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2024-09-30 at 1:17 AM UTC in Football Sunday Discussion & Criticisms (Mostly just be critciizing people as always with no real on topic discussion)I can't watch my team because I'd probably have to pay for NFL Network and stream the game since I'm not in the viewing area so I have to just check scores on Google but my Bengals finally got their first win today!
Who Dey! -
2024-09-30 at 1:13 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
Originally posted by Bradley i just wanna smoke good weed with a fat girl and feel happy
That sounds like a good time, I'm usually not into fat chicks but I could fuck with one as long as she had a pretty face.
I guess I'll just smoke a little by myself and go to sleep. This weekend didn't last long enough ๐ข -
2024-09-29 at 2:28 PM UTC in What are you doing at the momentAbout to take the dog out, I want to go back to sleep
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2024-09-29 at 5:09 AM UTC in What's in your knickers drawer?
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2024-09-29 at 4:59 AM UTC in What is the meaning of life?
Originally posted by RisiR โ Yea, that describes it to a tee.
Get help for real. To me it was hell. My girlfriend tried to help and understand my crazy thoughts but no one could understand. I felt like I was in hell trying to solve serious puzzles with imaginary clues and I would get close but could never solve it. It was mental torture. That was daily bundy and spice abuse. I would plateau sigma for weeks and hit the spice and it was a horrible combination to abuse like I did. I just say get help because for me it resulted in violence
To be fair if it happened right now I'd beat the old motherfucker in the head. He wasn't ready to stab me though. That's twice I've had a knife pulled on me. The second time I was running over to have my best friend's back cuz dude pulled a knife. That infuriated me because I was fucked up about other shit and had stress to unload on him. We traded hands, honestly some sloppy boxing because we had winter coats. Anyway I caught him and made him fall and it was all bad. For threatening my best friend's life I kicked his head full force probably 10 times. Once I knew I was kicking his face, his painful moan made me realize I probably would kill him with more so I stopped. His eye was drooped and looked like it was about to fall out.
I felt bad after that. He's lucky we left our knives at our camp (we were homeless) or I'd eye for eye but if I pull a weapon I'm using it.
Being threatened with a weapon or pulling on one of my homies all bets are off. I was told as a kid in a street fight to absolutely fight dirty. When dude hit the ground I unloaded all my stress on his head. I kinda wanted to keep going but I definitely neutralized the threat.
Oh before I ran up my dude said he pulled the knife and jumped down and slashed his bike tire. Also when I got there dude's girl was hanging on his back trying to choke him. He kept gently trying to get her off. She's lucky it wasn't me because my mama said a woman is fair game if she hits you or tries to hurt you. I'd have flipped her over my shoulder and hurt her. He wouldn't hit a girl, bitch hits me she can get hit right back and that came out my Mama's mouth.
I kept trying to apologize he was hesitant which was understandable but we ended up shaking hands and letting it be. I just felt bad because he was mangled and I'm not a fighter but point is seriously threaten me or a loved one and you should just use your weapon. I don't have any rules or morals in those situations. I only stopped because I thought for sure I would have killed dude.
All this happened while a Cincinnati cop had someone pulled over 2 blocks away and surely seen all of it. Didn't pay no mind.
That's some of the story of the darkest time of my life. I'm not psychotic like when I had the first knife pulled thank God. My depression is even getting better. I was actually dopesick as fuck when I kicked the shit out of dude, puking and fever. Day 2 cold turkey off fentanyl and I whooped dude bad. I wasn't psychotic at all then. I had a handicap honestly lol.
Life can get better even when you think it won't or don't care.
PS my homie said afterwards Dude you aren't the smartest cat I know but you are one helluva real friend and you got heart when it counts. -
2024-09-29 at 4:30 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..I'm now very happy. I heard from a good friend I haven't heard from in a couple years probably. Now at least I know she's alive. I told her to come live with me.
Oh I got the lightweight loopy crazies starting but as soon as I go to bed I'll wake up good.
Hearing from her made me she's a tear of happiness.
Now I'm finna go to sleep. My day was a great one and I hoe everyone else had a good day ๐ -
2024-09-29 at 4:26 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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2024-09-29 at 2:36 AM UTC in What is the meaning of life?
Originally posted by RisiR โ ^^^^
This is what I've been doing the past 6 weeks or so.
I had months, ended up seeing personal messages on the tv and radio and in random things like trash wrappers on the ground. Then I'd try to decode it and make connections with it. I was also being gangstalked but the only crime I did was boosting from Walmart and the dollar stores. Mostly robo, C's and delsym which most definitely made things worse. I had time loops that lasted forever it felt like. -
2024-09-29 at 2:32 AM UTC in What is the meaning of life?
Originally posted by RisiR โ I probably have to. I have already waved a knife at a dude and went out to let another one know I'm armed and ready. Also took some pics of my neighbors and their houses and stuff like that. I'm a bit of a danger, also to myself.
4loko.
I had my neighbor pull a knife on me because I was going nuts in the hall. If I hadn't sold my guns I probably would have shot him thankfully that didn't happen. I thought I'd burn the building down with him in it. It smoldered out thank God. Got a felony got a 5 year sentence. I was supposed to get mental health evaluation before I snapped. Instead I got jail time. -
2024-09-29 at 2:27 AM UTC in What is the meaning of life?
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2024-09-29 at 2:25 AM UTC in What is the meaning of life?
Originally posted by RisiR โ Like for example (b b) from bigger bitch to (n n) in nigger nitch. I could spend a week just researching literally all possible connections there and that is not a joke. At all.
Ooh I've been there. Making mental connections between anything and everything and unable to stop thinking like that. For me it was definitely a serious psychotic episode that ended up with me going total danger to everything. If you are prone to violence or really believe people follow you and are after you then get help. I tried to explain my thoughts to the two closest to me and they just called me crazy.
Seriously don't wait until something happens, get mental health help before you end up hurt or in jail or something. -
2024-09-29 at 2:20 AM UTC in What is the meaning of life?
Originally posted by RisiR โ I honestly can't hang out here anymore. I feel like everything is some kind of inside joke I don't get or even am the butt of.
It's also so scary, trippy and weird here but maybe that's just me.
This place is just like that, it's because we're all weirdos but in our own unique ways. A break from places like this isn't a bad thing though. I understand. -
2024-09-29 at 2:02 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....Feeling tired, but I don't have to wake up to an alarm, that's a great feeling
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2024-09-29 at 1:59 AM UTC in ๐ฌ๐ฌCandy~Land๐ฌ๐ฌSeem like you're keeping it too live this weekend ๐ have fun, it's been a good one so far
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2024-09-29 at 1:54 AM UTC in What's in your knickers drawer?I guess knickers are draws? My underwear gets folded and put in a little basket. I have a cigarette/junk drawer and above it a Crouton drawer right next to me. They are more important than an underwear drawer.
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2024-09-29 at 1:52 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
Originally posted by RisiR โ Dead inside and probably outside, too.
Literally scared of typing anything right now because I think that turned out to lead to some misunderstandings. No internet seems like a good idea for some time.
I hope we will see us again, though.
No Internet is always a good idea, get some real life in your life and you will feel better. I need to as well, I should be asleep soon. Goodnight y'all -
2024-09-29 at 1:45 AM UTC in Things you'll never be
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2024-09-29 at 1:43 AM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?Kept this on repeat earlier when I had to go to the store, my shit!
Even if your friends want to be untrue you know the money's still good to you
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2024-09-29 at 1:40 AM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?
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2024-09-28 at 11:47 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..It's strange to still technically be on poverty level pay but feel like I'm not because I don't spend my whole check immediately and be screwed. I guess not doing that fetty wop kinda helps there too.
