2023-12-22 at 2:16 PM UTC
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Christmas alone ideas
I have Loop earplugs to reduce noise but am freaking out now because Tesco is hectic when it isn't Christmas and there's going to be things out of stock and long queues.
2023-12-22 at 2:08 PM UTC
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Christmas alone ideas
Those were the only microwave dinners that I ordered so I'm worried I'll starve now if I can't manage to cook the other things.
I kind of don't want the groceries to arrive because I just noticed in the mirror I'm at a goal weight.
I just realised that this whole time I actually believed I only talked with Mik for years. I've been suppressing the two years with Cam. Maybe I could only be myself with Mik.
I feel like I should be asleep but instead I'm up in the middle of the night feeling cracked and learning hacking because I want revenge.
2023-12-21 at 11:58 PM UTC
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To Sophie
I think I know what your discord is. If you ever had billing info attached to your account you can be found.
I can't actually remember last Christmas, been trying to. I think I was alone and played chess with mik.
I'm gonna be blamed for ruining Christmas now but they need to get used to not seeing me there.
It's hard having different family values to people you're in a family with.
She's only ever given me presents for my birthday and Christmas and without fail every year asks when my birthday is. She's never given me anything aside from that but spoils other family members. She wouldn't actually buy me a stamp. I think she only gets me stuff for my birthday and Christmas so she doesn't look bad to other people. So I don't want her Christmas gifts. What kind of parents never wants to buy their child anything and wouldn't even buy them a stamp?
All I did was tell her the truth, that I don't want anything to do with her.
I have this nagging feeling that I've forgotten something for Christmas groceries. I've never cooked a Christmas dinner so am worried I won't think of something important to add to it.
I have mixed emotions today ig. Being estranged from my family is the right step but I'm anticipating manipulation tactics. My mum told me I'm not a nice person.
Ig I feel happy about spoiling myself, I'm excited for Saturday now. And I'm happy about how quickly I'm progressing regarding my studies.
I feel like I'm my final form now and that's a misanthrope, and that the year will be eventful because of that.
My dream is coming back to me now. It was that teleporation was real, I was on a videocall with Cam and wanted to pet his cat so it jumped through the screen. I gave Cam the choice of two silver pills that were metal, uppers and downers. He made the mistake of taking the downer thinking it was a benzo, when really it made him depressed. Then I was in some underground labyrinth. Monks lived there and I think I stole his perfume because it was ancient. In my room underground, brownish bedcovers, a wardrobe and someone was in it. A desk and a fireplace. I had sex with the person.
I think I'm gonna go off on my ex gf. I've realised she probably only cares about me because we met irl, but that if it had stayed online she'd be just like the rest of them. I need to do things for myself for Christmas anyway.
2023-12-21 at 9:24 PM UTC
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To Sophie
My personality is now based off Junji Iti characters, banshees and fickle goddesses.
