2017-09-08 at 10:50 PM UTC
in
You hear the rumors?
I used to think whenever I went to sleep my consciousness was taken over by an alien, probably a jalien, and the lucid dreams were when the device to quantum leap them into me failed and I was able to fly around because I was out of my body but so were they
holy shit getting raped while in a lucid dream with sleep paralysis would be weird
another theory is that dreams are just an alternate universe and that humans aren't evolved enough to live in both lives so the dreams end up being the leftover dementia esque memory engram fragments
Got sober for a week, then sploo was harassing me for money I supposedly owed him even though I already paid him for a knife, he came up with some bullshit lies about me promising him 40 bucks when I said I might buy him spice. So I HAD to start talking to the fuck again because if I didn't he'd keep being a pest making alt accounts and threats that we both knew were unfounded and ridiculous, and then I got sucked back into the retardation and back on drugs because he wouldn't stfu about his little salvia Crouton fetish
ended up 86ing him and ever since I've felt alot less stressed and my ''disorganized schizophrenia'' symptoms have gone away leading me to believe it was just talking to him that was fucking with my life
So I'm back to being a human again
also I was spending a LOT of time learning python and trying to set routines in my life so I could be better at performing tasks/feel a sense of purpose
so most of the days I spent mastering/mixing/making music, learning python, working on sprites and backdrops for a vidya gaim im probably never gonna end up finishing, playing video games, and doing stimulants
2017-09-08 at 10:43 PM UTC
in
How much do you make per year?
like 30 pounds of pure crystal atleast
nah I got no job im applying for disability so free money for life because sploo assaulted me giving me a brain injury
seems like an ok trade tbh
uhhhhhhhhhhhhh
whats his name
the dude who was on that show
2017-09-08 at 10:36 PM UTC
in
why are drugs so addictive
because sobriety wasn't the way zod wanted huemons to experience ''life''
everything is a hologram
even your neurons
even your dopamines
even your shitty genes
70 years of being a brownshirt, fuck no
2017-09-08 at 10:34 PM UTC
in
Why bundy is a shitty drug
Other than the fact it does cause olneys lesions, or atleast some form of widespread apoptosis because theres no way the people ive seen fuck themselves over with bundy don't have long term disability as a result
Since its just conjecture assuming this is as a result of bundy I'll give you an example
Jim dillweed used to be a quick witted autist. He abused high doses of bundy for years and still does. Now he's a slow, slurring, quite mongolroy appearing individual. Was it the bundy? Was it everything else? Was he just always like this?
Here's a clinical report which doesn't really prove that bundy is neurotoxic but it shows that most bundy users are polydrug addicts which could be evidence of it causing a long term lack of judgement and exacerbates drug abuse, leading to more brain damage
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Case reports and studies demonstrate that there are patterns associated with dextromethor phan abuse. A study using data reported to the National Poison Data System identified Coricidin as the most (65.5%) commonly abused dextromethorphan product until 2006; its abuse has decreased since that time (p < 0.0001). The most common abuse effects and toxicities cited in studies and case reports include agitation, confusion, central nervous system depression, tachycardia, hypertension, lethargy, psychosis, hallucinations, mydriasis, dizziness, and cardiotoxicity. One study identified that 96% of samples tested positive for other substances in addition to dextromethorphan. Coingestion of other substances is also common among dextromethorphan abusers.
Conclusions:
Case reports and studies demonstrate that there are patterns associated with dextromethorphan abuse. It is difficult to identify dextromethorphan as the causative agent of abuse effects because of coingestion of other substances. Studies should examine the pharmacist's role and the association between dextromethorphan sales restrictions and abuse patterns.
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I failed to find any conclusive data about olneys lesions being proven from bundy alone, and nmda antagonists can be neuroprotective
the action on sodium channels probably causes cardiotoxicity
the sigma is some real bullshit
the high is mediocre at best compared to every other dissociative I've tried
Even without guaf. the nausea is really inconvenient
nicotinic a7 antagonism is pretty much giving yourself schizophrenia
bundy is garbage
2017-09-08 at 10:18 PM UTC
in
Fuck all rhetorazepam plebs
REH
BUT MEH EH KWEH
MEK ME SMEH
AM I SMEH YEH
2017-09-08 at 10:17 PM UTC
in
Rip off artists
Just kill anyone who fucks you over in any way and you wont be mad
my balls hang even lower than that
they look like a cock's waddle
ever smoke a cigarette off the side of the road
I hope people who do that get aids
2017-09-08 at 10:14 PM UTC
in
I need some inspiring words
If you shoot yourself in the heart with a shotgun all your organs will turn to mush
its a fitting end
I squared up against a bald midget cop weilding a boxcutter and every time he punched me i got back up and kept going at him to the point where i was knocked out
Woke up in a cop car
Hummed the king of the hill theme song for 25 minutes until he brought me to the station and my parents picked me up
Was like 14
Met the dude again when i had to save my dads life, he approached me and i said
Hey remember that time you used unnecessary force
I bet you really enjoy the small things
I was on drugs
We are apes with technology
They are literal apes
Apes dont think about space
2017-09-06 at 11:56 PM UTC
in
How do I get out of a loop
Ever since i took a week off drugs and started being a degenerate stim addict again ive regressed to almost never leaving the house, rambling semi inchoerent disorganized thoughts, starting peojcts and half assing them but atleast trying to do something constructive
Inb4 get a job
Ive been phineas gaged from getting a frontal lobe injeu ever since then ive been a schleproy
Suggestions? Me and sploo made a best of album, i have an online radio station thats like an unofficial NIS circlejerk of incoherency
Anyone who wants to contribute just vid chat ill link it so your voice gets broascasted
Im really fucked here
Also benzo WD peob has somethin to do with it
Ive been reading alot of autismo scifi and reading up on the history of computers and trying to learn programming via non executive modular reading
Like reading everything about it until my brain connects the dots
