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2019-06-06 at 7:28 PM UTC in Love song for OctavianApprove
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2019-06-06 at 4:51 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by IWD This has brought me to tears. I liked that fucking guy. Fuck.
Is there any chance it's photoshopped? Probably not, right?
No dude I did not spend days photoshopping the autopsy report of a dude I never met. I really wish I'd never found it in the first place.
I forget what I was looking for- I think jail records for a friend. Which brought me to crime reports. Which brought me to Emergency call reports. Which made me think of Malice. Which led me to look through those on the date he made the post, for any unresponsive male Hispanic calls in Pomona. And then I searched the LA county medical examiner site, and that name was the next to last one on the third page and I remembered the name in the emails he sent me, and I kinda wanted to puke.
There's no conspiracy here. He was fucked up and sad and he killed himself. End of story. -
2019-06-06 at 4:35 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-06-06 at 3:39 PM UTC in I think Juicebox is gone.
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2019-06-06 at 3:37 PM UTC in girls are generally more chill than guys
Originally posted by GGG I knew a girl like that at my old job. She was cute but I just liked talking and I knew we weren't compatible anyway so it would've been pointless to try. I think she knew I wasn't trying too, which is probably a relief for a lot of girls.
One time she came to me in the back crying. I was the only one there. Girl was kind of play screaming 'WHY WHY WHY' and slamming her hands on the freezers.
I thought she was joking because it was so busy, so I joined in saying 'WHY WHY WHY'. Then then she looked up at me face all red and I saw how utterly autistic I was. She smiled and asked if i needed help. I told her to stretch dough as it ACTUALLY hit me that she was crying for real.
Some other girl came by, saw her face, and immediately took her away to talk.
I helped nothing and only mocked her/tried to make my job easier by giving a crying woman work to do.
I still feel bad about it cause that girl was an angel.
Yiiiikes. Lol. -
2019-06-06 at 3:35 PM UTC in girls are generally more chill than guys
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III yea actually thats kind of what i was thinking about when i made this thread, there's this girl at work that we always talk about our mental breakdowns and shit and its nice to be open. it wasn't like that right off the bat but it didn't take too long. we both like running and taking research chemicals and she's actually cute as fuck but i just want her as a friend because it's nice to not have that sexual tension
Ditto. She knows I was strung out for a long time and stuff, and we talked about depression and her mom dying. And her bad relationship she just got out of, and not really knowing what we want out of life. I've always found her super attractive, but even if she was amenable to that, I dig her so much as a person and a friend, and she's generally just so supportive and cool and authentic that I wouldn't ever want to fuck that up. Plus women just have a sweet caring energy that you just can't get from a guy at least without it feeling kind of strange. Not like men can't be caring and compassionate, but it's just.... different. Idk. -
2019-06-06 at 2:18 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy ReportZoklet killer= lamest calling card ever
I'm sure all the deaths have nothing to do with the fact that we're all socially awkward, terminally depressed, perpetually underemployed drug addicted angsty faggots. -
2019-06-06 at 2:15 PM UTC in girls are generally more chill than guysYeah just started talking to a couple girls I hadn't talked to in a cool minute. It was nice being able to just be straight up and honest. Plus being able to run my fashion choices and shit by them is cool.
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2019-06-06 at 2:07 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Sudo Yeah I can't see you taking your own life overtly anytime soon, esp since quitting opiates and seeking to taper off the juice. You seem more the clinically depressed self destructive coping mechanism type not the painfully unable to deal type.
I hate to say it but Malices autism was definitely a contributing factor in his suicide. It crippled his ability to make changes and form relationships. He's kind of a cautionary tale of isolated autism. RIP
also, does anyone know the correlation between the time he said "the bus is here" and when he actually did it? It's kind of sweet this place was one of his last thought but also sad it was a collection of people he never met were the last people he reached out to
I think when I went through it the first time I figured it was within a couple hours of posting. Of course prolly took 30 min or so to die after ingestion. I'm still annoyed he broke his promise. Was supposed to hang out with me for one single day before he did it. Kinda fucking inconsiderate but w/e it's done.
Yeah I mean it's not so much that I want to die. I'm just practical. I'm really jacked up and really behind, and I don't know if the things that I want out of life are ever going to be a possibility. People will tell you "anythings possible" but let's just be real. A homeless junkie has about as much chance at becoming a lawyer as a 75 year old does at becoming at astronaut. Sure it's, possible but so is a roller skating water buffalo. I'd rather just have a decent life and be happy.
But yeah I finally figured out that it wasn't just the shitty life and drugs making me sad. There's some legit chemical imbalance going on. All my angst you suicidal journal entries from when I was 14. Were a clue to that effect. If things ever get bad, it's still an option. Last year I was at like a 6.5-7 with 10 being completely ready to die, and in the 4-5 years before that I was at like an 8.5-9.. but now I'm just willing to give this whole process a shot and see if it works, its lame and gay to go like he did without even trying.
Sobriety is hard. Life is fucking hard. Shit sucks sometimes. A lot of the time. It there's also a ton of cool stuff that you miss out if you disengage from life. So I'm just going to give it as much focus and energy as I feel I can until I just don't have it to give anymore. -
2019-06-06 at 1:33 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Sudo I can't believe malice wouldn't take a free hooker. He was a man of his word I believe if he took the money for a hooker he would have earmarked it for hooker related activities. SWIM offered to mail him opiates before for his advice on nootropics he never ended up taking but he just wanted noots instead lol autism
Yeah I offered him heroin and an escort of up to $700 in value, but the only thing that got him excited was the prospect of talking me into killing myself with him.
I was like "bro. Son. I cannot imagine a gayer way to go out. Hard pass, man." -
2019-06-06 at 1:27 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy ReportOkay. Bc you keep talking about like....conspiracies to murder different posters and shit. That sounds highly crazy.
If you didn't know, Malice was an autistic virgin who never left his apartment for 15 years and had no friends so he killed himself. Imagining he had a girlfriend is.....lulzy. I'd sooner imagine him with a self- installed cyber optic eyeball than a real life woman.
And that's a sad way to start my morning :( -
2019-06-06 at 1:23 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Ghost I know multiple people that got money either that or they lied about it. And no I don't want money from someone thats gonna kill themself, I used to give out money when I was rich and suicidal and it's fucked up and usually ends in a psych ward
I'm not sure I believe that but okay.
You hated Malice. You'd have taken his money in a heartbeat. -
2019-06-06 at 1:22 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro EditionThA NiggA u LuV 2 HaTe
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2019-06-06 at 1:19 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Ghost it was everyone thats what im saying you got fucked over, everyone here just wanted money from you before you died and they got the money, did their moral self licensing by rattoxing you to the authorities and then you were quickly forgotten and everyone moved on.
Lol no one got any money dude. But you're completely full of shit if you try to tell me if Malice hadn't offered you a few hundred bucks to build your triangle collection that you wouldn't have sent him financial details in a heartbeat.
I love juice, but if someone's going to be dead, why should the family they rarely talked to get to buy a new roomba with the money that the decedent probably would've spent in darknet cocaine and camwhores? Makes zero sense. Like I sad I've instructed a couple of people to login here if I ever die prematurely, and give away all my crap, actually when I set that up, it was on zoklet, but my logins always been the same, and most of you are in my Steam list anyway. -
2019-06-06 at 1:13 PM UTC in I think Juicebox is gone.RiP 2 a reel 1
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2019-06-06 at 1:10 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-06-06 at 12:59 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Jυicebox Yep. Still haven't figured out who it was or who sent me that text message. They would've had to have read what I posted here, but I don't think anyone here has my phone number.
There's only a couple of people irl that know about this place, so I'm guessing it was one of them, and I'll probably be able to tell by their reaction to the story who did it
We all ratted on you. You posted some number in a thread and there was a campaign to have your sister check on you to make sure you weren't dead or preparing to massacre the innocent. -
2019-06-06 at 12:44 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III you heard this one fam
Yeah I never got into choking victim/ leftover crack style music as a kid bc I didn't have cool friends or friends at all for that matter, but I love dayz n daze. I think they came to Los Angeles last year and I wasn't very unhappy not to be able to see them. -
2019-06-06 at 12:38 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Technologist Wow, that really does taper down. I can see what you mean, but I’d just do whatever it takes to accommodate your sausage fingers.😁. I bet you’d make your money back and be able to get a different one!
Casper would you please embrace your size? It’s fun being tall. I know I’m not as tall as you, but compared to most women I am. But they sure are “makin em bigger nowadays”! I used to walk kinda hunched over, I could just see you doing that, stop it🛑. There are more advantages to being tall than being short.
I know, one thing at a time, it’ll come.
Yeah I'm not trying to be a whiner just everything is harder when your tall and overweight too. I'd gladly chop off 8 inches and just be 6" even. Clothes are hard to find and uncomfortable. My hands are too big and dexterity stuff is hard to do. Blah. I was doing the same beginner exercise like 12 times in a row, and even when I remembered exactly where to put my fingers without looking down, my fingers would be crowding the other strings and it sounded like a marble in a tuna can.
I just did see that my capo came in the mail though, so that's cool. Means in some songs I don't have to do as much dexterous stuff.
If you put it on 2nd fret, and play like a d chord on the 4th, then Em, Am...sounds like cranberries "dreams". ALMOST SOUNDS LIKE YOURE PLAYING A REAL SONG.
And yeah I always walk hunched over and now my posture is just fucked. Partly it was bc my back hurt, and partly because it would de-accentuate my bitch tits but now I just look like I have scoliosis or spinabifida or some shit. Lol. -
2019-06-06 at 11:38 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by Dregs oh fuck! wasn't a demon exactly but malice's(who i don't even know or looks like) came into a nightmare of mine hunting me down for stealing $3000 from him. apparently a friend of his was keeping it safe for him and i got it somehow. did malice ever have a gf on here? zoklet? she wants some things of his but not the money. she keeps attacking me for this shit and i don't even know what she wants. like wtf?
Nigga what?
Ok so i guess schizophrenia isnt just your "shtick", but an actual diagnosis, huh?
