I feel suicidal, horny and like I don't want to do anything productive.
Finding it harder to suppress things today. I'm trying not to SH bcus ik I will be going to the rock pools w Jade and can't cover up.
It's nice not having to worry about buying groceries now I'm trying to lose weight.
2023-05-20 at 2:47 AM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
I think Migh could be a glowie. Why would he be so okay with meeting me irl when we've never talked before, if he's a criminal and at risk?
I don't feel like doing anything. The options are: read fairy books, shop, read history or literature, listen to hypnosis to be mentally healthy, catch up on coding, catch up on German, design dresses, clean, study for a certification (I can leave it til next month).
2023-05-20 at 12:47 AM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
So now you know I probably could have found him if I didn't cancel and I hope you all hate me even more.
I said I was busy but I think I would like to make a campfire at the beach at 2am and smoke weed with someone.
My hash dealer got busted but Jade has weed and seems to want to hang out more so maybe I'll have a few weird weeks with her while I sort things.
I feel like making preparations to kill myself now that I can die pretty and exams are over.
Guys she wants to meet up again TONIGHT.
She said all my old friends still meet up every 6 months except for the evil one who was booted from the group. So I may get them back. It would be so weird if I did and I'm not sure if I want them back in my life but I have no friends atm so.