend treats me like an outcast and says we can't be seen together in public
Hookup with zim beanie is a girl who automatically molests everyone she meets
First real girlfriend kicked my cat and was evil
Ashley laughed in my face when I was crey );;
ecause im looking for real love n women r evil
i think i have more damage from smoking paint chips when i was carpet surfing for spice. also i have neuropathy from huffing starter fluid but that was worth it
haha §m£ÂgØL was addicted to a potent neurotoxin
