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2019-04-06 at 12:28 PM UTC in I have submitted the concept of &Totse to Adult Swim
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2019-04-06 at 12:26 PM UTC in Is Mal fuckable?
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2019-04-06 at 12:24 PM UTC in Is Mal fuckable?
Originally posted by Technologist Juice,
But what if you find a woman with that thing that makes your heart race? You know, where there’s an electricity between you.
Lol. Pretty much any woman that I find even mildly attractive, I start thinking about her in some sweatpants on the sofa with me watching a movie. Or whether she'll look cute angry when I tell her she's got hairier feet than I do, and start hitting me with a pillow. Or whether I'll want to kiss her when she's all sick with the flu and gross and sweaty and hasn't showered for 3 days. And then I picture her screaming at me, and how we'd most likely break up.
Yeah my percentages were probably a bit off, but the truth is that people have different standards. The chance that someone is going to have that butterflies in the stomach feeling for you too...isn't great for guys in our positions. At 25+ women have generally had a few bad relationships by that point. They've dated the "bad boy" they've tried to fix someone. They've had a complete loser. I may just have zero idea what I'm talking about too, but generally, I think women want stability, security. Someone they can be proud to be seen with or talk about. When you're coming off a decade plus heroin addiction, you're just not ticking a ton of those boxes.
I should check my Tinder. I think I right swiped a lot of homely looking girls bc I felt like they should get some attention too, and I don't mind talking to anyone. Socializing is good. But like I was describing above, maybe some of those girls get those butterflies reading my profile. Anything is possible rofl. But I'm not really interested in anything more than talking with them. And generally, women have much higher standards than dudes. Yadadameen?
Idk. Relationship stuff is iffy. Especially In recovery. I should actually start going to NA meetings lol. Shit sounds like a party. -
2019-04-06 at 11:51 AM UTC in Is Mal fuckable?
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2019-04-06 at 11:50 AM UTC in Is Mal fuckable?
Originally posted by Technologist Up to you man. But I wouldn’t lie. My hubby knows about my addiction to coccaine. Not proud of it, but he knows how low I sunk, and what it took for me to get out of it. He’s proud of my accomplishment.
I think what you’re doing is amazing.
Originally posted by Technologist I can’t picture lying about such a huge chunk of my life, and then carrying on with that lie for years?….nahhhh. The “type” of girls that wouldn’t accept you would be stuck up bitches, do you really want that kind of person in your life? I think you’re going down the wrong road just to get your dick wet.
No i think you misunderstood. My reluctance to lie is pretty much the entire reason I haven't gotten laid in years, and haven't been in a relationship in near a decade. That's why I'm really only comfortable talking to women who know all that stuff from he get-go. It's just too much baggage to dump in someone's lap, and honestly as a guy in my situation, you're probably going to get shot down > 95% of the time. And out of that 5%, probably 3% are batshit crazy or with their own major flaws that makes them willing to compromise.
In short, I really just don't have the time, energy or inclination to put myself out there with all my fucked up shit- and wade through a sea of rejections to find that 2% someone I'd actually be happy with.
Lol. But if you have a friend, have her get at me lol. -
2019-04-06 at 11:04 AM UTC in Is Mal fuckable?I meant with like normal people of our ages that I'd meet in...whatever 30 year old do socially. Rofl. It's kind of expected that you have an education, a career, stories of everything you did after high school. Relationships. Horror stories. It's expected that you have a place and a car. It's so nice to not have the stress of having to broach those topics. That was one of the only reasons I was talking to the girl I was as talking to here in LA. met her dealing to her ex bf. She took a shine to me. Was nice just talking to someone. But she always had things come up and reasons why she couldn't meet up, and I guess when I felt bad about myself, I felt like I was lucky to have someone like her interested in me at all. But a couple days ago I just told her I honestly wish her well, but I'm so much happier when I don't think about her at all.
But yeah...it's nice to just have all those cards on the table. I guess that's why I see so many people getting hitched out of NA. -
2019-04-06 at 10:59 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Editiontpain is crude fentanyl? I thought it was just like slammable hydrocodone tier shit? I mean 5g of furanyl fent on the dark web is like $300. If you're going to fuck up your life with opiates, just do that. A 10g batch kept me going for a little less than 6 months, and I was snorting shit like 18 hours out of every day. My nose was so fucked I had to start using a Neti Pot and nasal spray just so I could cram more drugs in my nose hole. Passed drug tests like a champ.
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2019-04-06 at 10:53 AM UTC in Is Mal fuckable?I feel like Bill Krozby would just try to use an ugly chick for money/drugs instead of bang.
She seems pretty cool. And it sounds like she's actually doing shit with her life which is a lot more sexy at this stage than some random bitch who just wants to smoke meth and give me aggressive head until I pass out so she can steal my xanax. If I wasn't old and broke down, I'd probably buy her a couple beers, Eat some mushrooms, talk about life shit, and then try to suck on those titties. Anyone that can get raped and choose to simply clown on the dude and try to emasculate him can't be all that bad. Rofl.
Also, it'd be cool to be around someone of the opposite sex that knows all your dirt so you don't have to bullshit small talk and lie to fill in the gaps in your life. -
2019-04-06 at 10:44 AM UTC in It seems as though Lanny has accepted us DHers more so than his fellow TOTSEANS and Zokleteers...In b4 the NIS dating app. Lanny could whip something up in a couple weeks I'm sure.
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2019-04-06 at 10:43 AM UTC in It seems as though Lanny has accepted us DHers more so than his fellow TOTSEANS and Zokleteers...
Originally posted by -SpectraL The whole premise of &Totse is we don't "accept" each other. And if we "accept" you, that's your queue to be on guard.
Yeah that was the old guard. Now we're just middle aged fucks who recognize a Real Nigga. Real recognize real, ya dig? I like our little family. But then again I've talked to some of these people for almost 20 years so.... -
2019-04-06 at 10:39 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Octavian I wonder if I set myself a challenge to get a 6 pack in 6 weeks I could actually do it?
I suppose the humility of being laughed at by you faggits would push me to get there….
I was going to post a pic in my underwear to get me to be held accountable for my fitness goals, but couldn't bring myself to do it. There's a couple people here spiteful enough that I wouldn't be surprised if I walked in one day to see my slumped over profile and saggy tits on my work computer. -
2019-04-06 at 8:53 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH
this is going SOOO hard.
Lol. A horse is the new foreign.
"Awwww shit nigga idk u was running an Arabian sheeeit nigga that piece is clean. Lookit da shine on dat bit. See the veins poppin out a nigga so big n black my lady might ask him to take the kids to school on accident. Lol. Feel me niqquh?" -
2019-04-05 at 8:50 PM UTC in It seems as though Lanny has accepted us DHers more so than his fellow TOTSEANS and Zokleteers...Yeah I'm trustworthy. Everyone show casper your giblets.
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2019-04-05 at 8:49 PM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?So you're saying you're on the spectrum...somewhere around the middle?
The user name suddenly makes sense. -
2019-04-05 at 8:47 PM UTC in It seems as though Lanny has accepted us DHers more so than his fellow TOTSEANS and Zokleteers...
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2019-04-05 at 8:47 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Sudo I've only been doing hydromorphone daily for about 3 weeks and already by nose is bleeding and I'm getting some rock hard boogers. I'm switching to IV for my nasal well being
also tramadol is a pleb tier opiate
Yeah I was doing 3/4 g of China white every day for a year. Coming up on 6 months clean, and my nose still isn't back to normal. It's like it killed the mucus gland or someshit. I have to soften my boogs with hot water, otherwise they yank out all my nose hairs and make my eyes water. Shit sucks. -
2019-04-05 at 8:44 PM UTC in Dream Market to close in AprilIn b4 caspers PO box becomes the new Dream market.
Only it'd be called like....Ghost Market. -
2019-04-05 at 8:43 PM UTC in It seems as though Lanny has accepted us DHers more so than his fellow TOTSEANS and Zokleteers...Aside from the faggotty normie drama, like 40% of you are alright. I'll leave it to you to decide who's who.
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2019-04-05 at 6:45 PM UTC in I am so damn horny!
Originally posted by Octavian You really have to cut the dead weights loose mate. Sometimes I would be sat in my smoke filled livingroom mangled on cocaine, looking at my "friends" thinking I had a personality disorder. Maybe it's the company and social contact that I enjoyed, I never felt they were my "equals".
Find a blank piece of paper. Write "A" on the left, and "B" on the right. The space inbetween write all the things down that is stopping you from getting to B. I.e., digusting transients and succubai meth whores draining time & resources that can be put to better use.
This. I feel like I need to have friends and be doing normal things, but 95% of the people I know are useless, spineless, helpless, braindead addict scum. Sometimes in my head while I'm with them, someone will ask me for $2 for a pack of smokes and in my head I'll be like "You're a 28 year old man, nigger. Wtf is wrong with you? Why do I even talk to you?" -
2019-04-05 at 6:38 PM UTC in I have submitted the concept of &Totse to Adult SwimI've already shopped this to a couple people. I think someone's exact response was "No one wants to spend a half an hour a week watching twacked out, autistic nerds play grab-ass on the internet."
