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2022-03-10 at 2:18 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....It started as an OCD thing when I was 13, saw tan as dirt because it comes off when you exfoliate, my curtains have been closed since. Now I see the decay everywhere, coming off buildings and trees, rust or soon to be rust everywhere. It’s like a negative mindfulness, people seem like rotting motion with no free will, I just see motion.
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2022-03-10 at 2:13 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Dunno when I'm old I'll probably start abusing drugs/ getting whores cause life will be dull and shit.
It’s so sad ageing. I used to have this phobia of radioactive decay, didn’t want the sun touching me so it was sunscreen even indoors, if my jeans had rips I’d wear tights underneath. Something I’ve been wondering is if your thoughts can age, and why people think so much of mundane things, to not have better thoughts after all this time on earth, and how stimuli affects thought, like when you want to pick up a cup of coffee so you think about it for a second, what is really causing that?
Sorry I’m hype rn -
2022-03-10 at 1:52 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....I’ve been reading this book of Japanese death poems and now think it’s important to have your last words prepared in advance because you’ll be too out of it at the time.
I almost drowned in the sea a few years ago and was thinking of my mum, that she wouldn’t be able to handle it. That surprised me because my dad was always my favourite and I thought I hated her. -
2022-03-10 at 1:47 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley That won't happen. I was actually thinking this yesterday, will I ever be content? All that changes is my age which in turn makes me more anxious that I'm not appreciating the here and now.
I think I’m not appreciating my family and my sister must be scared af about my sudden change in behaviour. We never got along so now I focus on not being a brat and have started giving her hugs.
What I meant though is at the end of my life I just want to think to myself, not be doing something like people say they want to do hookers. Now it seems more important to be with myself.
I agree it’s hard to find contentment. Happiness is different though. -
2022-03-10 at 1:29 PM UTC in Lol shit just got motherfuckin real in the zone niggasGod I thought that was Boris as a kid for a sec
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2022-03-10 at 2:08 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....I’m thinking about what I’d like to do with my life before I stop existing and then I just felt content all of a sudden to just think.
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2022-03-10 at 2:06 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....
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2022-03-10 at 1:20 AM UTC in Harming women
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2022-03-10 at 1:10 AM UTC in Harassed irl
Originally posted by Haxxor Standing now
Calling all the people here to see the show
Calling for my demons now to let me go
I need something, give me something wonderful
I believe
She won't take me somewhere I'm not supposed to be
You can't steal the things that God has given me
No more pain and no more shame and misery
You can't take me down
You can't break me down
You can't take me down
Love and hate
How much more are we supposed to tolerate?
Can't you see there's more to me than my mistakes
Sometimes I get this feeling - makes me hesitate
I believe
She won't take me somewhere I'm not supposed to be
You can't steal the things that God has given me
No more pain and no more shame and misery
You can't take me down
You can't break me down
I can see a place of trouble
And I'm on the verge
For the love of everybody
I need something more
Now I feel some days of trouble
I'm in the house of war
For the love of everybody
Look behind the wall
Standing now
Calling all the people here to see the show
Calling for my demons now to let me go
I need something, give me something wonderful
What is that? Sounds like fall out boy -
2022-03-09 at 10:20 PM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
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2022-03-09 at 9:44 PM UTC in Harming women
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2022-03-09 at 9:43 PM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?
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2022-03-09 at 9:37 PM UTC in Harming women
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2022-03-09 at 8:26 PM UTC in I want to get DRUNK fucked up I AM NOT THIRSTYYou aight?
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2022-03-09 at 7:48 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
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2022-03-09 at 7:31 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....Bet he’ll breakup with his gf this summer then expect me to be there and fund his coke habit.
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2022-03-09 at 7:28 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....I got a missed call from former fwb. I feel so shitty ignoring people’s calls but Monday night is our movie night and I didn’t hear from him yesterday.
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2022-03-09 at 7:19 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....Idk if I should go meet this random American guy in a hotel. I don’t really feel like sleeping with anyone but at the same time I don’t want him to be the last person I slept with, haven’t had sex since November so maybe I would feel better after?
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2022-03-09 at 5:12 PM UTC in Harming women
Originally posted by Artificial Intelligence You keep repeating that like some kind of talismanic principle as if you think it somehow resolves you doing whatever XYZ thing, when it really just makes you sound like you can self-delude yourself out of any personal growth under any circumstances, even by accident.
That’s the first time I’ve said it and I don’t know what any of that other shit is about. -
2022-03-09 at 3:14 PM UTC in Harassed irl
