Posts by The Boobyverse X = X 1 = 0

1. 2015-07-11 at 5:15 AM UTC in I feel dicks
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   Lol I knew you would become a methhead. Make sure to make your magnum opus like I did with my SLA-3 before tolerance makes bursts of brilliance too difficult to attain. Stims are definitely preferrable to downers for me because even after the crash you still have the reassuring feeling that you actually created something and it was worthwhile. It gives you pleasure and brings to the physical world a person's hidden talents For some people that might be jerking off for 15 hours and eating the scabbed skin that falls off for the microdoses of amphetamine in the microdoses of urine that get excreted with the precum, for other people it might be making games or w.e. Do you take the 60mg of FMA as a controlled dosage that doesn't escalate, how does it effect you interpersonally?
2. 2015-07-11 at 5:02 AM UTC in Being astral and your astral race is a personality trait
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   lol
3. 2015-07-11 at 4:59 AM UTC in Being astral and your astral race is a personality trait
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   starcraft is literally the best game ever
4. 2015-07-11 at 4:51 AM UTC in I feel dicks
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   I'm on 20mg of adderall XR a day, and at some point I plan to go up to 30mg. I'm not seeing my old psychiatrist so I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to up the dosage. What are some potentiation methods that can be done on a daily basis to make 20mg feel more like 30mg? I know I can take tums to basify the stomach. Does grapefruit juice help? Anything else? I've also heard that magnesium helps for tolerance, as well as bundy and other NMDA antagonists in general, so I'll have to check that out.
5. 2015-07-11 at 4:39 AM UTC in End of the Line?
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   I'm here cause when I'm melting into the ground I need someone around To hold my hand And make me A real Man A = penis and A(x)y ^2983982 = the karyotype of downs syndrome
6. 2015-07-11 at 4:35 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   People with more-shit lives than the average wanking to kill themselves more than the average doesn't seem all that interesting to me.

   
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7. 2015-07-11 at 4:34 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   The Boobyverse X = X 1 = 0 Tuskegee Airman

   We should form a group buy club for drugs, with Casper as our sugar daddy/distributor.

   
   I agree with this, we should have a niggasinspace newsletter where we receive tiny samples of a "drug of the month"
8. 2015-07-11 at 4:33 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   NSI-189 in my veins and growth spurts in my brain
   I'm on this earth to bring catholic girls pain
   I've got eyes in the back of my head
   Don't ever accuse me again
   You'll know it happens when
9. 2015-07-11 at 4:08 AM UTC in Implying I'm Not Going To Snort Adderall With The Dollar Bill I Just Panhandled
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10. 2015-07-11 at 3:58 AM UTC in Being astral and your astral race is a personality trait
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    I am a Protoss
    
    
11. 2015-07-11 at 1:54 AM UTC in Being astral and your astral race is a personality trait
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    neo-pi-r-r
12. 2015-07-10 at 2:16 PM UTC in I feel dicks
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    Ive actually been getting pretty intense withdrawals with the spice blends, when I don't use for more than a day I get intense neurotic anxiety and depression as well as an intense urge to use, so yesterday I caved in, ate 2 grams, and spent the day doing nothing except smoking. Spice has a really interesting high that I've never actually elaborated on-- it's a potent hallucinogenic drug, and smoking it causes you to almost immediately go catatonic. In that state your having all sorts of tripped out thoughts and memories of your life, and later on in the high you start getting paranoid delusions and positive symptoms of schizophrenia which remit when the high is over and your episode of pure pleasure/fear is done, then you come down somewhat stoned for 30 minutes, and feel mildly stoned for another day or two. I've been trying to convince my dad to buy me pot so I have some replacement to smoke so that I don't get the withdrawals as bad.
    
    On my puzzles (I always have to talk about my puzzles), I'm thinking of compiling them, and turning it into an actual game, which I could then submit to Hasbro or something like that, and make $$$. Don't bother stealing my idea because my puzzles are copyrighted, but if anyone, especially someone good at gay porn, would be interested in collaborating, please notify me.
    
    Is there some way to get rid of twitching? The morphine metabolites making me impervious to pain must have led to me severing my spinal cord or something while sleeping in a weird position, so I've been doing neurogenesis type things/facial contortions to try to tone my muscles back into place. I'm thinking I might cut caffeine out of my daily intake, if that doesn't work, cut out the abilify, then the adderall, then the smoking.
    
    I feel like my thoughts are clearer than they usually are. It's pretty cool how antipsychotics and other chemicals that are supposed to work "behind the scenes" per se cause such profound effects in behavior as to change the way an individual expresses themselves through language. Has my personality changed significantly through my 5+ years on totse spinoffs? Of course I've grown a bit and I'm not as much as a shitposter, but I feel like I've become significantly less spirited since my 2 week visit in the psych ward around December of last year. The benzodiazepine withdrawal and discomfort I felt every moment there made me much less emotional in my opinion, because I've never experienced that much pain at any other point in my life.
    
    My lack of social skills is really fucking getting to me. I have nothing to do all day long so I sit at home playing videogames. Then, around 8pm, there's the teen social which is for a play production but basically enables me to be in proximity of other human beings. But, I just sit there not saying anything, because I have no idea how to introduce myself to people, how to make small talk, and my social anxiety doesn't help. I'm also always intoxicated, weird, and now I have a mild twitch once in a while which is obviously great for social things. I can't exactly tell how I come off to other people though and I don't give too much of a shit. I just listen to stupid people talk while I make up shit to do by myself so I don't get bored. There are so many cute girls there and sometimes I notice one or two eyeing me but I'm sure as soon as I start talking they'll be like "there's something wrong with this guy isn't there" and become disinterested which is what sort of happened with the girl I methranted to one day about aliens and entity fractals, but she appreciated that. The turn off was when I wasn't on speed the next day and was all like *goes catatonic* n shit. Then the next day they were insulting me and I said "were you insulting me" "no" "good, keep it that way" and the fat-ish blonde girl brought her dad in with her the next day because she was scared and there were police around I think.
13. 2015-07-08 at 4:42 PM UTC in Game torrents thread
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    ITT we post TPB torrents that easily run and are fun to play
    
    not totally sure on this one but so far it seems to be working pretty well
    
    https://thepiratebay.mn/torrent/10283049/Sid.Meier_s.Civilization.V.Game.Of.The.Year.Edition.Repack-R.G.M
14. 2015-07-08 at 2:25 AM UTC in I threatened a girl at church today because I hallucinated her insulting me
    The Boobyverse X = X 1 = 0 Tuskegee Airman
    I havent smoked spice in 3 days and I still get extremely weird perceptual experiences constantly. Is it possible I'm going to be permanently stoned on syncans for the rest of my life even if i dont want to be>
15. 2015-07-08 at 2:23 AM UTC in I threatened a girl at church today because I hallucinated her insulting me
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    schizo creep!
16. 2015-07-08 at 2:21 AM UTC in Myristicin is better than wood rose LSA and morning glory
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    crush up coricidin cough and cold
    
    slam into brain
17. 2015-07-07 at 7:31 PM UTC in What the fuck do humans do all day long?
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    no, you must feel good all of the time, always, and if you don't feel good for 2 minutes you must fantasize about suicide, because nothing exists except the present moment
18. 2015-07-07 at 7:23 PM UTC in What the fuck do humans do all day long?
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    I'm used to never being sober but now that I am it's like what am I supposed to do in my free time? Hours go by so slowly and I've been laying in bed half of the day waiting for the time to go by because there is nothing to do at all. Yeah I can play video games or read or watch TV but am I supposed to do that for 8 hours a day? Every day? I have so little going on in my life I'm really having a hard time understanding what activity means
19. 2015-07-07 at 2:06 PM UTC in I am turning over a new leaf.
    The Boobyverse X = X 1 = 0 Tuskegee Airman
    what 4?
20. 2015-07-07 at 1:55 PM UTC in I am turning over a new leaf.
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    Maybe five days in my spice desperation I pawned my bass guitar and my bass amp for probably what was 10$ worth of spice in total and a handful of codeine pills. I took all of the codeine and smoked and since I took too much of it, it became pretty hard to breathe. I was already on an amphetamine binge, had bundy and CPM in me, which was giving me weird spice-like hallucinations where the world around me would morph into itself.I was looking at vicky's autism face pic and the different layers of her face would swap with one another.
    
    Anyways, once my dad got home, he found like 30 beer cans in a closet and saw the bass was missing, and immediately called an ambulance. Which was totally unnecessary but I guess he was really pissed.. I was nodding out a bit in the emergency room where they did absolutely nothing and proceeded to sleep for 3 days when they transferred me to the psychiatric ward, only waking to respond to their questions.
    
    My parents co-ordinated with the hospital that if I don't follow through with the rehab program, my parents will evict me and then I'll be homeless. Which would suck so obviously I agreed, even though I was freaking the fuck out on the car ride home because I basically just spent 3 days in a hospital for selling my own bass guitar. But now I genuinely plan to be off spice, while still possibly using bundy here or there, and maybe smoking actual weed instead of f. weedicus strains and derivatives containing AB-DABABA-DOOOO-343498923.
    
    I feel like I fucked up a nerve in my neck, because the hospital beds are uncomfortable as fuck and I was pretty much sleeping in the same position for my entire stay, and then when I woke up, besides jerking off in the Mens bathroom, I noticed that my left eyelid was twitching, and it still is, and I can't tell if that's something that's actually happening or I'm just getting all psychoneurotic about some smalll thing that I'm only imagining. Either way, don't wanna damage dem neurons because once you do it's hard to repair them sometimes, despite unspecified body region neurogenesis. I've been doing demon-possession like convulsions in my spare time to flex certain neck muscles that connect to the eyebrow because I believe if I make the connections stronger it'll stabilize any twitching there may be, but who knows, it could possibly even increase it.
    
    I went to my rehab counselor and usually I can make up or remember a bunch of great things I learned about drugs and otherwise to try to impress her or otherwise just fill in dead space but this time I think I didn't bullshit very well and I feel kind of embarrassed because it probably made me seem extremely pretentious. Like, I go "cannabis is a partial agonist at cannabinoid receptors while synthetic cannabinoids are typically full agonists, and I think the cannabinoids in the brain are what give color to life, and through that color people interact with the world, and these interactions produce neurogenesis, and when you abuse cannabinoids as a rebound the world seems very flat and grey and that has to do with reduced neurogenesis"
    
    "i wonder if people could abuse SSRIs by inhaling the combustion byproducts or injecting them, because amphetamines and SSRIs both mainly work on the three primary neurotransmitter systems of adrenaline, serotonin, and dopamine, so finding the right byproduct could possibly be a recreational drug, or injecting an SSRI might caught profound effects because of the serotonin dump in the blood like an MDMA roll possibly"
    
    or "psychedelics work on 5HT2A, uh serotonin receptors, second type, subtype A, and SSRIs just generally increase the amount of serotonin in the synapse, so when I overdosed on antidepressants there was possibly enough serotonin in the synapse to bind to low affinity target receptors like 5HT2A, which caused the hallucinations induced by zoloft"..
    
    I guess the things I've said may be true on some level but now I feel embarrassed because I probably came off as extremely narcissistic to her, oh well, next time I go in i'll try to have a little bit more respect during conversation and not to be so egocentric. Just overly convoluted shit.
    
    My amphetamine benders have pretty much gone to waste anyway, because even though I've created my test (and it's a very good test IMO) there's nothing I can really....do with it. My main goals were to complete my test and make my website. Besides that, I like to read wikipedia and pubmed but my interests have basically been limited to a select few topics: specific receptor affinities of various psychiatric medications, effects of these receptors and psychiatric medications on neurogenesis, biological findings in mental illness, genetics of personality and mental illness, chemicals that induce neurogenesis, neurological assessments, personality assessments, and IQ testing.
    
    Which is cool and all but I already know enough on these topics (and neuroscience and psychology on a general level), and I don't know what I should get into next, because learning an entirely new topic requires entirely new pattern separations that requires more mental energy than simply elaborating on a topic you are already knowledgeable about, and nothing really seems to catch my interest that much. I've been playing a lot of video games and I used to make pen and paper "video games" so working on something like that could possibly be fun, but it would obviously be a tremendous amount of effort and I don't know if I have the energy for something that intensive.
    
    That's why making IQ test problems and visual logic puzzles was so fun for me. They're sort of like games, and you need a lot of creativity and reasoning, and all you need to create one is MS paint and some relationships between the objects you draw, with higher complexities correlating with higher difficulties. The only other thing I would do on amphetamines would be type giant posts which is always a lot of fun because the more you write the larger your e-peen is, and when you see how fucking long your final post is, and press submit, it's like an orgasm and then you spent the following hours obsessive reading over your beautiful meth post.
    
    I finally understand what the 12 looping entities hallucination on starter fluid meant. Because reality is organized into different logic levels, on various microscopic/macroscopic scales (atoms, quarks, planets, etc), and a ll of these levels are interdependent on one another to function as a cohesive system (see profile pic)
    
    I feel like dying a lot of the time because no will + drugs + boredom, but so it goes and then I feel better and don't care..as long as I keep the methposts flowing everythings good
    
    thoughts?