Originally posted by Malice
This is absolutely fascinating and really fucking cool.
She definitely has the "autism eyes" thing going on. It's common for us to seem like we're looking past/through people, beyond, gazing into alternate dimensions.
That is fucking cool.
Funny you mention "autism eyes". While 1337 and I were visiting this old guy in the nursing home, the old guy kept mentioning what I was looking at, because during the convo he and 1337 were having, I kept "dazing out" wen I was thinking. 1337 also asks me a lot why I look at him a certain way, or like, when I'm thinking, and zoning out, how he feels like they're pentratng him lol. Guess maybe I have a touch of the "autism eyes".
I'm a bit of a weirdo, I guess, but no surprises there.
As for autism/Alzheimers, it runs in my family. My great grandma had alzheimers, and I think my gramdmother was developing it. Your stack of drugs you advised REALLY fucking helped, but she went to "okay, I'm better now" and was adverse to taking a drug for the rest of her life (despite her taking metformin everyday for years... and oh yeah.. she wasn't diabetic *sarcasm *she was diagnosed hypoglycemic a million years before, and couldn't fathom she was diabetic. -rolls eyes- even though she literally was going blind from it and thought the halos she was seeing was just... cool shit happening.) After that she want fucking insane, paranoid as fuck, accusing everyone of conspiring against her, to rob her, it was fucking nuts. She fucking went to the pharmacy and told the people there she was kidnapped. Like wtf? She ran over my ex's foot with the truck when she was driving too, and damned near hit a tree just pulling out of the drive way. She even acted like a lunatic when I was getting my college books out of the truck with my son on my knee. She threw it in reverse, with me just sitting there and him on my knee, when I said about her keeping the dogs at home since she couldn't control them if she went out with them. Almost dropped my son as she was driving like a maniac screaming for me to get out with the door wide open and her racing down the driveway/road. I almost called the cops, but meh... they would't do shit anyway. Last I saw her, and glad of it, tbh. She was morphed into giant child-cunt. She only hurt my son, her grandchild, by taking his only car seat, some of his mre expensive toys, his spring gear, and my driver's license, and his important papers I had in the glove box. She was a missing person for about a month, until she realized all her accounts were frozen due to her being MIA. She went to go with her sister, whom had used, stolen and abused her mother/my great grandmother, and also had kidnapped her to get her into her custody. I hope her sister is doing the same to her, because despite my pleas as a 11 year old, begging her to do something, step in so she wouldn't be abused anymore, despite clear signs of elder abuse, and the fact her mother, when we visited, way begging for me to get her out of that hell. It pisses me off. Her response was "it's not my business, nothing I can do" despite her not living far from her, and her living in a huge 3 bedroom house where she could have taken care of her there. It was she didn't want to, and had some deep seeded resentment for her mother for one reason or another, claiming her mother should have never had kids, and didn't love her or any of her kids, which was entirely untrue. My grandmother equated "things" and money for love, so growing up not well off, that's how she saw it. She once bitched to me that her father gave her 2 acres of okra he planted for her to pick and sell to buy her prom dress she'd wanted. WHich I saw as him trying to have her work for things she wanted to appreciate them. Nope, that was a slight to her. That was he didn't love her, because she had to work for her dress rather than being given it, right off the bat.
Glad to be away from people like that, honestly. Hope she gets what she gave.
I do worry, however, I will develop alzheimers down the road, if I live long enough... I feel I'm losing my mind now, as a matter of fact, and just glad I have so many people who care about me, including my husband, 1337, who shows me so much love, affection and attention, and is a superb father figure for my son, going above and beyond to help me, and just do nice shit for him. 1337's really happy to be a father, and I'm really happy to have him be such a good person in his life since he's never really had a good father figure before, and I realize the importance a father has in the development of a child.
