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2018-04-13 at 12:41 AM UTC in Things you could say during sex or at a family dinner table"Set a place for the dog!"
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2018-04-13 at 12:41 AM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by Fox Paws Nah it used to be good. Well, better. We always had some problems. Just got worse when she moved in. Like, amplified by 5x. But she used to be sweet.
Then I guess if it gets out of control I’ll just murder/suicide? No jk. I dunno but I will be pretty well fucked if it doesn’t go to plan. Because she will ruin my life.
We took kind of a break once before. When that happened she showed up at my work twice, called into my work asking for me 3 times, stole the SIM card out of my phone and texted a bunch of people pretending to be me, basically ruined a professional relationship for me (I almost got HR called on me for that one), uhhh some other stuff too. So yeah she’s tried shit before
Yeah, if she's done that sort of thing before you're right to take time off for this shit. Some people are going to hurt you no matter how you try to stop them, but at least you're trying. Do you think there's a chance that she'll be difficult enough that you just decide it's easier to stay together? -
2018-04-13 at 12:11 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by hydromorphone For 6 years I've only used tianpetine to help me function with my chronic pain. Before that I wasn't even able to work, much less leave bed most days- I needed help just to the bathroom a lot even. I wouldnt call it abuse when the drug I use literally gave me part of my life back. I also was on pain management for 6 years before coming off that for 2 years (when I pretty Much had no quality of life, save for when at the end of it I began buying pills now and again), so its not like this shit isn't documented. My discontinuation was an insurance/financial reason, no other- I could have stayed on forever if I'd have been able to afford it and wanted to deal with bullshit from the doctors. I also have a thoracic aortic aneurysm, had a heart attack in March 2016, and back in 2013 had a pulmonary embolism.
Even at that, none of my health issues have any connection to any drug usage. T-PAIN doesn't even have the profile to cause epilepsy. I've tried many anti-epileptics and none work or work to any degree its justifies dealing with the risks and side effects, though I did up my tianpetine better than anything before has helped, but I realize that's a losing battle, so I just keep it to as low as helps my pain so I can function half way normal.
For a short stent as a 16-17 kid I did abuse alcohol for a period. Xanax was another, but there was more to do with memory issues, bad anxiety attacks, which some was caused directly by the pain from my accident, along with just depression and stupidity. That for for about a year and then I cut it out and took me almost as long to get my head back together.
I've never abused an opiate though despite what people would like to think. I've never just used or nodded out for the fun of it.
Its complicated and more than just 'this way' or 'that'.
Edit: and for the record, when it began, I looked at everything for an answer as to why this started. Even T-PAIN. I believe now its caused from the many blows I've received to the head over the years, one too many TBI's, which fits with other symptoms I experience.
Uh, are you sure, Hydromorphone? -
2018-04-13 at 12:08 AM UTC in Wincest murder/suicide RIP in piece
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2018-04-13 at 12:06 AM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by Fox Paws Yeah I pick up on shit like that. You may have read me completely wrong. I might actually be hyper-sensitive to other people’s thoughts, feelings etc. I just choose to not act on this information sometimes.
I’m probably gonna take a couple weeks off from work (so she can’t show up at my job and cause a scene in the middle of the day), tell her to pack her shit and leave (I’ll even buy her a plane ticket back home), and pretty much give her a ride to the airport. Or just call her an Uber/Lyft. And then get a restraining order against her.
Ummm that’s my plan I guess.
Originally posted by Fox Paws Oh I left out the part where I’d probably have a multi-day fuckfest with the new chick afterward
That sounds like a good plan, especially your addendum about the new chick. What will you do if matters with the current one get out of control?
Has she caused you serious trouble in the past, so you at least know what to expect? Have you ever tried this before? -
2018-04-13 at 12:04 AM UTC in Wincest murder/suicide RIP in pieceThey look like they have different ethnic makeup. If they really are related, how closely can it be? Half-siblings or cousins, I'd guess.
EDIT: Really? Wow, he must moisturize or something. -
2018-04-13 at 12:01 AM UTC in Things you could say during sex or at a family dinner table"Kids, stop eating, we're going to pray first."
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2018-04-12 at 11:59 PM UTC in Is curing patients a sustainable business model?If I were in charge of a pharmaceutical company, I would develop new diseases and make people who want to be cured of one illness trade it for a new one that has no cure.
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2018-04-12 at 11:56 PM UTC in Things you could say during sex or at a family dinner table"Put away the food or I'm getting dressed."
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2018-04-12 at 11:52 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by jedi.Goldstein I don't want to be a complainer.
You should try it, sometimes you just start complaining and when you're done, you feel much better. Maybe it'd be the best thing you can do for yourself that day.
Originally posted by Fox Paws Yeah basically. I mean the main reason I didn’t want to / haven’t left my girlfriend yet is because she’s liable to go batshit and just fucking sabotage everything in my life she possibly can. So I’ve just been pretty much waiting for something else to come along for a long time now.
When you said I “seized” upon it I just imagined you as Eminem singing “Lose Yourself” lulz. They should change your user title to “spaghetti”.
I’m not gonna get all gay and talk about my feelings and shit. She’s really nice, sexy, closer to my age, and she just seems to get me. And I’m pretty sure she sees me the same way.
I did briefly think about Eminem as I composed that post, oddly enough. Maybe I unconsciously recalled the lyrics. You may have just picked my music for the evening.
Glad to hear that the new girl gets you, by the way. So as far as the first girl is concerned, it's self-preservation, then? I've always found that to be one of the more taxing and less sustainable modes of operating. What is your exit strategy, if I may ask? -
2018-04-12 at 11:45 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by mmQ So do you think empathy is something that can be consciously controlled?
I think it's something that must be observed. We all have a capacity for empathy to one degree or another, but some have wells of the stuff overflowing, threatening to drown them, and others suffer perpetual drought. It's not something that can be replicated or manufactured, or the world would be a much gentler place. I do think that it can be cultivated, but it requires practice. Then there are more invasive ways, like MDMA. -
2018-04-12 at 11:39 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by jedi.Goldstein I hope people empathise with me and the suffering I go through every day.
I'm sure many people do, and a few of them are probably close to you already. Do you have a therapist or someone you can talk to, you know, outside of NiS?
Originally posted by Fox Paws I’ve always known I needed a change, at least that aspect of my life (the relationship). Well I say “always”, maybe like 2-3 years? Just things got kind of stagnant and stayed the same for a long time. When you get so entrenched in the daily grind of shit, it’s hard to take that leap.
I met her randomly, completely out of nowhere. I didn’t fully transition from one relationship to the next yet. At this point I’m kind of “cheating”, I guess you’d call it.
So you were with one woman, desiring something else, but not knowing what or whom, when this new girl arrived into the picture? I'm glad you seized upon that moment when you did, instead of letting yourself remain in that stagnation. I'm not about to give you grief over cheating when you're clearly planning your escape. You're putting your needs first because you have to. How does this new girl make you feel? -
2018-04-12 at 11:33 PM UTC in I'm depressed totseI feel it's important to ask: what are you depressed about?
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2018-04-12 at 11:32 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by mmQ Are you content with your high level? Can you empathize with someone who would not want to have as much empathy as you?
It's not a matter of whether or not I can, it's that I feel as though I have to. I've learned not to let it lead me into trouble. At this point in my life, it's a strength. -
2018-04-12 at 11:30 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
Originally posted by Fox Paws I met someone else.
I’m pretty alright with my level of empathy yeah. I admit I’m not as empathetic as most people are (or pretend to be, rather). But I think I do enough good in the world to make up for it.
I always tip like 30-40% at restaurants. I don’t do anything to fuck anyone over or take things from people. I get along with pretty much everyone I know. Most people seem to like me actually and think I’m charming.
What else you wanna know
How did you meet this new girl? How did you transition from the other one? What ultimately led you to the realization that you needed a change, and how did you approach that from within a dysfunctional relationship? -
2018-04-12 at 11:27 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?
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2018-04-12 at 11:24 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?Okay, sorry to have assumed. I must ask how it got better, though. My experience has been that they usually get worse. Are you content with the amount of empathy that you feel?
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2018-04-12 at 11:20 PM UTC in I'm depressed totseTake drugs, and make other people feel similarly. Get a job where you have authority, that's always a good outlet for depression to thrive.
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2018-04-12 at 11:18 PM UTC in Fox Paws, try an empathogen?You've complained about your blunted affect on a few occasions that I've seen. It's clearly a problem that reduces your quality of life. I'd like to see you enjoy some relief.
Would you ever consider taking a drug in order to bring back some of what you used to feel? -
2018-04-12 at 10:32 PM UTC in Re: Zok. It makes sense nowI remember standing outside of Zoklet HQ after the last mod party. Zok stepped out the back door and asked me for a cigarette. While we shared that final smoke, I asked him, "What's next?"
He chuckled, and said, "Fuck it, I'll work for the FBI."
I shit you not, he's probably reading this thread rn laughing
