Unsettled, Akira is perched in another room staring at me like she's tracking prey. Does she think I'm going to die today?
Sexism is my motivation today to succeed.
Akira doesn't want to go outside this morning and my heart feels iffy, I'm thinking about how she could be eating my corpse by the evening.
Idk if I should migrate to the new community I found. They're a lot older so I'm hoping they'll be real adults unlike this place, but at the same time I don't want to detach from my age-group like abandoning slang I know people won't understand etc.
2023-12-16 at 2:19 AM UTC
in
Idk what this is
The alter out for revenge is a friend.
2023-12-16 at 1:38 AM UTC
in
Idk what this is
A trauma bond. Friends for almost four years, started messing around the last few months then I freaked out, didn't want to get in any deeper with him so joined nis, and this place did save me from him. Then we were on/off for a year, months at a time. I ended things with him in September.
2023-12-15 at 11:59 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
Idk if the discord app is glitching there was a new update recently but a lot of the servers I'm in have suddenly disappeared
2023-12-15 at 11:40 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
Today I went to the store, ordered takeaway, watched the matrix resurrections, spent a few hours learning hacking, dyed my hair, did one hour of study, listened to forest walk hypnosis, wrote a list of my worries, browsed textfiles and found a new community, ate a t.v dinner, watched the first episode of spy family, now I'm tucked into bed with Akira but don't feel sleepy because I took smart drugs.
2023-12-15 at 11:29 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
Maybe it's because I have a cat now that I'm feeling fear for the first time, because I don't want to lose her.
2023-12-15 at 11:01 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
If it happens again then I'll know my Discord has been hacked and this person is probably trying to get my conversation with Mik which won't happen because I can't bring it up and he blocked me.
2023-12-15 at 10:57 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
I don't think I'm imagining things I definitely blocked them. Like an hour ago and ignored their friend request, then they sent another one
2023-12-15 at 10:52 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
I ignored it but they sent another one idk how I have them blocked
2023-12-15 at 10:29 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
Mik definitely has a type. I have enough things to deal with and now Mik's new psycho gf seems determined to harass me.
2023-12-15 at 10:21 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
What's most worrying is if she was reading our messages then she should know the crazy she's trying to provoke but is still going ahead.
2023-12-15 at 10:13 PM UTC
in
Idk what this is
It's hard to believe someone could be that crazy about Mik.